21 Dec 2007

post no. 102

1) Name of a person who made you laugh last night?

rima n nippa. 


 


2) What were you doing at 0800?

sleeping still..


 


3) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

on the phone with mi familia. 


 


4) What happened to you in 2006?

i met this great guy. ;) 


 


5) What was the last thing you said out loud?
"bye mama~ love u!" 


 


6) How many beverages did you have today?

plain water. 1. 


 


7) What colour is your hairbrush?

red. 


 


8) What was the last thing you paid for?

err.. twix? 


 


9) Where were you last night?

rima's house. 


 


10) What colour is your front door?

creamy cream. 


 


11) Where do you keep your change?

on the table. in my handbags. in my pant's pockets. 


 


12) What’s the weather like today?

foggy. not sunny. gloomy. 


 


13) What’s the best ice-cream flavour?

mint chocolate chip! (agree with nodee) and midnight chocolate cookies~!


 


14) What excites you?

for now: euro trip. 31st december. :)


 


15) Do you want to cut your hair?

not for now. :P


 


16) Are you over the age of 25?

nope nope. cumin' 20 though. hehe :) 


 


17) Do you talk a lot?

most of the time. except for when im tired or worried. 


 


18) Do you watch the O.C?

die hard fan!


 


19) Do you know anyone named Steven?

owh yes. that dude kat ridzuan. 


 


20) Do you make up your own words?

owh yes. cacated. 


 


21) Are you a jealous person?

i can be. *smug face*


 


22) Name a friend or friends whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.

ali, alia, along (considered as a name jugak kan?)


 


23) Name a friend or friends whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.

khashafiq, khaliq.. cant think of anyone else..


 


24) Who’s the first person on your received call list?

Raiz Comey!


 


25) What does the last text message you received say
"This is my new number - hamedullah."


 


26) Do you chew on your straw?

i will, if i am THAT bored.


 


28) Where’s the next place you’re going to?

LONDON! here i come!


 


29) Who’s the rudest person in your life?

oooohh. not so sure.. 


 


30) What was the last thing you ate?

ferrero roche. my breakfast. my lunch. im lazy.


 


31) Will you get married in the future?

surely surely! ngeeheehee :D a white wedding, boleh tak cheri?
 


 


32) What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?

lemme see.. it should be hitch. well, i watched it on my laptop. ngeh :P


 


33) Is there anyone you like right now ?

like? LOVE is much more perfect to describe it :) 


 


34) When was the last time you did the dishes?

yesterday. eheh. note: not that i have any bertimbun sekarang ye. thank u very much.


 


35) Are you currently depressed?

sad. miserable. and missing that SOMEONE terribly.


 


36) Did you cry today?

nope. not yet. heh :P


 


37) Why did you answer and post this?

i was reading nodee's blog. and i was bored. and still am.


20 Dec 2007

holiday. eid.

hey everyone..
been ages since the last time i ACTUALLY post anything in here ryte? huhu. not that i dun have anything to tell, but i just dont feel like typing everything.. lazy. yea. a trait that im not so proud of, but its there and its bugging me. hahha.



well, winter break just started about... a week ago. all my frens had left for their own trips.. maha and the gang, off to barcelona. helmi n faiz are now in glasgow.. thank god for hanis and iylia.. if not, im gonna be DEAD in boredom. and plus, mon cheri's now back in malaysia.. well, at least now he's still in his flight..... gosh. it has only been 12 hours now, but i miss him sooo much already..



owh! adeyh.. how unappropriate am i?? EID MUBARAK and SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA to all who's celebrating.. hopefully this eid brings u a lot more meaning and.. u know.. ahaha. i dont. well, my raya was great! wic fall yesterday, btw. celebrated with hanis's family.. and helped her mom masak rendang, mee kari, and make some biskut honey cornflakes.. wahh.. niqmat!P1010612_1



"us making the honey cornflakes biscuits"



although werent that many people showed up, but we did have helluva time! owh owh, especially at uncle khairul's house. goodness! superb giler die nyer sup ekor~~ wah!niqmat!



and yeah, this was also another opportunity for me to make new group of frens.. the westgate high girls~ wah.. they are happening and cool to hang out wif!
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"the west gate girls at hanis's house"



wow.. that was a tiring night.. well, tonyte, i guess, im just gonna create a post on my aidiladha celebration then.. i'll talk bout other stuff when i got back.



2 more photos for the day:



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"us for the day"




p/s: i miss you so much cheri.. :( cant wait for 31st.... =)


that's all for now. signing out.. until then.


