49th Merdeka Celebration

i just came back from sunway lagoon for my first ultimate outdoor merdeka day celebration.. ya..ya..i know, how lame am i not to have celebrated my merdeka day outdoor.. well, im a family person, so, basically every year i celebrated with my family, indoor.. ahah!

anyways, the celebration was HOT!! it was held on the surf beach, and there were quite cool performers, CIARA and FERHAD.. well, not the HOT ciara, but CIARA from the 1st Blast Off from hitz.tv . ok, they're quite cool! they were singing accapella songs and RnB.. very amazing, their voices..even the guys are cute.. ~ahax~

the whole thing was a blast! everyone was having fun, and shouted on top of their lungs.. me, especially.. ahaha.. well, mama called when i was there, and i regretted i didnt tell her that im going to this thing in the beginning.. so, i'm expecting a LOOOOOOONNNNGGGG lecture tomorrow.. sigh~ and lots of 'ungkitan' when im going back home this weekend.. ~sigh~

after the countdown and patriotic songs singing session, we witnessed the fireworks.. and omygawd! it was sooo beautiful.. sigh~ anyways, after all that, we had a chance to take photo with ZAIN and SHAH from CIARA and FERHAD!! ehehe..ok, that's like totally no big deal.. saje je.. ahaahha..

ok, ryte after all those happening things, it's time for us to go home.. and omygawd! when we stepped outside SUNWAY PYRAMID, there we saw HUMANS acting like wild boars who had just been released from their respective cage! seriously, everyone was running here and there spraying the foam spray to EVERYONE, including me and hani!! and then sumthing occur to me, is this what those who had fought for our freedom wants their future generation and leaders do in order to remember and appreciate the independence day of malaysia?? the barbaric behaviors and uncivilised mind.. ya laa.. sampah buang merate, kerete lek lok parking kat tepi, tetibe kene spray ngn foam spray tu.. dh le kete yg bkn kete murah! cam haram.. lagi kesian, ade pakcik yg bg flyers pasal rakyat malaysia yg murtad waktu nak naik the jejantas.. then, boleh ade org gi buang je the fliers without even think that the thing is actually a serious matter now in our country! so, let me ask u this one question, is that what we want to achieve by celebrating the anniversary of our country's independence day??

ok.. enough complaining bout the behaviors of malaysian, and lets focus on what we can do to make things better in our country.. u know, the smallest thing and the simplest act can make HUGE difference.. so, hope u guys had started doing so TODAY! eheh..

*see that's the spirit of patriotism that we want, right?? ahaha..

ok.. im starting to talk nonsense, so i think i better stop. but before i out my hands down, i just wanna wish everyone HAPPY MERDEKA and PLEASE, LET US ALL hayati balik what's the meaning of merdeka..

ok.. gudnyte everyone!

:: summer_breeze ::

holiday . AYTR gathering . ICPU 05/06 is leaving

since yesterday, my holiday had already started.. i kicked it off by going to the AYTR reunion held at INTEKMA RESORT, SHAH ALAM. eventhough only 7 of us from PKTR  batch '04 went, (named: k-rol, pia, feysa, muss, adib and doll.. and of course me!) we find it quite interesting.. with the juniors conquering most of the seats, (well, dont really blame them, the spirit's still there.. and hcticness is not yet a problem.. ahax!) and the seniors only beberape ketul (like wat abg mael said.. ahah!) it's really a chance for us to communicate and create a link between alumnies, and most importantly strengthen the bond that we all had had! ahax!

it was quite fun and educational, because u see, aytr had been involving themselves in plenty of activities.. and the one that had left huge impacts on the members are PDDS and PKTR itself.. PDDS especially, eventhough i didnt get the chance to join last year because i was still in labuan, but hearing the stories by my frens who joined, it was quitetouching and.. out of the world. the feelings are undescribable! juz imagine, the participants for the programme are the children who are staying at  RUMAH ANAK-ANAK YATIM DAN KANAK-KANAK TERBIAR, KEPALA BATAS, PENANG who aged between 4 to 15 years-old. one time, they were going to have a sport activity. then a 10 years old girl is excluded from the activity. so, my frens are quite curious on mhy is she being excluded. there's nothing seems to be wrong with her, but why ryte? so they asked the Mother of the rumah kebajikan as to why is she excluded. so she told them, that girl is just after pantang! pantang?!?! at 10 years old?? wut thaa..? who could have thought that such an innocent girl is the victim of incest? gosh.. that was one of the million stories and experience that they get from the programme.. really wish i could join.. this is totally an eye openner for everyone who joined.. and really teach u to appreciate life and make full use of it!

