28 Dec 2006

happy new year everyone!!

hello frens.
new year is just around the corner. to be exact, it is just 3 days away now.. and this whole week, i had been thinking to myself, what have i accomplished this year? did i accomplished anything.. at all?
when i go through my check list, it seems like i havent change and accomplish anything AT ALL.. well, i might exaggerate that a little bit, but even if i did accomplish something, it doesnt really make any changes or impact on myself. as i can see, im still the same old me.. lazy, or maybe even lazier, unpretty as i was, self-concious, single (as how i started this year), still behind in my studies. im still bad in my econs. im still sensitive. i still listen to rock. and i still love banana.



but as i go through, i figure that i did accomplish something that i didnt manage to accomplish last year. this year, i became even much closer with everyone around me. i have more friends than i used to have. i tend to think more carefully in doing decisions. i know how to make my own stand and make others listen to me, and not letting myself continuously become a follower. i tend to do MORE things on my own, independently. i tend to mess up less. i broke less hearts, including my parents. well, maybe for my siblings, i did break theirs, but i am truly sorry.. i juz need u guys to listen to me. i no longer want to be someone that u can bully and expect me to swallow everything that u told me to do or think or say. i do have my own stand now..



all i'm trying to say is, i've become more adult-ish after this one. ive grown. im no longer that little girl that people can just do watever they want to do to me. i have my own thoughts. my own desire. my own judgement. all i want to be is THE INDEPENDENT WOMAN that everyone else wants to be.



so this coming new year, i would like to make new hopes. new dreams. new desire. and of course.. new clothes! ahax! cant wait to go shopping again. akeke.. =P
so to all of you, have u thought wat u have done this year and what u have accomplished? are u now a better person or are you not? same goes to me.. let us all improvise ourselves and lets make the world a better place for everyone else, and ourselves..



HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL..
and SALAM AIDILADHA..



-peace-
:: summer_breeze ::


2 Dec 2006

r u one of the IDIOTS??

"10 THINGS IDIOTS DO ON FRIENDSTER"

Message:



ONE


there is NO SUCH THING as a friendster
tracker.

it does NOT exist.
so quit posting
stupid bulletins
like

"OH-EM-GEEEEE this WORKS!!!"

no, it doesnt.





TWO


To the people who have like 25,000
friends,

are you serious?

You're stupid.

Go play in traffic.





THREE


Don't ever post pictures and say

"OMG, I'm so ugly"

"OMG, I'm so fat"

because if you were,

you wouldn't post them.


And if u do ur a freaking NERD.





FOUR


Nobody cares about threats over the
internet.

Don't try to act hardcore with the
keyboard.

Fighting online is like racing in the
special
olympics;


even if you win, you're still retarded.





FIVE


Quit crying

b/c you're not on someones top 8.

who cares?


ITS FRIENDSTER!!!

Stop naggin!!!





SIX


Who really cares if

I don't accept you as a friend?

MOVE ON!!!


Don't send me another request or
message
asking

"what's up with you not adding me?"

I don't want you as a friend,

THATS WHATS UP!!!!





SEVEN


Little 6th graders who have Friendster

and look like sluts, and act like
whores

go somewhere else

because nobody wants you here.





EIGHT


If you have decided to read this,

you are a true friendster Friend.


Real friends read their bulletins.





NINE


I say you go and pass this on

and maybe it will finally get through
people's brains






TEN


And if you open a bulletin and it says
something
like

"repost this in 100 seconds or a ghost
will rape
your
dog
tonight,
or
"some dead skinless girl is
gonna rape
your
mom"

dont ever trust it. it's lame, u morone!



ELEVEN


testi is for u to drop testi regarding
your frens

but not for those stupid to post msg
thr..

testi is testi, msg is msg..

if u wanna chat, pls sent to msg!!
stupid~

...

QUIT BEING A TOTAL GAY WAD!!





1 Dec 2006

life sucks no matter how much u tried to make it better

i see that telling stories is not my strongest traits. so, i think i shud put it into quotes or poems, or translation of lyrics of songs..



i do not know why i hate myself
i hate everything around me
i hate my life now
i hate the school
i hate those who always think about themselves
those who think that they're just too good for everyone else
those who dont really appreciate what others did for them
those who cant understand what others feel
those who just cant see the obvious
those who just dont get it
those who .... agh!!!



see, that's why i hate myself!
i hate myself so much that i want to destroy everything that i have
i'm so angry
im so sad
im so depressed
why?
i DONT KNOW!!
im crazy
im lunatic
im just unbearable
im annoying
im a crap!



no one can really understand me
no one can really cheer me up
no one can really bear all this dreadful thoughts of mine



i wanna scream
i wanna cry
i wanna jump off this building
or take a razor and cut off these veins
or just put a bullet into my head
and let all these miseries ends
but hey, suicide is a short cut to hell
n i dont want to go to hell yet.



why do i have to be the one who's feeling so miserable?
it's like i have the weight of the world on my shoulder
i've disappointed so many people in my life
i've lost all the patience that i have
every morning always leads to a gloomy day
those happy days that i used to have are now: GONE
they said "shit happens"
but man, life is full of shit
i've been making shit out of it!



agh!
damn all the sorrows
damn all the depression
damn all the miseries
damn all the darkness that i have now
damn them all
and leave me alone!
STOP HAUNTING ME!!


i love you but i chose darkness

first of all, i would like to say i'm sorry to everyone that i've hurt in my mood-swinging-mode. i know ive been a bitch towards everyone lately, and i totally regret what i've done, but this mood swinging thing, i dont think it is going to end soon. so juz bear with me just one week longer k.



if u r asking me what actually made me like this, i dont have an answer for that, for i too, do not know. it had been a while.. since college starts i guess.. and since everyone is leaving. i know, how pathetic i am to hold on too tight on the past so much and not wanting to let it go and move on, but .. i cant help it ok.



this mood swinging SUCKS. i cant be happy for even longer than 1/2 a day. this morning i was super hyper and happy. but now, im back being gloomy and crazy. start listening to this crappy depressing songs. happy songs sounds like shit for me now. i dont know why. love songs worse. my mind and head seems like to block all those songs out now. i do not know why. crazy? i thot so too..



"i love u, but i chose darkness". i love u guys as frens, but im sorry. let me be gloomy this few days. efforts to cheer me up will be deeply appreciated.
thanx a lot for being there for me my frens. love u guys so much.
till then..
hope i will feel better when i'm back..



:: summer_no longer has breeze ::


26 Nov 2006

G-G ku yg gedik!

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okay.. ni G-G ku yg menggedik nak chatting n tengok tv.. well, actually, die ikut tabiat dan perangai aku.. so, tak leyh blame die sangat. ni mesti waktu aku tak de kat rumah ari tu.. sangat tak leyh blah la bende ni.. adehhh...

budak-budak zaman sekarang, semuanya pelik...

:: summer_breeze ::


20 Nov 2006

PANGKOR .. a place like no other

for once, i will not complain and brag on how boring my holiday had been, coz it's not! haha.. anyways, last saturday, some of the aytrs and i, namely: bg tengku, bg rizal, bg azrol, bg wan fariz, bg haji, yogz , bg saiffil, lukman, mulan, alia, d-jah, fariha and ummu, went on a programme "CEKAL ADIKKU" and become the facilitators for this thing. well, the participants are the form 2 students of SMK Sg Besar, who are kinda poor but they actly have the potential to success.. so, that's where they might need our help to guide them and to show an example.. bla.. bla.. bla..



so, at the beginning, the kids they're kinda.... how should i put it.... frustrating. they didnt really give their all out for the activities.. when we asked them to come forward, they will hesitate and have a hard time to deliver what we told them to deliver.. so, it's kinda really frustrating. lepas tu, kitorang start buat public speaking session and try to bond with the students. we actly must try our very best to get connected with these kids, coz if we are still the strangers that they dont trust, so, we will never know what goes on in their head and what make them what they are now.. so, yeah, we tried and we tried, thank god, towards the end they had started to talk more rather than just listen. as for my mentee, all are ok.. except for this one girl, name: samsiah. on day 1 it was really hard to make her talk and tell stories. then she started making faces as if hating everything that we told them to do.. so, we tried like so many ways of approach, and finally, that girl starts to talk.. how happy was i!! haha.. my group in all, except for the boys, they dont really open up towards me.. so, kalo nk tye wat really bother them, i cant really tell.. but, i still have one month before score-a programme starts, so i think i'm gonna take this chance..



