End Of Year Report

Goodmorning everyone.

the year is coming to an end. in less than a month's time, we are going to say bye-bye to 2011. and hello to 2012. about this time, if not earlier last year, i made a wishlist, on what i want. click here.

happy to say, ive achieved 3 out of 4 items on my wish list! yeayy!!

clause:

1, i havent got my iMac yet. geographically inconvenient for me to own one of such yet. perhaps postpone it to 2012? we'll see.. :D

2, for blackberry, refer to the post after that. i switched torchy to curve. just that i didnt get the red one. hehs.

well, i also said that i want to be a billionaire.. but no. thats not happening yet. or anytime soon, i think.

so, note to all: set a wishlist that is actually do-able. dont go on and set a target that's waaaaay out of ur capacity. well, people say, thats the whole point of dreaming and wishing. fair enuff if you ARE putting an effort into it. my advice, make a certain timeline for u achieve the major ones, cause that will inspire u more. but, simply by dreaming and wishing? it'll definitely lead you nowhere near WANTING TO ACCOMPLISH IT, cause you know you already have this mindset that its impossible. so end up, you didnt achieve anything. then u get frustrated. and u gave up. and made another impossible dream... and the cycle continues.

now, wont that just be silly? and a waste of time?

nigel green of Radio 4 (now known as Traxx FM) used to say,

"Shoot for the moon. Even if you missed, you'll land among the stars.."

you know what i say? i say, calculate then shoot. if you missed, calculate again. but if u did ur calculation correctly the first time, you'll get it straight and u won't miss it. wont that be nicer, confidence booster, and provides u more momentum to keep on dreaming and pursuing.. and actually ACHIEVE?

a malay saying goes: Ukur Baju di Badan Sendiri. so do that. im not asking u not to dream. but the joy of accomplishing something is way better than dreaming something that u are sure u wont be getting. worse, if ure not even going to work for it.

so 2012 is coming. make the list of things that you want to achieve/own/disown/remove/change. and by end of year, evaluate yourself. lets see if you did better than this year.

as for me, alhamdulillah. ive achieved almost all that ive targeted. now is time to set for new ones.

im a cynic. i know. but all im trying to say is, keep dreaming - pursue - and achieve!

puasa sunat

pada suatu tengah hari di hari asyura...

KSW: "nadya, there's no sun!"

aku still blur2. oh. i guess dia tgh cakap pasal opis yg super gelap (sbb lights out during lunch time) and its really gloomy out. so, ok...

me: "yea. its really dark. its soo gloomy~~"

SWK:"yea! so u can eat now!"

.

.

.

.

.

aku mampu ketawa sahaja. hahahaha!

Selamat Berpuasa Sunat Hari Asyura semua!

Dear Nino,

Hye sayang.. CuYa here. first of all, CuYa would like to apologize sebab CuYa lambat welcome Nino sitok.. i wanted to do it earlier, but my internet was always such a problem, kak ya lamak2 CuYa terus lupak mok blog even..

so here goes,

WELCOME MOHAMAD SYAFFIQUE SYAIFFRIE!

MOHAMAD SYAFFIQUE SYAIFFRIE

a.k.a Niño

D.O.B: 28th June 2011

T.O.B: 9.30pm

P.O.B: Kuala Lumpur Hospital (HKL)

Secondly, CuYa harap Niño cepat2 sihat k. sian mama papa bingong hal nino. CuYa selalu doa Nino cepat2 sihat. CuYa beraie mok jmpa Niño. so u be a strong boy k, sweetheart. Kelak boleh chelen Didier Drogba. :D

Know that, eventhough CuYa jauh, CuYa loves you so much, and really wants to come back and see you.

사랑해... 진짜 보고싶어...

uncertainty

if you start to doubt, its never a good sign.

but when u are in doubt, return back to The One who Knows All. only He can help you sort your head out.

"La tahzan.. Innallaha ma'ana.."

crossroads

".. there are only 2 endings for us to choose from.."

friday morning yang macam cili

"Perasaan aku macam, kau tgh lapa giler 2 hari tak makan. n then kau dh jmpe makanan... banana split lak tuh, pastu dh nak jamah dah, pastu tuan punya banana split tu dtg ckp, "eh, tak boleh makan laa,, sorry" dgn muka mengada dan gedik.

mau kau nak lempang muka org tu sampai kepala dia berpusing?"

-Nadya MSS, 17 July 2011

Saffiya Athirah Saperee

i really hope its not too late to welcome the new little missy to the Suyong's family line:

SAFFIYA ATHIRAH SAPEREE

D.O.B: 3rd June 2011

T.O.B: 10.33pm

P.O.B: General Hospital Miri

your cute little face is the one thing that i cant wait to go back to..

wait for CuYa k, syimeng!

<3

and to Nino, cant wait for you arrival too, kiddo! ;)

my girls

never think i could miss you guys (girls?) more....

the days we spent were too hard to replace kan? wish im with you guys, or guys are here with me..

and to Miss whos now a Mrs,

축하 합니다!

wishlist

i found this on a friend's page..

and it got me thinking.

i have never really SHOPPED and DRANK COFFEE

in Paris.

unless buying tonnes of souvenirs and eating a McFlurry ice cream can replace the 2,

then probably i can say i've done it all.

:)

alhamdulillah...

i have been asking myself..

what is it that i really want in my life?

seems like i'm blessed with pretty much everything that i want and need..

but why does it feels like, something is wrong..

future planning

ZodiacFacts says, "As a Capricorn, being too analytical doesnt protect you as much as you think"

Lately future has been playing like a movie in my head.. but with many MANY different endings..