meeting the AYTR has really broaden my mind.. to not only think about me, but also to think of someone else. well, that's the whole purpose of PKTR anyways.. to produce future leaders that will lead malaysia to success and multi-billion profits! ahax!! ryte..~

anyways, starting tomoro.. i'll be on my mission to send my frens off to canada.... (waaa!!! asal korunk pegi awal sangat??? ) nyways, really gonna miss u guys.. farisa, ariff, ainil, izye, wawey, budi, mu'min, baim, nanas sausuke,..... mr harun, cik fuzah, zul.... and the rest.. sorry laa tak letak name korunk skali.. really gonna miss you guys!! i'll try my best to go send all u guys off.. but, tak leyh janji laa.. i'll try my best.. (hurm.. cam penah dgr je phrase nih..??)

owkay.. serena had juz prepared our lunch.. thanx dearie!!! and owh.. photos from the gathering, i'll post them next month.. i've reached my limit already.. so, be patient k!! ahax! *muax* to all!!

:: summer_breeze ::

i feel so....

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over


*box car racer's song featured on my page -- i feel so*

:: summer_breeze ::

BBQ 18/08/2006

firstly, i really want to thank EVERYONE who showed up last night.. especially those who helps me with all the food preparation, SARAH HEIDAR, KAK FARAH, KAK INA, RAHMAT, HELMI, AMIN, MUHAMMAD and not forgetting, MYAT HTUN.. hehe.. thank u ALL for helping me out.. and i dont think the bbq will go as well as last night without u guys.. as for the grill-guys, RAHMAT, DIN, FAIZ (and whoever was there to help grilled those chicken nad lambs and watsoever.. sorry if ur name's not mentioned) thanx to u guys too.. without u guys, this barbeque will not be a barbeque..hehehe..

secondly, i would like to appologize for the not-enough-foods for everyone.. actually, i had budgetted the foods for around 50 people.. but then the turn ups was nearing 60.. or is it more than 60? whatever it is, even i dont have a chance to eat the grilled foods.. so, that makes us even.. ahaha..

to all the seniors and juniors, thanx for being such a sporting crowd last night.. and owh, thanx a lot to ICPU batch 05/06.. thank u so much for being there and joined us.. wish u all good luck for ur future studies.. waktu korunk fly, i'll try my best to send u guys off.. hehe.. and in my photo album ive added photos from the barbeque.. not everything is there yet, coz i'm only allowed to upload 50 photos.. so, addition will be added next month.. wahahah..

right now still very tired since last night.. so.. really donno wat to tell..for now. ok.. have to go and eat.. sooo hungry... laytaa guys!

:: summer_breeze ::

scary story.. so that you realize..

Assalamualaikum,
to all my friends..
Hope this hits you as hard as it hit me
one day it will be too late

You need to read this till the end, because the interesting part
comes at the end, but if you dont read it from the beginning you
won't understand the end ...

Open your eyes and heart ... it's only 1 page long, full of
meaning & Wisdom...Hope u like it..Enjoy!

This is the story
.
He remembered his grandmother's warning about praying on time:

"My son, you shouldn't leave prayer to this late time"

His grandmother's age was 70 but whenever she heard the Adhan,
she got up like an arrow and performed Salah. He however
could never win over his "ego" to get up and pray.


Whatever he did, his Salah was always the last to be offered and
he prayed it quickly to get it in on time. Thinking of this, he got
up and realized that there were only 15 minutes left before Salat-al
Ishaa. He quickly made
Wudhu and performed Salat-ul Maghrib. While making Tasbih, he
again remembered his grandmother and was embarrassed by how he had
prayed. His grandmother prayed with such tranquility and peace. He
began making Dua and went down to make Sajdah and stayed like that for a while. He had
been at school all day and was tired, so tired.

