End Of Year Report

Goodmorning everyone.

the year is coming to an end. in less than a month's time, we are going to say bye-bye to 2011. and hello to 2012. about this time, if not earlier last year, i made a wishlist, on what i want. click here.

happy to say, ive achieved 3 out of 4 items on my wish list! yeayy!!

clause:

1, i havent got my iMac yet. geographically inconvenient for me to own one of such yet. perhaps postpone it to 2012? we'll see.. :D

2, for blackberry, refer to the post after that. i switched torchy to curve. just that i didnt get the red one. hehs.

well, i also said that i want to be a billionaire.. but no. thats not happening yet. or anytime soon, i think.

so, note to all: set a wishlist that is actually do-able. dont go on and set a target that's waaaaay out of ur capacity. well, people say, thats the whole point of dreaming and wishing. fair enuff if you ARE putting an effort into it. my advice, make a certain timeline for u achieve the major ones, cause that will inspire u more. but, simply by dreaming and wishing? it'll definitely lead you nowhere near WANTING TO ACCOMPLISH IT, cause you know you already have this mindset that its impossible. so end up, you didnt achieve anything. then u get frustrated. and u gave up. and made another impossible dream... and the cycle continues.

now, wont that just be silly? and a waste of time?

nigel green of Radio 4 (now known as Traxx FM) used to say,

"Shoot for the moon. Even if you missed, you'll land among the stars.."

you know what i say? i say, calculate then shoot. if you missed, calculate again. but if u did ur calculation correctly the first time, you'll get it straight and u won't miss it. wont that be nicer, confidence booster, and provides u more momentum to keep on dreaming and pursuing.. and actually ACHIEVE?

a malay saying goes: Ukur Baju di Badan Sendiri. so do that. im not asking u not to dream. but the joy of accomplishing something is way better than dreaming something that u are sure u wont be getting. worse, if ure not even going to work for it.

so 2012 is coming. make the list of things that you want to achieve/own/disown/remove/change. and by end of year, evaluate yourself. lets see if you did better than this year.

as for me, alhamdulillah. ive achieved almost all that ive targeted. now is time to set for new ones.

im a cynic. i know. but all im trying to say is, keep dreaming - pursue - and achieve!

in another life...

its kinda hard to erase you, ya kna.

its annoying.

who to trust?

the blurry line between the actual truth with propaganda.

what has the world turn into? a friggin' stage show for everyone to enjoy every bit of drama that they can milk out of a situation? blerkh!

is the world too bored with their own mundane life that they have to create such an issue out of a small matter? or the matter really is deserving of the highlights and propaganda and exposure? if it so, then fine. but who's to control bout what one think of the matter. and their actions to it. then that lead to another whole plot of drama. which then lead to another propaganda. and voila. we have another hot, number 1 'broadway' for the whole world to enjoy.

again.

blerkh.

i can be a bit paranoid and skeptical when it comes to trusting all these sources for news. hence why i used to become ignorant and couldnt care less about the news. (note: used to. because now ive started reading them believe it or not) even now, i still get very emotional reading whats going on around the globe.

so i prefer reading informational material rather than live updates on worldly matter. (note: PREFER. but doesnt mean i dont read them at all, dont it?)

heh. ignorant u say? then let me be. i would like to live in my own peace of mind thankyouverymuch.

kbye.

secret recipe

(not the cake shop, defo.)

"in life, there must ALWAYS a portion left for RESPECT.

if not, you'll definitely die in this 'doggy-dog' world."

(haha.)

people tend to forget this. even i did.