"Que Sera Sera"

When I was just a little girl

I ask my mother what will I be

Will I be pretty, will I be rich

Here's what she said to me

Que sera sera, whatever will be, will be

The future's not ours to see

Que sera sera,

what will be, will be...

I used to love to sing and hum to this song ever since i was a kid.

but whatever it is, in my plan book, there will still be a list of plans, till Plan Z.

the story only i didnt know

if i am given a chance to relive my past...

i don't think i would want to change a thing.

you made me who i am and how i am today.

*wording has no direct relation to song's meaning. but this song triggered a memory and a feeling towards the whole post. and to that person.. thank you for all the scar. im glad you're happy now*

life goes on..

.. no matter how hard it is.

ever since highschool, i have been holding on to this. but nowadays, the thought of going back to the simpler days, has constantly occupying my mind. not saying im having a horrible life. im actually living the dream. working at a huge company. doing things ive ALWAYS wanted to do, even though just on a training-employee basis. but awesome work none-the-less. im surrounded with good friends. they actually do exist. i have a family that loves me, and very proud of me. i have people i can turn to when heart's in chaos, mind in turmoil.

but.. a simpler life. that is always a better option, right? your worry is less. your problems are just petty problems. future is not that much of a concern. and huge matter, it is not. i want to go back to the days, where i am still staying with mama papa in that house of ours. listening to them jabber and nag on the way sending me to school, and on the way return.. during lunch and dinner together. or mama sometimes came into the room, and talk about stuff. i want the days, when i was rebellious.. and actually mad at mama for not letting me watch TV. those days, i was taken care of. not a single moment my heart was in chaos. and mind in turmoil -- except for exams.

exams. that was the easier obstacle, came to think of it. now, there are bosses to be pleased. colleagues to be entertained. a name to uphold. a salary to maintain. a roof on the head to be kept. another heart to be treasured as your own....

sigh. i guess this is a sign i am getting older. and hopefully more matured. although, despite all.. i am grateful for what is given, laid out or thrown to my face -- that what made me who i am today.

someday

.. someone will stop making tears fall down my face.

mood to write

in the mood to write.

but idea drains out at a rate so fast, it made your head spins.

love. or just the direction to it?

wishing you are near..

hugs from far.

anyongha-seyo!

anyongha-seyo! panggapsa-mida~

who would have expected my year this year would be such a roller-coaster ride.

began the new year with a ship-board trip to himeji, and back. and now, im in geoji-si, south korea! and what else, will be here for the next 6 months, insyaAllah! what do we do here? (we - a bunch of MISC scholars and some seniors) we are attached for some knowledge transfer and experience exposure with DSME, one of the biggest - if not the biggest; shipbuilding and marine engineering company in the world.

arrived here about 5 days ago, and LOVING the atmosphere. the mountains (meaning loads of climbing to and fro from work). the view. the temperature mostly.. aih. reminding me so much of newcastle. loving the quiet and relaxing atmosphere. though okpo-dong is a bit crowded, but still. tolerable ;)

im pretty excited for the next 6 months here. the team im attached to is pretty awesome, too. my supervisor, mr Kim, and my team mates, are very nice and friendly. and i must say, im starting to like the language (well, i dont really have much choice there, dont i? ;) )

anyhu, right now i'm waiting for the boys to get ready to go to gohyeon-dong -- basically on the other side of the island, somewhere near SHI area. probably going to do some shopping, ey? ;)

so, till then folks.

i told you so (part II)

i dont know what it means, but it definitely bring back memories.. not so much of good ones.

happy new year!

ok. this is a all-in-one post. catching up with whatever had happened in life since I last update anything.

first and foremost,

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011, and to THE YEAR OF RABBITS!

(including me!)

wow. its already february, and life has been like a roller coaster..

lets see, life in MISC starts on 16th november (which i have mentioned before), then.. all office work .. bla bla bla. then, 31st December, signed-on SS Puteri Firus Satu, and had an awesome chance to be onboard an LNG vessel, and be fascinated by the operation -- especially the cargo ops. honestly, im so amazed and blown over by the life onboard, and the amount of work done to maintain the vessel, until i am inspired to be one of the crew me-self!

SS Puteri Firus Satu

anyhu, onboard Firus Satu, is defo not just an awesome learning experience, but definitely occupied a chapter in my life! celebrated my 23rd birthday onboard, and i tell ya -- my birthdays never went by without a party. ;)

happy birthday to me and happy new year!

and a chance to step on the land of the rising sun -- well, it was just Himeji, but still.. was one liberating experience. though it lasted for only 5 hours of shore-leave, but it defo was a total bonus!

with Akashi-Kaikyo Bridge at the background

with kind and friendly master and chiefs, also the engineers, officers and crews - life onboard Firus Satu was definitely one for us to cherish, and deeply miss.

with the engineers onboard and a chief officer

moving on, now back to office. and just had a looooong 1 week holiday - long enough to make me feel inspired and excited to get back to work! tonnnnnes of work are piling, waiting for me to come back, defo. but you know what, BRING IT ON!

wow. many MANY plans are lying in front of us, and i am excited as to what those plans will lead me to. honestly, with too many uncertainties, i feel like a buoy - bounce and move however the wave hit you.

above all, i'm excited. and will try keep on track, no matter what.

so here goes,

"CHEERS TO A YEAR FILLED WITH UNCERTAINTIES AND SURPRISES"

and 2011 ..

YOU SURE WILL BE ONE HELL OF A RIDE!

heart-ache

there's an ache in the heart.

it feels like a heart burn, but rather than burning.. it just ache.

like something that you wish you can remove, but it just wont go away.

they said, if you feel that way, that means you are keeping a secret.

one that you know another one should know,

but you just dont know how to tell.

.. or you think it is better off, not known.

it is still an ache none-the-less.

so, is it safe, if you know?