as for my side of story,this trip was SUPER AWESOME!! i snorkel for the first time, i floated for the 1st time... hahhaha! finally.. okay, 1st day, nothing outdoor, sumer nyer indoor. tu pun sampai pangkor around evening. malam, lepas dinner ade talk for those kids on the score-A programme.. dah le hujan lebat giler.. thank god ade bawak sweater.. huhu..
2nd day, morning starts with indoor activities for those kids. the public speaking session..waktu tu, the girl, samsiah, still tak leyh talk and open up.. sgt frust dah waktu tu... and then bla..bla..bla..
lepas lunch, around 2 sumthing kot, pegi beach, nak g kayak.. but then pak said, the outdoor commander, bg briefing yg bapak lamer giler,... kitorang yg dok kat tepi pon dah naik bosan duduk tak wat paper.. tetibe, pastu ade mamat keling mane tah pegi ambik buah kelape and kitorang pon membeli... okay, seriously speaking, i never like to drink coconut drinks.. my dad had even forced me to eat it, but somehow, i'll end up not finishing it.. but hari tu, i dunno y, suddenly i can drink air tu practically half of the whole thing! maybe sbb die fresh, i dunno, but yeah, i DID!! papa will be very proud.. huhu.. anyways, lepas makan the isi and minum the air, d-jah and i g masuk dalam air n berusahe untuk blaja camner nak berenang.. and terapung.. somehow, we end sinking into the water.. tambah lagi ade je abg2 yg jahat g splash air laa ape laa.. ish~ lepas main2 dalam air sumer, dak2 tu start laa berkayak towards the other pulau.. and i, at first, naik boat je waktu tu. but then, tetibe ade this one kayak tersadai kat tgh2 and the girls on it, sorang plak mabuk laut. so bg saiffil and i have to replace them and berkayak laa sampai ke pulau tu.. dah sampai, pergi masuk air lagi and mengapungkan diri gune life jacket.. hahaha.. (p/s: i do not know how to swim.. so, yeah~) lepas tu, pegi snorkeling.. it was fun, able to see stuff under water, but sadly, there were not many fishes to be seen.. haha.. anyways, lepas tu, derang beli burger from tengah pulau tu, cost: rm2.50. agak ok laa kan? standard price.. lepas tu g makan dalam air.. i mean not me and the burger being under water, juz half of my body in the water, but my head and my hand and my burger is above the water.. (get what im saying?) so, lepas makan, sambung balik lesson mengapungkan diri. finally, i can do it! hahha.. tp tu terapung with my face down, so.. yeah. an accomplishment!! hahaha...
lepas sumer tu, time to balik.. but the students have to kayak around the pulau first, then berkayak balik ke teluk nipah beach. and then ade plak kayak terlebih.. so, bg rizal and i pun berkayak laa balik.. 1st tu, agak cuak sebab ade wave, and we were like parallel to the wave front.. so, tkt sgt the kayak will capsize.. dah le tak reti nak swim! haha..so, bg rizal pun dgn berjaye nyer, dpt buat our kayak normal to the wave front... hehehe.... dah tu kayak balik... and then buat human sculpture gune sand.. hehehe.. sronot! pastu volleyball and the evening ends.. mlm plak buat LDK and bg azrol buat slot.. that's when the girl start to talk more than i had expected.. so, sgt berpuas hati laa.. ehhehe.. =D



3rd day, our last day here.. pagi start with pocho dance witht he kids.. then main sifir siput.. then buat BANDAR MADANI..the facis pun buat jugakk.. tapi sayang.. we were disqualified.. hahaha.. after that, tetibe sape tah came up with the idea, naik the banana boat. 1st tu tanak g sbb mls nak tuka baju n bwk balik baju basah n all.. but then, pujuk punyer pujuk.. so pegi jer.. and nasib baik pegi! becoz it was the ultimate fun! (cheh.. giler hyperbola~!)so, byr rm10 each for that, then naik laa... pusing2 2round, then dier g swing the boatm terus capsize... huhu.. and fyi, waktu tu was like an hour before kitorang berangkat untuk balik.. giloz tak? hahha.. but, wat the heck.. as long as we had a great time, then nothing else matters...
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pastu around 2pm, lepas lunch and photo session with the kids, kitorang gerak g jetty. shopping sket, pastu balik naik ferry ke lumut.. from lumut naik bus and head back to KL.. arrive at memorial around 8.15pm. g anta alia ngn bg wan, then mkn kat umah alia (dgn uninvited nyer) then me come back home.......



the end of my pangkor trip..... and wat sucks now, i havent finished my personal statement and the date due is on this 29th!!!! and i havent study my chemistry for the test that miss careen had promised before the 'holiday'. and wats worst, my dirty clothes from pangkor, yg 1 bag penuh tu, tak cuci lagi....... waaaa~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!



ok..ok.. nak buat laundry jap. laytaa guys~!


:: summer_breeze ::


5 Nov 2006

disintegration . jimmy eat world

i was suppose to study right now, but hack, i'm going to take juz a few minutes to write this thing. what a shame if i dont share this INCREDIBLE SONG by JIMMY EAT WORLD - DISINTEGRATION. well, thanx to one tree hill, i know this song and FALL IN LOVE with it..



this song is maybe THE BEST SONG that i had EVER heard. the lyrics are
so deep. it tells u about a guy who had been betrayed in a relationship
and the girl has only been using him. the phrase i love most in this
song is:
       "hanging on a cigarette,
        u need me,
        u burn me
"



well, not a
wierd thing in a relationship, huh? where u need someone, but u end up
hurting them.



the music to this song is SUPERB! when it started, the
slow guitar strum.. and the haunting wordings and voice. then when it comes to
chorus, the drum beats.. then there comes JIM ADKINS with lead vocal..
it's like he's totally angry and pissed and disappointed.. it really
gets to u, u know. the song is so real and it feels like u are the one
who's suffering and been cheated on.. it makes u wanna cry and be alone and mourn.. but at the same time, u wanna punch someone in the face and make them feel watever it is u're feeling..



so, listen to this song u guys..
it's just SUPER AWESOME!!



and u wanna know something guys, if u r thinking of looking for songs that is GREAT and nobody have ever heard before, check out music featured on one tree hill.. and also their episodes title.. coz know it  or not, their episodes title, each and every one of them are actually a title to a song by both unknown and known super cool bands or singers with SUPER GREAT musics.. so, giv it a try k!



alright.. i shud continue my studying.. so, later guys!



:: summer_breeze ::



p/s: am soooo in LOVE with jimmy eat world now~~~~~ (^_^)


3 Nov 2006

DEATH NOTE. THE OC SEASON 4

waktu nak exam macam nie la cerite2 best start nak kuar kan? sigh~ tensi sungguh..anyways, as u can see at the bulletin board, the oc season 4 first episode is now out.. and ryan's back with his fist of fury.. i havent watch it, but reading the recaps.. it's touching~ so... i REALLY cant wait to watch it... (p/s: helmi... boleh download cepat2 tak? hehe.. thanks~)

owkay.. death note.. tonight was the premiere of that movie in malaysia.. so, im kinda one of the first to watch it.. hehe.. kinda proud! anyways, it is S.U.P.E.R.B!! ryuk light, L.. all those peeps, are juz cool! wats worse they make it like 'tergantung' so, im kinda anticipate for the nest episode.. sorry for my language.. too sleepy and excited, i just dont mind my grammar and stuff.. sorry~

anyways, for those who are having their exams next week or days after this, BEST OF LUCK to u guys..

owkay, have fun! tata~


:: summer_breeze ::



p/s: tensi.. tensi...

26 Oct 2006

it's been a while..

not onlining for two weeks.. hurm, i never thot that's possible.. to mazidah, i miss u too babe.. but anyways, the longer u dont see each pther the more u will miss them and appreciate them, dont u think?



hehe.. raya in sibu was GREAT! yesterdaym, we juz had our reunion, eventho not everyoe shows up. but the number that shows up really keep my hands and legs and MOUTH busy.. ahaha!! i miss everyone.. and thanx u guys for coming yesterday.. the pictures, i will upload it when i go back to rdzuan, i promise..



anyways, being back in sibu really is great. no other words can describe what i actually feel once im here.. everything is basically still the same, except for some like the everly hotel, the bazaar space.. no more lau king howe hospital.. and moz importantly, all my frens, hurm... talking bout GROW UP.. haha..



actually, i have so many things to tell, juz right me and along (well, that's my oldest and bestest fren ever..) are goin off somewhere else juz to hang out and catch up. too bad alia cant come and join. anyways, i'll come back to this blog again soon. catch ya layter dudes and dudettes~!!





p/s: to all that came yesterday, thank u SOO MUCH~~!!! LOVE U GUYS LOTZZ~~~









:: summer_breeze ::


4 Oct 2006

just another day

let me see.. what shall i write for today.. it is 1.21 am now.. i still cant sleep. well, most probably because of the extra sleep that i have this evening. blame me for that. so now, yeah. i cant sleep.



ok.. let me recap what had been happening these few weeks. one week ago, well, more than one week ago, all the muslims had started their fasting, seeing that ramdhan is here.. it is already the 12th day today. ok. no strory to tell there..



rite now i have trouble sleeping. 1stly, because i'm not that sleepy. 2ndly, because of that hazy air.. and i'm practically saffocated! and 3rdly, because i have my tonsil now, and gosh!! my throat is totally irritating!! how i wish i could just put my hand down my throat and scratch the hell out of it~



ok... still cant find anything to tell u guys. except that i had been downloading one tree hill season 1 for like a week and a day now.. still, not yet finish. my laptop is lagging like hell.. my itunes is TOTALLY scrambled, and making things worst, my iPod is running out of battery.. so, tell me, what should i do to make me sleep? (ok.. i see that this question has nothing to do all the things that i said earlier. great.)



alryte. i'm goin to do some tickle test. hopefully, i'll get sleepy then.
goodnyte everyone~



:: summer_breeze ::


21 Sep 2006

tell me YOUR SCORES!!