RESPECT. all you need is RESPECT.

respect the authority. respect the law. respect your and other people's religion. respect the elders. respect your family. and also, not forgetting your peers. your colleagues. your friends. especially your best friends -- because they are the ones that you tend to overlook, when it comes to showing them respect. too many hearts have been broken because of this, so its important for us to remind each other of this.

may all the hearts be mend.

and all the troubles be solved.

harmony is not only dreamt,

if respect be restored

ps: those who dont watch modern family wont find the 'doggy-dog' thing that funny. hehe :P

this topic was also mentioned here

helluva week

*ting ting ting*
(hitting spoon on glass)

"LETS CHEER FOR A HELLUVA WEEK!"
(glass clattering)

post #280

humans are like snakes. they are very sleek and sneaky. when you least expect, thats when they attack.

no one is an exception.

i have a question

would it be better if;

we are socially retarded

or

we are mere anti-social

?

i try to tell myself

and it goes out to you as well.

duckface korean style

*definition cilok from here

duckface korean style however, it is where u tried to make ur lips small and squished together, and sometimes, might accompanied by peace hand-sign.

yes. koreans are cute. charming. pretty. gorgeous. why? because they are, naturally.

but to be honest, i dont really like korean actors. because the girls act in a way, i think they are being too fake. and the guys, they are.. well, they are not bad actually.

but what's alarming is that when WE, normal being, mere mortal, simple people - tried to be these awesome, gorgeous people - by doing the duckface-korean-style. and its not enough that u do it in one photo, you just have to do it many MANY photos. its ok if you want to do it, and keep it to yourself, or maybe just hang it in your room. but, if among 100 photos you posted online, and 98 of them are of you doing such poses - and i must add, its all at the same angle (ie camera at 45 degree above your head), with the same style -- seriously babe, get a real face and stick with that. that would be my best advice for you.

thank you for reading my rants.

random

i found it on a friend's blog. and i think its nice to share, since the theme of my previous posts are of the same.

Doa yang kupanjatkan ketika aku masih gadis:
“Ya Allah berikanlah aku calon suami yang baik,
yang sholeh, yang beriman.
Berikanlah aku suamiyang dapat
kujadikan imam utk keluargaku. amin."

credit to: http://www.isdaryanto.com/doa-imajiner

goodluck to me, and goodluck to you.

to those who is, or going to, practice this, insyaAllah, with the baraqah that comes with Ramadhan, may your prayers be answered, your eyes be opened. amiin.

teach-er

the saying always goes,

a teacher is like a candle.
they burn so bright for others, while they suffer, as the wax melt, and they got shorter..
and eventually.. gone.

what a teacher did to you and for you, until you've become who you are, and where you are now (given that you work as hard as they work on you); is just priceless. their selfless act in educating you, guiding you, wanting only for you to become a better person in the future - a treasure for the nation, your society, your family - there's nothing you can do to repay.

but i say,

teachers are like scented candle. they don't just brighten up your life when its dark, but also enhanced it with the sweet scent that can give you tranquility and a serene atmosphere - and make you feel good about yourself.

but in 'summer pudding's case, it gives this sweet candy-like smell, that will make you just want to cuddle up, listen to cute songs, and play dress up. or maybe read a book. lol. but i do have to admit, looking at this photo does make me miss Miss H. im so gonna miss giving you this as a present for your birthday, babe.. :'(

as an ending,

selamat berpuasa everyone~!
(tho its already the 5th day today. LOL!)
marhaban ya ramadhan!

hangen

yep. hangen as in furiously mad. or just mad. or anything within that perimeter.

this is just something random that moza shared with me.

Perbuatan lelaki yang membuatkan GF naik angin:

1. Lupa perkara penting

2. Komen tabiat makan

3. Tak pedulikan GF sebab buat hal sendiri

4. Tolak ajakan GF sebab ade agenda sendiri yang tak melibatkan GF.

haha. i hate to admit it, but it is so true. and yes, we love the attention, and we demand it. so deal with it.

emo

BUTTERFLY EFFECT

when a small thing change, they said it would really change many future events.

like dominos effect. u push just 1 tiny domino. then everything just collapse.

so can i cause such effect too?

probably, if you're looking in a wider, universal sense..

but to those that matter.. probably not so much.

so.. why bother?