*summer_breeze*


12 Dec 2007

finally, a post.


L A S T

1. Friend you saw:

- Rosilda. my hsemate


2 . Talked to on the phone:

- Raiz


3 . Text message you sent:

- it shud be Raiz..


T O D A Y

1. Wearing:

- Sweat shirt and pajamas pants


2. where are you?

- at my table


T O M O R R O W

1. Is:

- Thursday


2 . Got plans:

- sorta..


3. Dislikes about tomorrow:

- 2 events and 1 assignment - which one should i choose??


F A V OR I T E


1. Number:

- 2


2.Color:

- white, red, black


C U R R E N T L Y


1. Missing someone:

- yes. terribly.


2. Mood:

- not sure.


3 . Wanting:

- to finish these assignments and get over it already.


Q U E S T I O N S / A N S W E R S


Q: First thing you did this morning:

- wash my face.


Q: Last thing you ate and drank:

- cereal and strawberry milk and toast with choc nutella.


Q: What’s annoying you right now?:

- nothing really. just that i am still sleepy.


Q : Do you support long distance relation ships?:

- definitely!


Q : Is there a person who is on your mind right now?

- yeap. few person actually :)


Q: Do you think that person is thinking of you too?:

- yea.. and i hope so. he's still sleeping now :)


Q : What color of shirt are you wearing?:

- black sweater and white tshirt.


Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?

- tido. ahaha.


Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?

- less than 3 months ago.


Q: Do you get angry easily?:

- when the mood swing kicks in, i do.


Q: What were you thinking about before you went to sleep?

- bgn pkl 10, nk sambung wat keje.


Q: What song are you listening to right now?:

- appologise - oneRepublic ft Timbaland


Q. Have you ever really cried your heart out?

- yeap. im a girl, duh!


Q: Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

- yeap. =P


H A P P Y S E C T I O N


Do you wish you were happier?

- arent we all?


Can music make you happy?

- owh yes. definitely. and they can make me sad too. :P


L O V E S E C T I O N


Anyone besides your family ever said they loved you? and meant it?

-yeap. :)

C U R R E N T L Y W E A R I N G


01. Shorts?

- nope


02. Shoes?

- nope


03. Necklace?

- yeap


H A V E  Y O U  E V E R


01. Hugged someone?

- yes


02. Been on the phone until the sun came up?

- not yet. ahaha.


03 . Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?

- owh yes.


 

20 Nov 2007

gilmore girls and logan huntzberger

omg! it has been.. wat, 6 months since the last aired of GILMORE GIRLS the series.. and i mean THE SERIES. not the season, not the .. watever, but THE series. can u believe a world without GILMORE GIRLS playing on your tv ot TiVO?? that's gonna suck SO MUCH k!



and now, im depressed (well, im not actly), but i am devastated and sad! ive been watching gilmore girls since i was in Form 2.. which was, wat.. 6 years ago! and i still remember i was mad at my mom becoz she doesnt let me watch it (well, mostly bcoz its PMR the next day). and it has been a routine to read the spoiler.. and fall in love (well, a crush actly. dont worry cheri. i love u the most) with whoever rory's dating.. and so happen to be, the last love interest/bf that rory has was THE GUY. LOGAN HUNTZBERGER.. owh gosh. any girl who doesnt like him, there must be something wrong with you..



anyways, i cant rant all day over my obsession on the series and the sadness i felt, where i can no longer watch the love and affection that logan has for rory.. and the coolness that a mom can be.. and the best that a child one could ever have .. or become. just so the producer of Gilmore Girls (and whoever had been working hard on it, especially amy sherman-palladino and her husband and lauren graham n whoever), gilmore girls had inspired me ever since i was 13.. and had been inspiring me since.. the end of gilmore, may have been the extinction of inspiring tv shows/soaps, but forever, the gilmore girls, are going to rock my world.



i love gilmore girls..
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and logan huntzberger..
Love

and u too cheri. ;)



love with a broken heart;
:: summer_breeze ::


6 Oct 2007

updated and pictures and.. watever

well, not in the mood to tell stories or elaborate, but um, here are some photos of newcastle (since budi had been NAGGING for it) for everyone (esp u di.) to enjoy.



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this is St Mary's Cathedral. Located at the city center.


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somewhere outside Blackfriars




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at the city center with Grey's Monument at the back




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down the rooad at the city center.