(Dr. Phil scored 55 ----he did this test on
Oprah, she got a 38)

Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff
out. Read on, this is very interesting!

Don't be overly sensitive!

The following is pretty accurate and it only
takes 2 minutes.

Take this test for yourself and send it to your
friends. The person who sent it placed their
score in the subject box.

Please do the same before forwarding to your
friends.

Don't peek but begin the test as you scroll down
and answer. Answers are for who you are
now... ... not who you were in the past.

Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a
real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at
many of the major corporations today. It helps
them get better insight concerning their
employees and prospective employees.

It's only 10 simple questions, so... ... grab a
pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter
answers. Make sure to change the subject. When
you are finished, forward this to everyone
you know, and also send it to the person who
sent this to you.

====================================
============

1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon and early evening
c) late at night



2. You usually walk...
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in
the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly



3. When talking to people you...
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are
talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or
smooth your hair



4. When relaxing, you sit with...
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly
side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you



5. When something really amuses you, you react
with...
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile



6. When you go to a party or social gathering
you...
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices
you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around
for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to
stay unnoticed



7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard,
and you're interrupted... ...
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes



8. Which of the following colors do you like
most?
a) red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray



9. When you are in bed at night, in those last
few moments before going to sleep... .
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers



10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

====================================
============






POINTS FOR EACH ANSWER:

1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6

2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1

3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6

4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1

5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2

6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2

7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4

8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1

9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1

10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1

Now add up the total number of points.

DON'T LOOK BEYOND THIS UNTIL YOUR HAVE
COMPLETED
AND SCORED YOURSELF.

====================================
============







OVER 60 POINTS:
Others see you as someone they
should "handle with care." You're seen as vain,
self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.
Others may admire you, wishing they could be
more like you, but don't always trust you,
hesitating to become too deeply involved with
you.

51 TO 60 POINTS:
Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile,
rather impulsive personality; a natural
leader, who's quick to make decisions, though
not always the right ones. They see you as bold
and adventuresome, someone who will try anything
once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an
adventure. They enjoy being in your company
because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS:
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming,
amusing, practical, and always interesting;
someone who's constantly in the center of
attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to
let it go to their head. They also see you as
kind, considerate, and understanding; someone
who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS:
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful
practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or
talented, but modest. Not a person who makes
friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's
extremely loyal to friends you do make and who
expect the same loyalty in return. Those who
really get to know you realize it takes a lot to
shake your trust in your friends, but equally
that it takes you a long time to get over it, if
that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS:
Your friends see you as painstaking and
fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely
careful, slow and steady. It would really
surprise them if you ever did something
impulsively or on the spur of the moment,
expecting you to examine everything carefully
from every angle and then, usually decide
against it. They think this reaction is caused
partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS:
People think you are shy, nervous, and
indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who
always wants someone else to make the
decisions;
who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or
anything! They see you as a worrier who always
sees problems that don't exist. Some people
think you're boring. Only those who know you
well know that you aren't.



16 Sep 2006

always love, coz hate will get you anytime..

hey you guys..
here i am again. bored, as ever. wanna study, but um.. i can write thousands of reason that leads to my action of NOT studyin AGAIN tonight, but the truth is -- I'M LAZY! haha.. well, it feels good to actually admit my own weakness. and i have to say, LAZINESS had always been my problem since.. urm, let me see - EVER! sigh~ cant say much about it. as what people say, you wont change no matter what other people say, unless YOU yourself have the willng to change..



well, right now, i'm listening to NADA SURF's latest album - well, thanx to 'peyton sawyer' to promote this album. well, u see i dont actually listen to indie songs, until i listen to death cab for cutie. so, now i'm giving nada surf a try. and i have to say, their songs are good! i really like ALWAYS LOVE and COMES A TIME. despite their nice melodies, their lyrics also mean something. it tells you about life and teach you bout life. well, we take always love. in their lyrics they said " always love, hate will get you anytime". when i think back, most people nowadays - well, i'm not saying anyone in particular - they prefer to hate when something dont actually go their way, and always try to sabotage the friendship or whatever type of relationship they have. why dont you just LOVE them and take them as what they are. i mean, so what if they dont turn out to be the way you wanted to? no need for hatred and everything. no need to have the HATRED towards anyone else.



there's a malay saying goes: Buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali. well, come to think about it, dont you think that the more you hate others, the more miserable your life is? it's like you have this black dot in your heart. and eerytime you start to hate that person even more, the black dot will eventually grow bigger and bigger till one point, that it's going to cover up your whole heart with BLACKNESS.. darkness.. emptiness.. so, ask yourself, do u want that? if you dont, then stop hating others and start loving them.



ok.. i'm talking rubbish.. juz wanna ask u guys to giv nada surf a try, like i did. ahaha..



okiess.. take care you guys..



p/s: cant wait to listen to evanescence new album! still downloading. if it's done, i will tell u guys how's it ok!



15 Sep 2006

juz another day..

hey guys..
i cant sleep tonight. i twisted, i turned, but my eyes are stil so wide and im still so energetic.. i wanna read a book to put myself to sleep, but heck, i don even have a book to read.. a story book i mean. so, i chose to write what ever it is that come cross my mind right now in this deary blog.
well, let see.. what do i want to talk about first? hurm.. owkay. my holidays.. all i can say bout my holiday is i spent the whole 2 weeks at home. hey, im not covering or summarising.. i mean, seriously, i've stayed at home, INSIDE THE HOUSE, the entire 2 weeks.. hah! how 'cool' is that? if you're trying to brag 'bout how boring ur holiday had been, try to top mine! haha..
so, u guys must be wondering what did i DO during the whole two-boring-weeks.. well, i have to say, the 2 weeks was not entirely a torture. i spent the 2 weeks having the ONE TREE HILL season 3 and THE OC season 1 marathon with my dear cuzen, mina.. ahah.. juz imagine i watched one tree hill TWICE throughout the whole 2 weeks.. i dont mean one or 2 episodes.. i mean THE WHOLE SEASON. haha.. well, that's crazy huh? and now.. i'm TOTALLY addicted to one tree hill, and ADORE PEYTON SAWYER.. and of course, nathan and haley...



well, u see, when i got addicted to something, i practically have to know EVERYTHING bout that thing. for example, ONE TREE HILL. i'm ADDICTED to it. so, i HAVE to have all the soundtracks (well, most of it tho~) and if u watch it, u will know that peyton did this podcast thing. and crazy me, i go download all the podcast that she did. till now, there are juz 14 episodes. and i bet, there'd be more to come. since one tree hill had finished their 3rd season, so i guess, they're taking a break before season 4 is realeased. really wanna know what wil happen to BROOKE and PEYTON next.. haha..



anyways, listening to peyton's podcast actually made me think. especially for podcast episode 4, where she talked about how some people fight OVER something and some actually fight FOR something. u know, if we see around us, especially us teenagers, most our friends, including ourselves actually fight OVER something.. ok, i feel as if i'm not making any sense here. let me take a step back and try to differentiate these 2. fighting FOR something is when.. urm, for example, the Somalians are fighting FOR foods, water etc, so that they wont starve or they wont die of thirst. however, fighting over something is where, like what peyton said, example, girls fighting OVER boys.. ok. so now tell me. wic one do u always see happening around you? now, get me? good..



well, i wanna talk bout this cause it's kinda disturbing you know, how some old, and beautiful friendship can be CRUSHED just like that over some stupid things.. such as BOYS or MONEY or clothes etc, etc. i mean, so what? it's not like it's going to be the end of the world or something if you dont get it, right? so, why want to fight OVER it?? see, ok.. so she's with that guy that you like.. so.. what?



ok.. i see that this is going no where. but, the major problem is, i still cant sleep.. so, what shall i do next? i kinda ran out of idea of what to write now.. so, i think i better sign off. nyte guys~



:: summer_breeze ::



p/s: i just cant get these songs of my head :
HALO - HALEY JAMES SCOTT (super COOL!!)
HERE COMES A REGULAR - THE REPLACEMENT
WHEN THE STARS GO BLUE - TYLER HILTON AND BETHANY JOY


30 Aug 2006

49th Merdeka Celebration

i just came back from sunway lagoon for my first ultimate outdoor merdeka day celebration.. ya..ya..i know, how lame am i not to have celebrated my merdeka day outdoor.. well, im a family person, so, basically every year i celebrated with my family, indoor.. ahah!



anyways, the celebration was HOT!! it was held on the surf beach, and there were quite cool performers, CIARA and FERHAD.. well, not the HOT ciara, but CIARA from the 1st Blast Off from hitz.tv . ok, they're quite cool! they were singing accapella songs and RnB.. very amazing, their voices..even the guys are cute.. ~ahax~



the whole thing was a blast! everyone was having fun, and shouted on top of their lungs.. me, especially.. ahaha.. well, mama called when i was there, and i regretted i didnt tell her that im going to this thing in the beginning.. so, i'm expecting a LOOOOOOONNNNGGGG lecture tomorrow.. sigh~ and lots of 'ungkitan' when im going back home this weekend.. ~sigh~



after the countdown and patriotic songs singing session, we witnessed the fireworks.. and omygawd! it was sooo beautiful.. sigh~ anyways, after all that, we had a chance to take photo with ZAIN and SHAH from CIARA and FERHAD!! ehehe..ok, that's like totally no big deal.. saje je.. ahaahha..



ok, ryte after all those happening things, it's time for us to go home.. and omygawd! when we stepped outside SUNWAY PYRAMID, there we saw HUMANS acting like wild boars who had just been released from their respective cage! seriously, everyone was running here and there spraying the foam spray to EVERYONE, including me and hani!! and then sumthing occur to me, is this what those who had fought for our freedom wants their future generation and leaders do in order to remember and appreciate the independence day of malaysia?? the barbaric behaviors and uncivilised mind.. ya laa.. sampah buang merate, kerete lek lok parking kat tepi, tetibe kene spray ngn foam spray tu.. dh le kete yg bkn kete murah! cam haram.. lagi kesian, ade pakcik yg bg flyers pasal rakyat malaysia yg murtad waktu nak naik the jejantas.. then, boleh ade org gi buang je the fliers without even think that the thing is actually a serious matter now in our country! so, let me ask u this one question, is that what we want to achieve by celebrating the anniversary of our country's independence day??



ok.. enough complaining bout the behaviors of malaysian, and lets focus on what we can do to make things better in our country.. u know, the smallest thing and the simplest act can make HUGE difference.. so, hope u guys had started doing so TODAY! eheh..