He awoke abruptly to the sound of noise and shouting . He was
sweating profusely. He looked around. It was very crowded. Every
direction he looked in was filled with people. Some stood frozen looking
around, some were running left and right and some were on their knees with
their heads in their hands just waiting. Pure fear and apprehension
filled him as he realized where he was. His heart was about to
burst. It was the Day of Judgment. When he was alive, he had heard many things about the
questioning on the Day of judgment, but that seemed so long ago. Could this be
something his mind made up? No, the wait and the fear were so
great that he could not have imagined this. The interrogation was still
going on. He began moving frantically from people to people to ask if his name had been
called. No one could answer him.

All of a sudden his name was called and the crowd split into two
and made a passageway for him.

Two people grabbed his arms and led him forward . He walked with
unknowing eyes through the crowd. The angels brought him to the center and
left him there. His head was bent down and his whole life was passing in front of
his eyes like a movie. He opened his eyes but saw only another
world. The people were all helping others. He saw his father
running from one lecture to the other, spending his wealth in the
way of Islam. His mother invited guests to their house and one
table was being set while the other was beingcleared. He pleaded

his case, "I too was always on this path. I helped others. I
spread the word of Allah. I performed my Salah. I fasted in the month of
Ramadan. Whatever Allah ordered us to do, I did. Whatever he
ordered us not to do, I did not."

He began to cry and think
about how much he loved Allah.

He knew that whatever he haddone in life would be less than what
Allah deserved and his only protector was Allah. He was sweating
like never before and was shaking all over. His eyeswere fixed on
the scale, waiting for the final decision.

At last, the decision
was made. The two angels with sheets of paper in
their hands, turned to the crowd. His legs felt like they were
going to collapse. He closed his eyes as they began to read the
names of those people who were to enter Jahannam. His name was
read first.

He fell on his knees and yelled that this couldn't be,
"How could
I go to Jahannam? I served others all my life, I spread the word of
Allah to others".

His eyes had become blurry and he was shaking with sweat . The two
angels took him by the arms. As his feet dragged, they
went through the crowd and advanced toward the blazing flames of Jahannam. He was
yelling and wondered if there was any person who was going to help
him. He was yelling of all the good deeds he had done, how he had
helped his father, his fasts, prayers, the Qur'an that he read, he was
asking if none of them would help him. The Jahannam angels
continued to drag him.They had gotten closer to the Hellfire. He
looked back and these were his last pleas.

Had not Rasulullah [saw] said, "How clean
would a person be who bathes in a river five times a day, so too
does the Salah performed five times cleanse someone of their
sins"?

He began yelling, "My prayers? my prayers? my prayers."

The two angels did not stop, and they came to the edge of the
abyss of Jahannam. The flames of the fire were burning his face. He
looked back one last time, but his eyes were dry of hope and he had
nothing left in him.

One of the angels pushed him in. He found
himself in the air and fallingtowards the flames.

He had just fallen five or six feet when a hand grabbed him by the
arm and pulled him back. He lifted his head and saw an old man
with a long white beard.

He wiped some dust off himself and asked him,
"Who are you?"

The old man replied, "I am your prayers" .

"Why are you so late! I
was almost in the Fire! You rescued me at the last minute before I
fell in".

The old man smiled and shook his head, "You always
performed me at the last minute, did you forget?"

At that instant, he blinked and
lifted his head from Sajdah. He was in a sweat. He listened to the
voices coming from outside. He heard the adhan for Salat-ul Isha.
He got up quickly and went to perform Wudhu.