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somewhere between airport and St Mary's College




hurm.. that shud be enuff for now ryte? anyways, i would not want my blog to be sooo heavy to upload, so anything else, i'll update later~! take care all.




p/s: selamat hari raya everyone. i miss malaysia. :(




::summer_breeze::


13 Sep 2007

family. mon cherie. friends

excited? i am.
now.. only left 4 days for me to be here, and embrace watever i have here.. before i leave.
am i sad? maybe.. now and then.
excited? extremely. seriously. especially today. aihh. told cherie about it. mostly because of him. one step closer. aihh. cant wait to meet him!! =D ngee~



but then again, its so unfair for me to feel so.. kan?
i mean, my parents are having and going through their toughest time now.. which is letting me go.
my brother, being as sweet as he is, even though painful at times.. are doing all he could for me. *thank u abang. i really love you*
and kakak.. she's just the best. you coming over to KL.. and all the effort.. gosh. u put me to tears. *love u so much kakak*



seriously, to leave these 4 people in my life for 3 years, seems.. very hard. and it is.. maybe. i dont know. but dont think this in a weird way. coz i love them. i do. soo very much! but only for today. im not that sad. give me few more days. maybe i'll be depressed n sad.. maybe.



and as for my friends. i'll mention few names here that i will surely, definitely, deeply miss: k-rol. nur carey. along. kak wann. li-v (tp ko dtg scotland next year kn?? hehe :P) and especially, din. aihh. *aku sebak.. seriously*



sigh. gotta sleep. tomorrow nak bangun sahur, surely, i will be the one yang paling susah nak bangun. huhu..



alryte then. later people.



p/s: i love my family. i love mon cherie. and i love my friends.



:: summer_breeze ::


2 Sep 2007

life's full of bull



life is full of
bullsh*t. seriously. when they said, u have to be this way to become this
person, u shud follow. shud u? well, they're the experienced one.. so, watever
it is, what they said is true. like it, or not. bull.



u see.. my flight is
just 2 weeks away.. and right now, every inch of my body says, im NOT ready for
it. wats that? BULL.



while my body says
no, my mind keep on telling me: I CANT WAIT TO LEAVE. how can that be?? BULL.



seriously. life is
full of bullsh*t. if only i can beat the crap out of LIFE, i will.



BULL.




:: summer_breeze ::




19 Aug 2007

wish list

hello again.
ive got too much free time, that im doing this almost everyday now. gosh.
anyways, today, im going to share my wish list for this upcoming shopping spree im going to do.




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seriously, these jackets are to die for. especially the december jacket (d'uh! its PRADA). i got this ideas from this one fashion blog:www.secondcitystyle.com that i had been browsing lately. hurm. killer fall/winter look for 2007? not really my target. but these jackets.. TO DIE FOR! haha~








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oooohh~ seriously! this white fake-fur jacket is GORGEOUS! Marvin Belted Faux Fur Coat | $158 at Nordstrom. goodness.. if i can get hold on this, IM THE HAPPIEST GIRL ALIVE! haha~




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this red Zara wintercoat.. aihh.. needless to elaborate more.. its just C U T E ! ! i LOVE the huge button.. and the shape of the coat. aihh. so pretty..~ even the dress is pretty, too. aihh.. wouldnt want to know how much it cost. hahaha~



alryte. since when im such a fashion freak? well, blame E! Channel for everything. haha.. not saying that its a bad thing~ :P

alryte. i better go mandi. its getting late. later people.


:: summer_breeze ::



18 Aug 2007

everything's alright

owkay. i love this song. and its a sin not to share it with everyone else. this song sets me to the sunset-romantic-vibe mood. haha. seriously. listen to it. the acoustic version.. so damn soothing. here's the lyrics. specially for YOU.. (not u, but YOU.. you know who you are~)



STORM
(Lifehouse)



how long have I

been in this storm

so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form

water's getting harder to tread

with these waves crashing over my head



if I could just see you

everything will be alright

if I'd see you

the storminess will turn to light



and I will walk on water

and you will catch me if I fall

and I will get lost into your eyes

and everything will be alright

and everything will be alright



I know you didn't

bring me out here to drown

so why am I 10 feet under and upside down

barely surviving has become my purpose

cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface



if I could just see you

everything will be alright

if I see you

the storminess will turn to light



and I will walk on water

and you will catch me if I fall

and I will get lost into your eyes

and everything will be alright



and I will walk on water

you will catch me if I fall

and I will get lost into your eyes

and everything will be alright

I know everything is alright

everything's alright



p/s: yeap. everything's alright..