*see that's the spirit of patriotism that we want, right?? ahaha..



ok.. im starting to talk nonsense, so i think i better stop. but before i out my hands down, i just wanna wish everyone HAPPY MERDEKA and PLEASE, LET US ALL hayati balik what's the meaning of merdeka..



ok.. gudnyte everyone!



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26 Aug 2006

holiday . AYTR gathering . ICPU 05/06 is leaving

since yesterday, my holiday had already started.. i kicked it off by going to the AYTR reunion held at INTEKMA RESORT, SHAH ALAM. eventhough only 7 of us from PKTR  batch '04 went, (named: k-rol, pia, feysa, muss, adib and doll.. and of course me!) we find it quite interesting.. with the juniors conquering most of the seats, (well, dont really blame them, the spirit's still there.. and hcticness is not yet a problem.. ahax!) and the seniors only beberape ketul (like wat abg mael said.. ahah!) it's really a chance for us to communicate and create a link between alumnies, and most importantly strengthen the bond that we all had had! ahax!



it was quite fun and educational, because u see, aytr had been involving themselves in plenty of activities.. and the one that had left huge impacts on the members are PDDS and PKTR itself.. PDDS especially, eventhough i didnt get the chance to join last year because i was still in labuan, but hearing the stories by my frens who joined, it was quitetouching and.. out of the world. the feelings are undescribable! juz imagine, the participants for the programme are the children who are staying at  RUMAH ANAK-ANAK YATIM DAN KANAK-KANAK TERBIAR, KEPALA BATAS, PENANG who aged between 4 to 15 years-old. one time, they were going to have a sport activity. then a 10 years old girl is excluded from the activity. so, my frens are quite curious on mhy is she being excluded. there's nothing seems to be wrong with her, but why ryte? so they asked the Mother of the rumah kebajikan as to why is she excluded. so she told them, that girl is just after pantang! pantang?!?! at 10 years old?? wut thaa..? who could have thought that such an innocent girl is the victim of incest? gosh.. that was one of the million stories and experience that they get from the programme.. really wish i could join.. this is totally an eye openner for everyone who joined.. and really teach u to appreciate life and make full use of it!



meeting the AYTR has really broaden my mind.. to not only think about me, but also to think of someone else. well, that's the whole purpose of PKTR anyways.. to produce future leaders that will lead malaysia to success and multi-billion profits! ahax!! ryte..~



anyways, starting tomoro.. i'll be on my mission to send my frens off to canada.... (waaa!!! asal korunk pegi awal sangat??? ) nyways, really gonna miss u guys.. farisa, ariff, ainil, izye, wawey, budi, mu'min, baim, nanas sausuke,..... mr harun, cik fuzah, zul.... and the rest.. sorry laa tak letak name korunk skali.. really gonna miss you guys!! i'll try my best to go send all u guys off.. but, tak leyh janji laa.. i'll try my best.. (hurm.. cam penah dgr je phrase nih..??)



owkay.. serena had juz prepared our lunch.. thanx dearie!!! and owh.. photos from the gathering, i'll post them next month.. i've reached my limit already.. so, be patient k!! ahax! *muax* to all!!



:: summer_breeze ::


24 Aug 2006

i feel so....

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over


*box car racer's song featured on my page -- i feel so*

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18 Aug 2006

BBQ 18/08/2006

firstly, i really want to thank EVERYONE who showed up last night.. especially those who helps me with all the food preparation, SARAH HEIDAR, KAK FARAH, KAK INA, RAHMAT, HELMI, AMIN, MUHAMMAD and not forgetting, MYAT HTUN.. hehe.. thank u ALL for helping me out.. and i dont think the bbq will go as well as last night without u guys.. as for the grill-guys, RAHMAT, DIN, FAIZ (and whoever was there to help grilled those chicken nad lambs and watsoever.. sorry if ur name's not mentioned) thanx to u guys too.. without u guys, this barbeque will not be a barbeque..hehehe..



secondly, i would like to appologize for the not-enough-foods for everyone.. actually, i had budgetted the foods for around 50 people.. but then the turn ups was nearing 60.. or is it more than 60? whatever it is, even i dont have a chance to eat the grilled foods.. so, that makes us even.. ahaha..



to all the seniors and juniors, thanx for being such a sporting crowd last night.. and owh, thanx a lot to ICPU batch 05/06.. thank u so much for being there and joined us.. wish u all good luck for ur future studies.. waktu korunk fly, i'll try my best to send u guys off.. hehe.. and in my photo album ive added photos from the barbeque.. not everything is there yet, coz i'm only allowed to upload 50 photos.. so, addition will be added next month.. wahahah..



right now still very tired since last night.. so.. really donno wat to tell..for now. ok.. have to go and eat.. sooo hungry... laytaa guys!



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16 Aug 2006

scary story.. so that you realize..

Assalamualaikum,
to all my friends..
Hope this hits you as hard as it hit me
one day it will be too late

You need to read this till the end, because the interesting part
comes at the end, but if you dont read it from the beginning you
won't understand the end ...

Open your eyes and heart ... it's only 1 page long, full of
meaning & Wisdom...Hope u like it..Enjoy!



This is the story
.
He remembered his grandmother's warning about praying on time:

"My son, you shouldn't leave prayer to this late time"

His grandmother's age was 70 but whenever she heard the Adhan,
she got up like an arrow and performed Salah. He however
could never win over his "ego" to get up and pray.


Whatever he did, his Salah was always the last to be offered and
he prayed it quickly to get it in on time. Thinking of this, he got
up and realized that there were only 15 minutes left before Salat-al
Ishaa. He quickly made
Wudhu and performed Salat-ul Maghrib. While making Tasbih, he
again remembered his grandmother and was embarrassed by how he had
prayed. His grandmother prayed with such tranquility and peace. He
began making Dua and went down to make Sajdah and stayed like that for a while. He had
been at school all day and was tired, so tired.



He awoke abruptly to the sound of noise and shouting . He was
sweating profusely. He looked around. It was very crowded. Every
direction he looked in was filled with people. Some stood frozen looking
around, some were running left and right and some were on their knees with
their heads in their hands just waiting. Pure fear and apprehension
filled him as he realized where he was. His heart was about to
burst. It was the Day of Judgment. When he was alive, he had heard many things about the
questioning on the Day of judgment, but that seemed so long ago. Could this be
something his mind made up? No, the wait and the fear were so
great that he could not have imagined this. The interrogation was still
going on. He began moving frantically from people to people to ask if his name had been
called. No one could answer him.



All of a sudden his name was called and the crowd split into two
and made a passageway for him.

Two people grabbed his arms and led him forward . He walked with
unknowing eyes through the crowd. The angels brought him to the center and
left him there. His head was bent down and his whole life was passing in front of
his eyes like a movie. He opened his eyes but saw only another
world. The people were all helping others. He saw his father
running from one lecture to the other, spending his wealth in the
way of Islam. His mother invited guests to their house and one
table was being set while the other was beingcleared. He pleaded

his case, "I too was always on this path. I helped others. I
spread the word of Allah. I performed my Salah. I fasted in the month of
Ramadan. Whatever Allah ordered us to do, I did. Whatever he
ordered us not to do, I did not."



He began to cry and think
about how much he loved Allah.

He knew that whatever he haddone in life would be less than what
Allah deserved and his only protector was Allah. He was sweating
like never before and was shaking all over. His eyeswere fixed on
the scale, waiting for the final decision.



At last, the decision
was made. The two angels with sheets of paper in
their hands, turned to the crowd. His legs felt like they were
going to collapse. He closed his eyes as they began to read the
names of those people who were to enter Jahannam. His name was
read first.

He fell on his knees and yelled that this couldn't be,
"How could
I go to Jahannam? I served others all my life, I spread the word of
Allah to others".

His eyes had become blurry and he was shaking with sweat . The two
angels took him by the arms. As his feet dragged, they
went through the crowd and advanced toward the blazing flames of Jahannam. He was
yelling and wondered if there was any person who was going to help
him. He was yelling of all the good deeds he had done, how he had
helped his father, his fasts, prayers, the Qur'an that he read, he was
asking if none of them would help him. The Jahannam angels
continued to drag him.They had gotten closer to the Hellfire. He
looked back and these were his last pleas.