blackhole in random

today, just had my ship design exam, and alhamdulillah, all praises and gratitudes are just for Him - all the questions asked are the ones that i attempted the night before.

and now (when i am supposed to be finish my readings for FMP), i was thinking to myself, there are few thoughts that i always wanted to put up here, but just couldn't find the time to do so. so, i think im going to do it now (i bet mummy yu would come down and yell at me to start revising, if she knows im doing this :P)

first, is racism. EVERYONE is a racist. yes, and you too. despite whatever you say, or whatever you believe in, you are racist. if not entirely, maybe just a little bit. if u still think that you are not, then you're living in denial. i know i can be too sometimes. but few things that has been happening around me made me feel uncomfortable and disgusted to those who are. seriously. and then there's this thing with al-jazeera, and the malaysian politician who commented on this racism issue, and cursed while at it. hurm. i shall not comment further. but i do stand by my belief. we are ALL racist, so stop living in denial. but dont let that provoke you. but maybe let it inspire you.

second, letting the blind leading you, a person with healthy sight, crossing the road. one of the thing that strike me lately, how foolishly one can act, when given power, money and freedom of speech. im not talking about anyone in particular, nor does this apply to everyone. but generally, if you open your eyes a little wider, and take an 'eagle eye view' to this matter, you will see what i mean. and then, one of the small sign of qiamah comes to mind: "when the fools are chosen to be the leader". hurm. points to ponder. time to reflect.

third, i love my country. i was born with this instinct. but somehow lately, ive been reading and watching those who claim that the sparks is no longer there, and attractions now became annoyance. there are many things are yet to be improved in our country, because obviously no country is perfect. im sure this does not occur to me only. but fortunately, i am coming back to the country and willing to do anything in my power, to right the wrong - bring improvement anywhere possible - out spite of my love for the country. but for those who just lost interest? hurm.. its like this. when you are in a relationship with someone, it started off with you being in love with them. and then, obviously, you would want to always try to keep that love alive right? i mean, keep the relationship exciting, maintain yourself attractive to the other person. right? that also applies in the case of our love to our country. but dont you dare just put this responsibility to those who are in the rankings, because you too need to do something about this. they say, it needs 2 to tango. "hujan emas di negara orang, hujan batu di negara sendiri. lebih baik negara sendiri".

hurm. ive been rambling enough. its time to go back to my revision. ya Allah, i really need to score the rest of the papers. R&P had sucked my energy and enthusiasm like a blackhole.

which then reminds me. i love this quote from Glee this week:

"You know what happen when a star dies, Bryan? It doesnt just disappear. It turns into this black hole, this giant energy sucking mass that doesn't just collapse in on itself - it takes away any lights that comes close down with it."

-Will Schuster

dont let them take away your dreams. cause baby, you are a star in your own dream.

ps: i guess this is a random post. :P i hope i wont get into any trouble by posting this.

baju tradisional

aku maok banyak gik baju kebaya.
sik lalek lah.
kebaya nyonya ka.
kebaya cheongsam ka.
kebarung kali sik mok juak.
tp, aku sik duli.
aku tauk aku sik maok baju kurung dah.
mun mok polah baju kurung, aku mok kurung pesen.
aku dah makin gemok.
so baju nok boleh berik aku shape, that is preferable.
sapa2 boleh tolong panjangkan perkara tok ngn me mama, sila berbuat demikian.

sekian terima kasih.

love knows no... creation

... even for a cat

daddy

backstreet boys used to say,

"i dont care who you are,

where you from,

what you did;

as long as u love me.."

but my daddy said, he DOES.

they're just not that into you

i once read somewhere,

MEN ARE NOT COMPLICATED, although they'd like you to think that they are. And there are NO mixed messages.

the truth is, he may just NOT that into you.

how do you know this?

