the story only i didnt know

if i am given a chance to relive my past...

i don't think i would want to change a thing.

you made me who i am and how i am today.

*wording has no direct relation to song's meaning. but this song triggered a memory and a feeling towards the whole post. and to that person.. thank you for all the scar. im glad you're happy now*

life goes on..

.. no matter how hard it is.

ever since highschool, i have been holding on to this. but nowadays, the thought of going back to the simpler days, has constantly occupying my mind. not saying im having a horrible life. im actually living the dream. working at a huge company. doing things ive ALWAYS wanted to do, even though just on a training-employee basis. but awesome work none-the-less. im surrounded with good friends. they actually do exist. i have a family that loves me, and very proud of me. i have people i can turn to when heart's in chaos, mind in turmoil.

but.. a simpler life. that is always a better option, right? your worry is less. your problems are just petty problems. future is not that much of a concern. and huge matter, it is not. i want to go back to the days, where i am still staying with mama papa in that house of ours. listening to them jabber and nag on the way sending me to school, and on the way return.. during lunch and dinner together. or mama sometimes came into the room, and talk about stuff. i want the days, when i was rebellious.. and actually mad at mama for not letting me watch TV. those days, i was taken care of. not a single moment my heart was in chaos. and mind in turmoil -- except for exams.

exams. that was the easier obstacle, came to think of it. now, there are bosses to be pleased. colleagues to be entertained. a name to uphold. a salary to maintain. a roof on the head to be kept. another heart to be treasured as your own....

sigh. i guess this is a sign i am getting older. and hopefully more matured. although, despite all.. i am grateful for what is given, laid out or thrown to my face -- that what made me who i am today.

someday

.. someone will stop making tears fall down my face.

mood to write

in the mood to write.

but idea drains out at a rate so fast, it made your head spins.

love. or just the direction to it?

wishing you are near..

hugs from far.

anyongha-seyo!

anyongha-seyo! panggapsa-mida~

who would have expected my year this year would be such a roller-coaster ride.

began the new year with a ship-board trip to himeji, and back. and now, im in geoji-si, south korea! and what else, will be here for the next 6 months, insyaAllah! what do we do here? (we - a bunch of MISC scholars and some seniors) we are attached for some knowledge transfer and experience exposure with DSME, one of the biggest - if not the biggest; shipbuilding and marine engineering company in the world.

arrived here about 5 days ago, and LOVING the atmosphere. the mountains (meaning loads of climbing to and fro from work). the view. the temperature mostly.. aih. reminding me so much of newcastle. loving the quiet and relaxing atmosphere. though okpo-dong is a bit crowded, but still. tolerable ;)

im pretty excited for the next 6 months here. the team im attached to is pretty awesome, too. my supervisor, mr Kim, and my team mates, are very nice and friendly. and i must say, im starting to like the language (well, i dont really have much choice there, dont i? ;) )

anyhu, right now i'm waiting for the boys to get ready to go to gohyeon-dong -- basically on the other side of the island, somewhere near SHI area. probably going to do some shopping, ey? ;)

so, till then folks.

i told you so (part II)

i dont know what it means, but it definitely bring back memories.. not so much of good ones.