Had not Rasulullah [saw] said, "How clean
would a person be who bathes in a river five times a day, so too
does the Salah performed five times cleanse someone of their
sins"?

He began yelling, "My prayers? my prayers? my prayers."

The two angels did not stop, and they came to the edge of the
abyss of Jahannam. The flames of the fire were burning his face. He
looked back one last time, but his eyes were dry of hope and he had
nothing left in him.



One of the angels pushed him in. He found
himself in the air and fallingtowards the flames.

He had just fallen five or six feet when a hand grabbed him by the
arm and pulled him back. He lifted his head and saw an old man
with a long white beard.



He wiped some dust off himself and asked him,
"Who are you?"



The old man replied, "I am your prayers" .



"Why are you so late! I
was almost in the Fire! You rescued me at the last minute before I
fell in".



The old man smiled and shook his head, "You always
performed me at the last minute, did you forget?"



At that instant, he blinked and
lifted his head from Sajdah. He was in a sweat. He listened to the
voices coming from outside. He heard the adhan for Salat-ul Isha.
He got up quickly and went to perform Wudhu.


Pass this on to your friends and family, and maybe u can help

someone open their eyes........and who knows?? maybe this is a
good deed that can help you during the day of judgment....right???


kenangan terindah.. A907

"Bila yang tertulis untukku

                              Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

                              Kan kujadikan kau

                              Kenangan terindah dalam hidupku


                              Namun takkan mudah bagiku

                              Meninggalkan jejak hidupku

                              Yang t'lah terukir

                              Sebagai kenangan yang terindah"

                                                                -by samsons, kenangan terindah

juz now was most probably the last time i'm going to see wawey.. well, before she leave for canada of course.. but, listening to this song.. makes me rethink every sweet memories that all of us; me, ikmal, ain and wawey had together, all the time we were here; in A907..
all the laughters, all the tears that we saw.. and we share..
i remember the time when i moved into this house, they are all very warm and welcomed me with open hands.. and the bond that we had after that, is undescribable.. all those tradition, esp. birthdays with small cake, and that cute one little candle on top.. i really wish i could maintain and practice it with my new hsemates.. but, i donno..
then, when we had just been together for 6 months, suddenly all of us have to be apart.. i still remember when i had returned from my holidays in june, i just cant believe it that i was coming back to an empty house, and knowing that i'm not going to see these girls again, everyday, is soo devastating.. and new faces will come and replace them.. sigh~ i remembered, i could just stare at the room and the living room..
and today, i miss u guys.. well, i may sound scary, but that's how much all of u mean to me.. i really appreciate our friendship girls.. and i really hope this friendship will always remains and never can  end..to all four of u, including opu and kak farah, i really wish u guys BESTEST OF LUCK in everything, especially in your studies after this.. dont let a single bump let you down.. just get up, and move on to the next challenge.. besides, what's life without challenge, right? i have faith in you guys..
i guess, that is all for now.. take care..



p/s: waaaa... i miss the A907... :'(



:: summer_breeze ::


15 Aug 2006

hectic august...

this month is quite a hectic month.. well, i'm the one who's responsible to make it hectic though.. firstly, ridzuan residences centre or watever it is, is organizing quite a lot of activities.. first the genting, then the bowling.. then the city trip. thank god i was not the in-charge for that one.. and the latest one is the PAINTBALL WAR TOURNAMENT.. and that one, i'm in-charge (p/s: for those who wants to go, gimme ur names, ic number, id number and contact number, and i'll register for u..) anyway.. tak cukup dgn tu, this friday, i'm organising this BBQ party.. i really hope there will be many turn ups.. sigh~



anyways, still worried bout my physics.. i havent even started revising my AS.. i really hope i can make it ths time.. sigh~



actually, i dont really have anything to say.. that's all for now.. till then...



p/s: i miss u...
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9 Aug 2006

alhamdulillah...

alhamdulillah.. all praises to Allah, the Almighty.. i had juz got my result yesterday.. and thank god.. it's not as bad as i thot it would be.. it's nothing excellent, but it's quite ok, compared to my previous exams.. as in my trials and my semester exams.. fewhhh~!! so relief..
rite now, have to concentrate on my physics.. im goin to reseat for as physics.. b is not good enough for me to secure a place in uni.. insyaAllah.. i can make it..
thanx a lot to those who had been giving me supports and encourage me not to give up on my studies when i was so down and depressed and demoralised by my previous exams.. and to those who had been condemning me since my previous exams due to my failure to prove that i can do it, this is for you.. dont look down on me.. sometimes, you just have to put your faith in me.. i'm not that stupid.. sometimes, i just wish u could just be proud of me for who i am, not what you want me to be... sigh~
ok.. enuff emo-moments.. it's time to celebrate!! btw, me and.. whoever wants to cooperate with me, are going to organize a barbeque party this coming friday, 18th august 2006, after maghrib till midnite.. now, i would like to invite one and all, who can make it, especially juniors and those who are staying in ridzuan to come to the barbeque.. but it's not for free i must add.. you guys may have to pay rm10 per person.. foods served will be the usuals : chickens, hotdogs, pizza.. and i'm trying to get some nasik goreng or sumthing that's quite heavy.. so.. interested?? juz contact me or helmi (a-level), asvinder kaur (a-level, june 2006 intake) or amir rusydi (sam june 2005)..
owkiess.. enuff promoting the barbeque.. i think i shud start applying for my ucas.. and i shud stop writing.. i'll write again some other time.. thanx y'all for reading..


:: summer_breeze ::
~~i'm super darn happy~~


24 Jul 2006

the genting trip~

last saturday, on the 22nd of july 2006, around 80+ taylors students who's staying under accomodation wnet for a super-duper-one-day trip to genting highlands.  we went there by bus.  sad to say, we didnt get the chance to get on the cable car, but, the experience in genting theme park itself is the most juicy part.. hehe..
wokies, when we get there, we gather at the ticket counter and took some group photos.. as the 'resident-evil' as what khashafiq called it, i have to make sure everyone's there and get their passes in. then suddenly, realize, din's not there. so have to go find him and wey. then, me and faiz got separated from everyone else.. then have to enjoy the rides by ourselves. first we went to the cyclone thingy.. it was ok.. then to the spinning chair, tobagan.. after tobagan, we met up with e-dush, loo-loo, and his fren.. and join them for the next ride.. but, they decided that they want to get on the cylone, so faiz n i decided to get on the spcae shot thingy..
after that, went to meet them again at the cockscrew.. gosh.. that ride.. brrr..~ scaryy.. but funn!! hehe..
then pegi makan.. bumper car.. joined ita's group.. then... went to all the rides.. sg rejang (i was darn wet!!), bumper boat, movie action, the swinging chair..again..haha. we actually tried to get the flying dragon, but the two @#$^&*()(*&^%$#@ abang that sat at the entrance told us that THAT entrance was closed, and we have to go to the entrance near the arena of stars.. so, we have to walk ALL THE WAY THERE.. and guess what! people there told us that the entrance is actually closed and the entrance is actually the one that we went to before that !!!!! @#*()(&^%$#@#$%^&*()_(*&^%$%^&*()!!!!!!!! gosh.. i was so pissed!! i think, when i see those two guys again, i REALLY AM GOING TO KILL THEM BOTH!! and that is the only rail-rides that i didnt went on.. *sigh*
oh ya.. space shot.. it was...... gosh! i felt as if i left my heart and everything that's inside me up there!! when it went up, it's like i cant stop saying "please stop.. dont get any higher" but, when it had almost reached the top and i was about to enjoy the view, then suddenly... DUSH!! it dragged me down like hell!! gosh!!! super darn freaky man!! there was no more normal reaction between me and the seat!! omygawd~!! super darn scary.. and i thought at that time, i was about to fall off the seats and fall splat on the ground.. but thank god.. i came back alive.. wahahaha..
owkay, after enjoying all the rides.. it's time for dinner!! thanx to THM, we were provided such a wonderful buffet-dinner at the 1st world cafe..i ate so much!! sushi, rice, durian, buah mata kucing..chesse puddings, ABC.. everything.. my goodness.. i felt as if my stomach was about to burst.. hahaha.. owkay, i'm totally exaggerating... haha..
and besides enjoying all the rides and the foods and the cold.. we also enjoyed some 'drama' which.. i must say.. is quite interesting.. people are so unpredictable..but sometimes i just wonder, why is it so hard for someone to get the hint to change or to realize somthing is not supposed to be that way.. owkay.. i'm just talking crapz.. nothing concerning anyone.. hehe..
well, trip to genting was super duper fun.. except for the part where we have to wait for 2hours for the bus.. but, the two hours lead us to great bond-making session with all the students that joined the trip.. so, at least, there was a blessing in disguise.. hehe..
and we arrived ridzuan at around 12.40 sumthing.. we were all so tired.. but we had our fun.. hehe..
i also had include some photos from the trip in my photo album.. so, feel free to browse through..
thanx y'all for reading..