• when he's not asking you out
• when he's too busy to pick up the phone
• doesn't like the words 'relationships' or 'boyfriend'

-from the book, he's just not that into you

but who's to say, this actually doesn't apply to girls as well? and maybe, SHE's just not that into you.

it is pretty interesting, how girls can be so similar to guys, despite we always hear them say what a jerk guys can be. face it girls, we can be JERKS, too. it is just that we are more sensitive to this kind of thing, and have more compassion, compared to the male race.

so no more pointing fingers, as to who wreck a relationship more. 'cause, people, we are all assholes - that is, if we haven't found that right person yet. cause if we do, we wont even dare to hurt them, let alone treat them like piece of trash.

apocalypse 2012

speculations and predictions have been made about this particular topic.

a movie is already out, and is dominating the box office charts, based on this scaring-thought-kind of-plot.

before this, i just ignore this fact. well, this kind of thing is not really within our grasp of knowledge and will and we wont know anything definite about the end of days/time, because obviously it is Allah's will. kun fayakun he says, then everything will happen. but the climate change (UK is still within the range of 5-15 degree of temperature), the chaos (all the wars around the world, political craze in my dear homeland), the world disaster (tsunamis, flashflood in the northern uk, seriously??), all pointing towards this little (but not so little) prediction.

watching a documentary about this today (yes, i have started watching discovery channel. lol), really makes me think. what if it really happens. and the predictions and the evidence really is pointing towards the apocalypse in 2012.. am i prepared?

well, i am pretty sure i am not. my ibadah is definitely not enough. my deeds towards my parents is not yet fulfilled. and i havent even achieve the goal of my life yet.

but who am i to say, "i havent achieve this, i havent done that, i am not prepared, so dont let it happen yet, please." He is the Almighty, and He has the power to do whatever he wants to do. and its all up to us wether or not we should prepare ourself for this particular day.

so bottomline, no one knows when THE APOCALYPSE shall come. it could be tomorrow, it can be next week, it can be 21-12-2012. or it can 20 years, or maybe even 100 years from now, but either way prepare yourself. knock some more sense in your head: LIFE IS NOT ONLY ABOUT LIVING, you need to prepare for that judgement day, too.

wallahualam.

random thoughts on a monday morning

its now 9.56 am, and right now im in sibu. yes. there is length of a story that follows my return, which i will create another post especially for it. but right now, i am all about my random thoughts.

random thoughts #1

i think i fear commitment. its really weird whenever anyone approaches me, seeking for a relationship, it scares me so much, that i almost literally push them away. why this happen, i do not know. well, i do know. but i dont really feel like sharing it with anyone.

random thoughts #2

u know the song IRIS by GOO GOO DOLLS. thats a good song, no? i was just listening to it, and it struck me: is there such a person out there? or is there such a person who'll sing that to me and mean it?

random thoughts #3

ever since i got back, i dont really do anything exciting.. heck, nothing even close to interesting. is it because i only had come back for 4 days, or is it because i havent been going out much? i think it is both. im really that boring am i. lol

random thoughts #4

LOVE STORY by TAYLOR SWIFT actually put me to tears. u know the line where she sang:

"Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.

I love you, and that's all I really know.

I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress

It's a love story, baby just say... yes."

how sweet is that?? goodness.. kudos to taylor for such a lovely voice, and beautiful lyrics. cmon mr romeo, come and sweep me off my feet.

random thoughts #5

dont you think its weird that my thoughts now mostly revolve around relationships and love? is it my biological clock ticking, or is it just the mood in the air -- with abang's engagement coming up, and me being single, and mimie and her relationship going a-okay..  hurmm.. i think it is the mood that's in the air. damn the mood. now im all gooey and mushy.

random thoughts #5

i think im getting fatter. shoot. its very depressing okay. and with other people keep pointing it out -- IT IS NOT HELPING!! but there is no one to blame but myself. so, whats next? stop getting fat-er, or try to slim down? which will work wonders? give me time, and ill prove it to you.

ok. i think i should sign off now. another day awaits. well actually, mama awaits.