Pass this on to your friends and family, and maybe u can help

someone open their eyes........and who knows?? maybe this is a
good deed that can help you during the day of judgment....right???

kenangan terindah.. A907

"Bila yang tertulis untukku

                              Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

                              Kan kujadikan kau

                              Kenangan terindah dalam hidupku


                              Namun takkan mudah bagiku

                              Meninggalkan jejak hidupku

                              Yang t'lah terukir

                              Sebagai kenangan yang terindah"
                                                                -by samsons, kenangan terindah

juz now was most probably the last time i'm going to see wawey.. well, before she leave for canada of course.. but, listening to this song.. makes me rethink every sweet memories that all of us; me, ikmal, ain and wawey had together, all the time we were here; in A907..
all the laughters, all the tears that we saw.. and we share..
i remember the time when i moved into this house, they are all very warm and welcomed me with open hands.. and the bond that we had after that, is undescribable.. all those tradition, esp. birthdays with small cake, and that cute one little candle on top.. i really wish i could maintain and practice it with my new hsemates.. but, i donno..
then, when we had just been together for 6 months, suddenly all of us have to be apart.. i still remember when i had returned from my holidays in june, i just cant believe it that i was coming back to an empty house, and knowing that i'm not going to see these girls again, everyday, is soo devastating.. and new faces will come and replace them.. sigh~ i remembered, i could just stare at the room and the living room..
and today, i miss u guys.. well, i may sound scary, but that's how much all of u mean to me.. i really appreciate our friendship girls.. and i really hope this friendship will always remains and never can  end..to all four of u, including opu and kak farah, i really wish u guys BESTEST OF LUCK in everything, especially in your studies after this.. dont let a single bump let you down.. just get up, and move on to the next challenge.. besides, what's life without challenge, right? i have faith in you guys..
i guess, that is all for now.. take care..

p/s: waaaa... i miss the A907... :'(

:: summer_breeze ::

hectic august...

this month is quite a hectic month.. well, i'm the one who's responsible to make it hectic though.. firstly, ridzuan residences centre or watever it is, is organizing quite a lot of activities.. first the genting, then the bowling.. then the city trip. thank god i was not the in-charge for that one.. and the latest one is the PAINTBALL WAR TOURNAMENT.. and that one, i'm in-charge (p/s: for those who wants to go, gimme ur names, ic number, id number and contact number, and i'll register for u..) anyway.. tak cukup dgn tu, this friday, i'm organising this BBQ party.. i really hope there will be many turn ups.. sigh~

anyways, still worried bout my physics.. i havent even started revising my AS.. i really hope i can make it ths time.. sigh~

actually, i dont really have anything to say.. that's all for now.. till then...

p/s: i miss u...
:: summer_breeze ::

alhamdulillah...

alhamdulillah.. all praises to Allah, the Almighty.. i had juz got my result yesterday.. and thank god.. it's not as bad as i thot it would be.. it's nothing excellent, but it's quite ok, compared to my previous exams.. as in my trials and my semester exams.. fewhhh~!! so relief..
rite now, have to concentrate on my physics.. im goin to reseat for as physics.. b is not good enough for me to secure a place in uni.. insyaAllah.. i can make it..
thanx a lot to those who had been giving me supports and encourage me not to give up on my studies when i was so down and depressed and demoralised by my previous exams.. and to those who had been condemning me since my previous exams due to my failure to prove that i can do it, this is for you.. dont look down on me.. sometimes, you just have to put your faith in me.. i'm not that stupid.. sometimes, i just wish u could just be proud of me for who i am, not what you want me to be... sigh~
ok.. enuff emo-moments.. it's time to celebrate!! btw, me and.. whoever wants to cooperate with me, are going to organize a barbeque party this coming friday, 18th august 2006, after maghrib till midnite.. now, i would like to invite one and all, who can make it, especially juniors and those who are staying in ridzuan to come to the barbeque.. but it's not for free i must add.. you guys may have to pay rm10 per person.. foods served will be the usuals : chickens, hotdogs, pizza.. and i'm trying to get some nasik goreng or sumthing that's quite heavy.. so.. interested?? juz contact me or helmi (a-level), asvinder kaur (a-level, june 2006 intake) or amir rusydi (sam june 2005)..
owkiess.. enuff promoting the barbeque.. i think i shud start applying for my ucas.. and i shud stop writing.. i'll write again some other time.. thanx y'all for reading..

:: summer_breeze ::
~~i'm super darn happy~~