:: summer_breeze ::


12 Jul 2006

poor zinadine yazeed zidane

Zinedine Zidane's agent says the France captain
headbutted Marco Materazzi in Sunday's World
Cup final because the Italian made a "very serious"
comment.
Zidane appeared to react to something that was
said and was dismissed for his violent charge into
his opponent.



-BBC Sports | Football



He's voted the MVP for World Cup 2006.That might
not happen because of what he did to
Materazzi.You see,things happen for a
reason.Everything in this world reacts equally and
oppositely to each other.That's what happened to
Zidane.He was called a 'terrorist' by Materazzi,from
Italy.Besides that,there are rumours saying
Materazzi insulted Zidane's mother/sister.Maybe
juz because zizou was a Muslim?Pity
him..Eventhough there are denials in the claims of
Materazzi calling Zidane with mocks and
everything,headbutting Materazzi was NOT a good
idea.But what do you expect to see when
someone is oppressed?



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*copied from idzani's bulletin
 


7 Jul 2006

my TV mom...

Take this test at Tickle



 
        Your TV Mom is Lorelai Gilmore

 
      

Which TV Mom Are You?

         Brought to you by Tickle



lorelai is the best mom ever~ hehe =)



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wanna know what i think?

i had just finish watching "The Break-up" starring Jennifer Anniston and Vince Vaughn (and also, special appearance of Ivan Sergei).  this movie, is basically about Brooke (Jen Anniston) and Gary (VInce Vaughn) are breaking up due to some typical problems that couples would have.  i'm saying typical, because this usually happens in almost every relationship that exist in this world -- which is, GUYS do no know how to APPRECIATE their girl.  i'm not saying every guy, but most of them don't know how to do so.
let's just take me for example, i failed in my previous love life (which i hope i won't be facing anymore after this.. i'm just SICK of it!!), well, basically because 'he' do not know how to show his appreciation towards me.  i'm not accusing him of not appreciating everything that i did to him, and i'm not saying that what he did was not enough.  it's just that, he did not know how to express himself, to show that he care or he appreciated me.  (it's so hard to keep everything in past tense..)
well, i'm not going to talk about MY love life.  i want to talk about people in general.  in order to have good relationship with other people; not only being a couple, it can be being best buddies, sisters, brothers, even relatonships between you and your parents, classmates, lecturers or even the social workers who work along the street, you  need to have good communication or what they say as "a link" between the two of you, or in your group.  because, if you failed to communicate or disable to deliver the message that the other person needs to know, then they could either misinterpret what you're trying to tell them or worse, they will not understand what you're point.  my point is that, let say, there's a problem occured between you and your best friend for example, you may want to settle.  but, you delivered the message wrongly, in such a way that he/she thought you are not intersted to be friends again with him/her, (just like what Brooke did to Gary in the movie), then, this could only make things worse between the both of you.  even if you eventually manage to deliver the right message, it could have been too late, and things would turn out the way that it wasn't suppose to be.
owkay, i know i'm simply beating around the bush here.  but my point is, if you haven't show your appreciation to someone who had done something nice to you, or had been sacrificing all-out for you, please let them know that what they did meant something to you, if it really does. let them know that they're appreciated. don't let your life screw-up because of this minor details that you had over-looked along the way of having a good relationship with another human being. (owkay, i'm being SOOO general) please.. based on my experience, it really means a lot to them.
owkay, before i keep on babbling nonsense, with such vague points, i think i better stop, since it's already so late, and i need to have sufficient sleep to get through a very long day tommorow.



by the way, JPA scholars who will be joining ICPU programme are coming tommorow. so, there are major check-ins, which also means that MAJOR WORK for the RLs who's on duty tommorow.  thank god, i'm working half day.  if not, i may have suffered a lot worse than what i've suffered today. ahax!
alryte peeps. gotta go. need to sleep. thanx a lot for reading. really appreciate it. good night.



:: summer_breeze ::
~aNgeL oF bRokEn dReaMz~


6 Jul 2006

belangsungkawa ABDULLAH SALLEH

From mSTAR Online (mstar.com.my)



Belasungkawa ABDULLAH SALLEH (1926-2006)



23-06-2006 11:09:24 AM



KUALA LUMPUR: Bekas Ketua Setiausaha Negara (KSN) Tun Abdullah Salleh yang meninggal dunia hari ini merupakan pegawai kerajaan yang paling terkemuka yang telah berkhidmat bawah empat Perdana Menteri dan pernah menjadi ketua kepada Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, bekas kakitangan kerajaan yang kini ialah Perdana Menteri. Setelah dimasukkan ke hospital sejak tiga bulan lepas, Abdullah meninggal dunia akibat limpoma, sejenis kanser pada sel darah di Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (HUKM) di sini pada kira- kira pukul 3.30 petang semalam. Abdullah yang datang dari keluarga bukan senang menjawat jawatan awam kerajaan yang paling tinggi pada 1976 dan dua tahun kemudian sebagai Pengerusi dan Ketua Eksekutif perbadanan minyak nasional Petronas yang baru ditubuhkan. Dilahirkan pada 24 Jun, 1936 di Kampung Padang Sebang, Alor Gajah, Melaka, semasa negara dalam pemerintahan penjajahan dan apabila kemiskinan masih lagi berlaku, Abdullah dapat mengharungi segala cabaran itu dalam hidupnya. Tujuh daripada adik-beradiknya meninggal dunia akibat difteria, ibu beliau meninggal dunia semasa wabak demam kepialu yang pada ketika itu beliau berada di darjah lima, tetapi tidak ada apa yang boleh menghalang beliau daripada mencapai cita- citanya untuk melanjutkan pelajaran bagi mendapatkan ijazah universiti, perang dunia meletus pada 1941-1945. Beliau dimasukkan di sebuah sekolah yang dikendalikan oleh rakyat Britain di bandar Melaka -- beliau satu-satunya pelajar Melayu di sekolah itu dengan berulang-alik menaiki keretapi dari Gadek dan kemudian berjalan kaki. Abdullah membayar yuran sekolah $2.50 sebulan dengan bapanya hanya bergaji $26 sebulan tetapi oleh kerana beliau cemerlang dalam pelajarannya pada tahun pertama, beliau diberikan persekolahan percuma. Dalam tahun kedua, beliau menjadi pelajar paling cemerlang dan diberikan biasiswa sebanyak $9 sebulan. Beliau meneruskan persekolahannya di Melaka High School, yang beliau sifatkan sebagai "salah sebuah sekolah terbaik di negara ini" dan berada dalam Darjah Tujuh sementara menungu ke Darjah Lapan apabila Perang Dunia Kedua apabila tercetus. Abdullah dapat melihat kedatangan tentera Jepun dan kejatuhan Singapura. Pada Ogos 1945 apabila tamatnya perang itu dengan Jepun menyerah diri, beliau menyambung semula persekolahanya yang tergendala. Setelah mencapai umur lebih 18 tahun, beliau melangkahi darjah lapan untuk terus ke darjah Sembilan bagi menduduki peperiksaan Sijil Persekolahan pada 1946. Tetapi pada tahun itu, bencana alam berlaku. "Saya dapati saya menghidapi batuk kering," beliau pernah memberitahu majalah perkhidmatan awam Malaysia yang dikeluarkan setiap tiga bulan. Beliau dimasukkan ke hospital selama tiga bulan dan sungguhpun ujian sputum membuktikan negatif, kesan sampingan wujud beberapa bulan kemudian apabila air mula meliputi paru-parunya. "Saya ingatkan saya akan mati, ia sangat teruk. Air terpaksa dipam keluar dua kali seminggu," beliau mengingatinya. Abdullah dimasukkan ke hospital selama dua tahun setengah dan setelah keluar hospital, beliau kembali ke sekolah setelah tidak mengambil peperiksaan pada 1946. Tetapi beliau memberitahu majalah itu bahawa pengetua sekolah tersebut enggan menerimanya kerana beliau melebihi usia dan hanya berlembut setelah dipujuk oleh seorang guru yang pernah mengajar beliau. Beliau menyertai Darjah Sembilan pada umur 22 tahun dalam kelas di kalangan pelajar berusia 17 dan 18 tahun. Sekali lagi, beliau cemerlang dengan memperoleh enam kepujian dalam Peperiksaan Sijil Persekolahan. Beliau memasuki Kolej Melayu Kuala Kangsar (MCKK), kolej yang terulung di negara ini untuk Tingkatan 6 dan kemudian Universiti Malaya ketika masih lagi dalam keadaan kesihatan yang belum pulih sepenuhnya, dan sebenarnya penyakit itu berulang lagi semasa di universiti.



Sungguhpun Abdullah dimasukkan ke hospital selama dua setengah bulan dan kemudian diletakkan di tempat pelajar sakit dan terpaksa meninggalkan pengajian untuk lima bulan, beliau masih mampu menerima ijazah daripada universiti
itu dengan Sarjana Muda (Kepujian) dalam Geografi.

Abdullah memulakan kariernya dalam perkhidmatan awam Johor kerana beliau terpaksa Berkhidmat di negeri itu disebabkan terikat dengan biasiswa Johor, jawatan pertama beliau ialah setiausaha jawatankuasa penganjur ulang tahun ke-
50 tahun pemerintahan Sultan Johor, Sultan Ibrahim.

