the ugly truth

and the truth is very ugly, and we dont really want to know it.

and yes, this post is mostly based on the movie.

women do have checklist of their perfect guy. but when will it ever knock us in the head and make us realise that: THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS PERFECT??

its always the odds one that makes u feel giddy..

its always the ones who doesnt check any point on ur list, that makes u feel happy..

the perfect one doesnt exist.

even if they do, they're most probably  not meant for you.

so suck it up ladies. embrace what u have, and what's in front of you.. or what's coming your way.. but not to a point where u become dogs and just grab whatever is in front of you.. but, you know what i mean.

i hope this register in my head.

its amazing..

how people can easily pour their heart out on a blog.

no, im not being sarcastic, nor am i judging.. but seriously, i am really amazed by these people. because seriously, i cant. am i guarded? maybe. am i insecure about myself? most definitely. but its kinda nice to have your feelings out there you know.. its not held inside you, and you can actually resolve it pieces by pieces.

its like this: when u have a tangled rope, or in my case, tangled wires of my laptop's cable, chargers, and other stuff that are constantly attached to the multiple socket connection thingy (the name of the thing just doesnt register to my head right now), then, to untangle it, u have to sort it out one by one, and then maybe, tie them up together, neatly, so that, it wont be messy.. right? well, at least, some people do that... so yea, then, problem solved. thats also the case with human brain. when u have problem, u take everything out, u compartmentalise it, then.. u sort it out one by one. problem solved. pretty cool method isnt it? and its working really well too.. well, for everyone else at least.

and its also amazing how other people's story can actually jolt a positive thinking and feeling in yourself.

inspiring. motivating. gratitude.

those are the feelings that i have today.

inspired to do a good deed to others.. pursuing my dreams..

motivating in a way, where i am having a dream again. what i want to achieve, and maybe help people achieve theirs..

and gratitude.. for everything that i have, or still have. compared to those who may have lost it.

thank you for giving me this day, and living it.

im grateful.

and now, im off to bed. peace out yo.

its so hard..

.. when ure keeping a secret, that u know no one should know.

.. when u like an old friend, and know u cant do anything bout it.

.. when money become the issue.

.. when u missed ur family more than u know u could.

.. when ure down, and no one's gonna pick u back up.

ok. im starting to make things up. lol.

but, its hard, nonetheless :P

you know what..

I COULDNT BE HAPPY-ER!

and i do love u kakak.

summer_breeze

thats when i realise..

i do miss home so much..

that i am willing to work and collect money up until 400 quid just to go back home

i do want to witness the 1st one in our family to get engage this raya..

i want to celebrate raya at home this year

last but not least,

i can no longer sleep earlier than 3pm.

i am so messed up.

i really need to find a job to get that 400 quid before the price shoot up even more.

i miss home.

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reminiscing.

i did just that, and it sucks.

yes, i wasnt in the popular loop.

yes, i wasnt the prettiest.

yes, i wasnt the brightest.

yes, the guy that i really like and piled on, never liked me back.

yes, i have that very low self esteem.

have i regretted any of those, maybe not.

because im pretty happy with where i am right now, and how far ive come.

but i cant help to think back on the days, and how much have i missed out.

sigh.

it just couldnt get any worse

the departed of nek saibon.

extra load of coursework -- make it 5 this week.

tooth ache. terrrrible!

NISE practice . . .

malaysian night practice. and lack of support i must add.

and then.. the biggest one among all - -RESULT.

this week just suck.

 

::summer_breeze::