Ini diikuti dengan beberapa pelantikan perkhidmatan awam dan kemudian dari 1959 hingga 1961, beliau ialah setiausaha sulit kepada Perdana Menteri, Tunku Abdul Rahman.



"Sesalan saya yang paling besar ialah apabila Tunku meninggal dunia (1989), saya tidak ada untuk melihat wajahnya buat kali terakhir. Pada masa itu saya berada London. Saya menyesal sangat," beliau memberitahu majalah itu.

Kemudian beliau menjawat jawatan di Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam (SPA) dengan arahan memastikan pelantikan biasiswa dan divisyen satu adil kepada calon Melayu.

Ini diikuti oleh pelantikan beliau sebagai Penolong Setiusaha kepada Kabinet. Abdullah, bersama dengan hakim Hashim Yeop Sani merangka Akta Bahasa Kebangsaan 1967, yang memperuntukkan Bahasa Malaysia ialah bahasa perantaraan di sekolah.

Beliau kemudian ditugaskan menubuhkan Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) yang menggunakan Bahasa Malaysia sebagai bahasa perantaraan dan dilantik sebagai pendaftar pertamanya oleh Perdana Menteri Tun Abdul Razak, satu pelantikan jawatan rendah walaupun memegang jawatan tinggi tetapi beliau tidak
menolaknya. Ini kerana beliau telah menolak tawaran Razak dalam dua perkara sebelum ini, pertama dalam 1963 ke Sabah sebagai Penasihat Ekonomi kepada ketika itu Ketua Menteri Tun Datu Mustapha dan kedua, untuk memujuk beliau
bertanding sebagai calon pada pilihan raya umum 1969 dan akan dilantik sebagai Ketua Menterinya.

"Sudah tentu, Tun Razak tidak akan menerima 'tidak' untuk jawapan buat kali ketiga ini," katanya memberitahu Khidmat. 



Penubuhan UKM menggunakan bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa perantaraan membuktikan satu tanggungjawab yang berat pada ketika hanya segelintir sahaja bangsa Melayu memiliki ijazah doktor falsafah dan sarjana untuk berkhidmat sebagai pensyarah tetapi masalah itu dapat diatasi dengan pengambilan pensyarah dari Indonesia.



Selepas pilihan raya umum 1974, Abdullah dijadikan ketua pengarah Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam (JPA) dan pada Mei 1976 setelah Tun Razak meninggal dunia, beliau menggantikan Tan Sri Kadir Shamsuddin sebagai Ketua Setiusaha Negara. Kadir ke Petronas sebagai pengerusinya yang pertama.

Pada akhir 1978 setelah bersara daripada perkhidmatan awam, Perdana Menteri ketika itu Tun Hussein Onn melantik beliau sebagai pengerusi dan ketua eksekutif Petronas berikutan kematian Kadir.

Abdullah sebelum itu mengemukakan beberapa nama kepada Perdana Menteri sebagai pengganti Kadir. Tetapi Hussein mahukan beliau untuk jawatan itu yang dipegangnya semasa berumur 53 tahun.

Banyak perkembangan di Petronas, dengan kakitangan antara 600 dan 700 orang, masih lagi dalam peringkat perancangan dan tugas pertama Abdullah ialah menubuhkan kilang Gas Cecair Asli (LNG) di Bintulu dan mendapatkan syarikat tenaga dan utiliti untuk mengeluarkan LNG. Abdullah juga menubuhkan kilang penapisan Petronas di Kertih, Terengganu dan berikutan itu satu lagi kilang penapisan di Melaka yang memberikan keutamaan untuk melatih rakyat Malaysia yang kemudian akan mengambil alih pengurusan kilang itu daripada pasukan pengurusan asing.

Hari ini, Petronas mempunyai kepentingan di lebih 30 negara dan salah satu syarikat minyak yang paling menguntungkan di dunia dan satu-satunya syarikat Malaysia yang disenaraikan dalam the Fortune 500.



Usia dan kesihatan menyebabkan Abdullah jauh daripada perhatian umum tetapi dari 1989 sehingga tahun lepas, beliau ialah pengerusi Yayasan Tun Razak, sempena nama Perdana Menteri kedua.



Pada 2003, Abdullah dianugerahkan dengan Seri Setia Mahkota (SSM) yang membawa gelaran Tun, anugerah tertinggi persekutuan, dan menjadi bekas
Ketua Setiausaha Negara yang pertama dan satu-satunya yang pernah menerima gelaran itu.


tribute to TUN ABDULLAH SALLEH..

(this is actually an email wrote by abang ayaz, as a tribute to the late TUN ABDULLAH SALLEH, our ex-chairman of YTR trustees.)



Subject: The Late Tun Abdullah
From: "Mohamed Ayaz Ismail"
Date: Thu, 6 Jul 2006 14:39:33 +0800


Dear all,

On Thursday 22 June 2006, the nation mourned the
loss of Tun Abdullah Salleh. Tun Abdullah was well
known to AYTR members by virtue of him being the
former Chairman of the Board of Trustees of
Yayasan Tun Razak, and also Advisor to AYTR.
Many of you may already be aware of his passing
on, whilst others may be hearing this for the first
time.

Tun Abdullah was the former Chief Secretary to the
Government and founder of Universiti Kebangsaan
Malaysia (UKM). He died two days shy of his 80th
birthday. Tun Abdullah was appointed Chief
Secretary to the Government in October 1976 and
retired from the civil service three years later. After
his retirement from government service, Tun
Abdullah was appointed chairman and chief
executive of Petronas in 1979 and later served as
president and chief executive of the national oil
corporation between February 1984 and Feb 9,
1988.

Tun Abdullah was Yayasan Tun Razak chairman
for 16 years from May 1989 until he relinquished
the post in May last year.

We in AYTR were privileged to have been able to
have him in our space. I was not in Malaysia when
Tun Abdullah passed away, and did not have the
opportunity to read the tributes to this gentleman.

I would like to pen a few words on Tun Abdullah.
Many of us first met Tun during our PKTR, and I
had the privilege of having met him on numerous
other occasions through my office as the Chairman
of AYTR. In fact, the founding of the AYTR was his
brainchild. Tun looked at us as young people who
had much to offer to society, and he was our
number one supporter, if you like. He had a soft
spot for us, and had this believe that we in the
AYTR will one day be leaders of the type Malaysia
needs.

I've been told how Tun would not hesitate to agree
to support AYTR programmes in the few times it
has come up for discussion at the YTR trustees'
meeting. In the PKTR's he attended, he always
took some time to share his experience and
thoughts - and I'm sure many of you still
remember the setting - Tun on a sofa or chair and
the rest of us seated in front of him, all ears, and
sometimes he would share what he felt AYTR
could and should do. Tun also attended a number
of events we organised, like the majlis berbuka
puasa and the gathering we had in Bukit Tinggi a
few years back. This again was testimony to the
high regard to which he held us, and the respect
that he had for us. His humbleness is amazing,
and a trait that more of our leaders could
demonstrate.

After he passed away, I talked to some people who
had known him since his days as the Chief
Secretary to the Government and the president of
Petronas - and I can conclude that he leaves a
legacy that has left an indelible impression on the
lifes of many.

The article that follows tells us a little about his
childhood and his contribution to the country.

We at AYTR have the opportunity to continue his
legacy, and so we shall.

Tun Abdullah - sorely missed, fondly remembered.
May Allah bless his soul always.


Regards,
Mohamed Ayaz,
Chairman,
AYTR




3 Jul 2006

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1 Jul 2006

i don't care what my friends say

I don't care what my friends say
won't listen to the words that they say
there's no way that they could know

and I don't want to talk about it
or waste my time worrying bout it
cause there's no way that they could know

so if you want me let me know
and if you feel it let it show
and if you need me tell me so

I don't care what your friends say
I won't play the games that they play
or waste my time to tell you so

and I don't want think about it
you know I'd rather do without it
cause there's no way that they could know

so if you want me let me know
and if you feel it let it show
and if you need me tell me so

and I don't care what our friends say
you know they'll never see things our way
and there's no way that they could know

and I don't every doubt it
or waste my days worrying about it
cause there's no way that they could know

so when you want me let me know
and when you feel it let it show
and when you need me tell me so


:: summer_breeze ::

28 Jun 2006

ENDLESS TORTURE FOR TODAY~!!

hello people..



i know i'm not suppose to complain bout my life.. and i should be grateful with the life i'm living now.. but, man.... rite now, I'M SO DARN BORED, till i dont think i can no longer live... maybe i shoul just die.. coz that's how BORRREEDDDD i'm feeling rite now... yup, we have classes, and college is still going on... but, what's the point going to ur classes, if ends up, u're just going to sit there, stare at the teacher and listen to the rest of the class discussing sumthing that u're not really suppose to do.. not saying that i'm damn smart till no need to listen to them or anything.. but, we've learned all that, and we've done our finals~!! argghhhh~!!!!! if it only applies for one class, then i wont complain laa.. but it happens to ALL classes~!!!!! omygawd~!!! this is not only a physical torture towardsd my fellow friends and i, but also a torture to our precious mind !!



owkay, i know i'm juz exxagerating it, but yeah, that's basically what we're feeling and experiencing ryte now.. so darn jealous with our previous classmates who may have only 4 classes a day, and go back at around 1 or 2.. and starts class at around 11.. omygawd~!! a life in my dreams....... hahaha..



sum more, my phone's credit almost run out (again..) and dunno wat else to do, so here i am spilling all my heart out to u, my dear bloggie.. agggggghhhhhhhhh~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!



i feel like screaming my LUNGS out~!!!



coZ i'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DARNNNNNNNNNN BORRRRREEDDDDD~~~~!!!!!!!!



*sigh*



i just wish.....



upon the star.....



but the star juz never shine...



to grant my wish...



for only once...



to meet the guy...



i ever want.....



(hahaha... hows this suppose to relate with what i'm feeling ryte now??)



u know what, i feel like listening back to blink 182's songs... hurmm.. catch ya later peeps~!!





:: summer_breeze ::



please... release me from this endless torture of BORREEEDOMMM~!!!!


I'M STILL NOT OKAY~!!

owkay.. this sickening feeling that i wuz havin yesterday, is still lurching and it's still there inside of me... when it will go away?? when???? warghh.. i dunno who else to go to, to seek for advice or help.. seems like no one can help me wif this problem..... waaaaa~~~!!!!!

i'm juz keeping things vague... agghhh~!!!!!!! just let it be how it is.. before it gets any worst.....

but still, I'M NOT OWKAY~!!!!!!


Gothic_girl47_1










:: summer_breeze ::
..angel with broken dreams..


27 Jun 2006

I'M NOT OKAY!!!

owkay.. seriously, I'M NOT OWKAY.. rite now, i'm havin this horrible gastric.. nak ckp tak makan, i did mkn.. even lagi byk dari yg biase aku mkn.. but still, sakit perot.. tak ckp ngan gastric, hari i memang demam yg tahap aku tak leyh nak bgnpagi tadi.. gosh! mcm pe je.. really guilty that i have to miss class today.. but still, i have to go to college becoz mr thou suddenly want to see and some other students.. it's actually about MOE (Minister of Education) is coming over to taylors to do some accreditation bla.. bla.. bla.. so, the admin office have randomly pick the students to meet the MOE who may have a few survey or questions that they want to ask us in order to know taylor's quality or sumthing like that.. went to the doctor too before that, and u know what, my pocket money for this week's food is ALL USED UP~!! omygawd.. juz imagine, i have to pay RM 56 for all the medication and everything?!?! gosh.. guess that's subang huh? *Sigh*

and one more serious thing.. i cant stop thinking bout.................... ~sigh~ plzz.... i donno wat to do.. wat to do????? wat to do?????? waaaaa~!!!! should i....? could i........? what if........? too many questons left unanswered.. and i dont think i'm ready for all these answers...yet... is it too soon.. or am i juz not ready? who knows.... well, i hope i can untangle myself from this mess that i've created.... *sigh* why life has to be this complicated???? wagh~!!!

owkay.. so bottom line, I'M NOT OKAY...

:: summer_breeze::
and u my dear, u will be deeply missed....

23 Jun 2006

came back from the holzz

hey guys.. holiday's almost over.. right now, i'm ack at my apartment.. no longer at the house of .. wax .. haha.. owkay.. juz kidding. well, this morning went back to ridzuan.. i put down all my stuff and go straight to college.. there, i met all my juniors.. well, misc juniors to be exact, and try to brief them on wether to chose further math or economics.. huhu.. well, seems like this year, misc are offering new courses such as OFF SHORE ENGINEERING and LOGISTICS.. well, that's totally cool..
well, today too, i got new housemates, which happens to be my juniors, ASVIN and SERENA... cool huh? well, bout ita's issue tho, i think ita should negotiate with these two gals.. i, for one, donno how to talk to them bout this.. hehe.. sorry dearie..
nyways, today also was a greaaattt day, where i hang out wif my old friend from my high-school, ARDTUE.. huhu.. it has been a while since i last saw her.. well, today, we spend half of the day strolling and window shopping at mid valley till, i think, my legs are starting to distort from its original location on my joint and everything.. hahaha.. owkay.. totally exagerating..haha..
owkies.. lets recall my holiday... i spent my days, watching the oc dvd for season 1 and 2.. i've completed both season.. and now, i'm planning to start and finish with season 3.. but, urm.. seeing that college wil start this tuesday, i guess i have to cancel my intention to do so.. hehe..
well, rite now, i REALLY miss my housematess... ikmal.. wawey.. ain.. it's so not the same without u guys.. waaaa~~!!! come back~!!!!!!

owkay.. gotta go.. before i have emotional breakdown again here.. hehe..

owkiesssss....... laytaaaa~~~!!!!

:: summer_breeze ::

10 Jun 2006

MISC Berhad

owkay.. now i'm still tired from a very tiring day yesterday.. well, yesterday, juz came back from the ORIENTATION PROGRAMME WITH MISC.. well, this programme had actually been going on for 2 days.. which was on the 9th and on the 10th of June at The Legend Hotel, KL.. but, all of us checked in on the 8th..

the programme was ok.. it was not so entirely boring.. especially there's this one session wif Miss Anita.. well, she really does inspire us.. hehe.. apart from that, we met all other MISC scholars and create such a bond with them.. and perhaps, will still make us frens forever.. hehe.. right guys? huhu... btw, there's this one briefing with the MISC Education Sponsorship.. they said minimum requirement to work with them is 2nd Upper Degree.. and the magic number is 3.0... hope i can reach the target~

well, and yesterday, all of us went to PORT KLANG, to visit the North Port, and see all the logistics processes on handling all the cargos.. we got to meet all the officers in charge.. and even thedrivers of the trailers that we always see on the road.. some of my frens, eg: Maisara, Khairul and Khasyafiq.. (hahahhaa... lupe nak tekan minyak?????) got a chance to DRIVE the trailer.. cOoL huh? well, i didnt drive becoz i've lost my confidence in driving.. blame who? don wanna mention here.. hahahah..

owkay.. so last nyte, went out wif the boys again to.... i wonder why we went out last nyte.. but yup, england wins~! huHu..

and owh.. REALLY forgot to mention.. my housemates are now OFFICIALLY : ADDICT TO OC~!! hahahaha.... marahkan nadya dulu sebab minat sgt kat oc.. nah~ ambik korang~! hahahahhahaha.... well, hopefully we can finish the marathon by 13th.. huhu..

owkay y'all.. gotta get back to my laundry... gosh~!! there's juz so many things to be washed~!!! *sigh*

owkay...owkay.. laytaaa~!!


:: summer_breeze ::

6 Jun 2006

IT'S OVER~!!

gosh.. the day's finally here~!!! FREEDOM FROM EXAMS that gives you ENDLESS HEADACHES and EXTRA PRESSURE and sickening feeling everytime its over.. that cant stop yourself from thinking bout eventho it's over.. okay.. i'm totally exaggerating.. so.. exam's over.. and i'm TOTALLY relief..



petang ni nak gi ice skating.. mlm nanti my sister n brother are coming to see me.. wat else goin' to make my day A DAY~? huhu..



owkay.. need to get back to my movie.. get back to ya later..



laytaa y'all~!!





:: summer_breeze ::


5 Jun 2006

i'm missing you..

home sick wuz never in the dictionary of my life.. NEVER.. but last nyte, (blame oggy-michelle for this~!) i suddenly REALLY, REALLY miss my home.. i miss the small little sibu.. where i had spent 17 years of my life growing up.. i miss my friends.. i miss my parents.. i miss nor.. i miss jessie.. i miss michelle.. i miss K.O.G.. i miss mr kong and pusat tuition newton...waaaa~!!! i wanna go home~~~



that's one thing.. another thing is.. my housemates.. THEY'RE LEAVING~!! omygawd.. cant really imagine what my life's gonna be without them here.. ikmal, ain, wawey, opu... waaaa~~!!! REALLY, REALLY GONNA MISS KORANG~!!! jgn le pegi... dont leave me rot alone here... waaaa~~!!!!!!



as for my friends yg dah nak fly this year.. i am really gonna miss korang.. dak2 icpu.. a-levels.. esp: IKMAL, AIN, OPU (dak2 BNM yg best~!), wawey, farisa, IZYAN (my favourite roomie), ainil, ariff and all icpu students.. and not forgetting, KAK FARAH yg gedix~! well, i wish u guys BESTEST OF LUCK in your future undertakings..



owkay, here's a song dedicated to all my friends that i miss.. and going to miss.. (tsk..tsk..)



And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives 
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And there was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change,
Come whatever
We will still be, friends forever


So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat chorus

La, la, la la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly


Repeat chorus 3x

4 Jun 2006

concerto pour deux voix

concerto pour deux voix or concet of two voices



here's a video on these two singer.. CLEMENCE n JB MAUNIER.. who have such superb voices..
enjoy~!



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cOceiuAB2Sk







p/s: thanx zarf for the song~!


:: summer_breeze ::


2 Jun 2006

I Write Sins Not Tragedies

here's the lyrics to the video clip at my page.. enjoy~!!



"I Write Sins Not Tragedies"
Panic! At The Disco -->
(correction to my previous post.. it's AT not IN the disco)




Oh, well imagine, as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,

and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:

"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.

"And yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."


I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...


Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved

Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne

Oh! Well in fact, well I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved

Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne, pour the champagne


I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.


Again...


I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

I'd chime in, "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"

No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.


Again...









:: summer_breeze ::