:: summer_breeze ::


im back and summarised.

hello everyone.. it has been.... VERY LONG since ive updated this thing. to say im busy, im definitely not. to say ive got nothing to tell, ive got TONNES of stories to tell.. but heck, i just dont feel like sharing or, actly, writing. haha. well, thanx to that, my english is deteriorating.. yes. deteriorating. *trying my best to maximize my usage of english vocab rather than using the simple words.haha.*



alryte. im a sucker for words. i wont know what to write, or how to express opinions or feelings. seriously. try pointing out a topic for me to debate, it will takes me a while to give u my responds. hahaha. yea. im that slow. and that sucks.
but, if u beg to differ, please please tell me. i really want to know that side of me that i never know about. lalalaaa~~



owkay. seriously, i dont know what to tell u. hurmm. catching up? sure.. i'll try my best to summarise everything into one very short post. (haha. if that's even possible)



owkay. lets start with the month of MAY ARPRIL:

owkay.. may.. shud i be telling u bout may? well, in may.. nothing much happen.. really.owh wait.. good charlotte concert. was that in may? err.. lemme check first. owkay. it was in april. 21st april to be exact. well, the concert.. belif it or not, i enjoyed myself. knowing the whole album for CHRONICLES OF LIFE AND DEATH and some of the song in the YOUNG AND THE HOPELESS, i did jumped up and down and scream the lyrics to their song.. eventho i dont really like GOOD CHARLOTTE now. haha. haha.. well, i went to that concert with kak nor, abg ap and encik khasha. haha. thanx to the free ticket from HITZ.FM and VIP TICKET from DiGi, we were there. hahaa. if not, sorry laa.. adeyh. anyway, in our crowd, there were this group of girls.. they memorize the lyrics for KEEP YOUR HANDS OF MY GIRL. WHOLE SONG!! for real.. aihh. and these girls, they reminded me of thE THE OC girls.. marissa, summer and all. yea. those fashionistas with COACH handbags, YSL tops, LEVIS jeans or sumthing like that. alryte. there is no point telling that story. owkaay. we move on..

MONTH OF MAY:

owkay. what happened in may? owhh owhh. my exam starts. yea. 1st paper was physics. and that sucks. aihh. and it drags on till june. the sucky-ness of the papers. it drags. CHEMISTRY especially.. @&*()_*&^%$%^&*(*%$#$%^ i hate chemistry. it was SUPER DUPER TOUGH K!! its like whatever all of us had been learning all these years, are just the surface of the whole exam paper. like how the hell are we suppose to be able to do that??? stupid. (actly blame us jugak.. sape suro tak wat further revision ourselves. ahaha)

MONTH OF JUNE:

june. A2 finally over. ikmal came back.. *yeay!!* after all the exams are over, i organized a FAREWELL BBQ for those who are leaving.. ICPUs, A-LEVELs.. turn ups was ok. the food, ok laa. takde complain on food tak ckp kan?? haa. kire ok la tu. so, that was the last BBQ i ever gonna organize. huhu. so, IKMAL, FARISA, ANNAS, ASHRUL showed up.. aih. nostalgic ridzuanians. (damn. i seriously am missing ridzuan now). owkay. BBQ was held on the 15th of June.
then, 17th of june was A-LEVELS prom night. it was ok. i had fun taking photos with my classmates. last minute beli boot that cost me rm110++. like shit. aihh.but, it was fun. missing the GQs now. seriously. and also mr loo loo. *mr loo loo.. cepat laa klua from pusat 'pemulihan'. miss chatting and talking crap with u laaaaaa~~*
then, there was BTN. held from 25th to 29th june at Kem Bina Jati, Shah Alam. well, overall, BTN is no heaven. the ceramah, some of it are ok laa. the LDKs.. not so bad. the food, ok laa. owh owh. i love what the food did to me! i lost 2 kg!! hahaha!!! i love the food. the activities.. ok la. did pocho one day. and that was close to fun. but everyone around me complain so much.. that it sucks ALL the fun from pocho-ing. hahhaa. ok. some other activities.. running for 2km.. and thanx to inn, my 'run' wasnt so lonely and borring. hahaha.
owh, great frens i found in BTN. i soo love my dorm mates. from KTT: Farah, Dee, Vicky and Fiza. from YTN: Inn, Pa-are and Zara.. aihh. missing u guys laa~~ :(
owkay.. then, my june is over.

MONTH OF JULY:

july.. i soo love july. haha~
well, it starts of with Soaring The Eagle program in Casa Rachado, PD. it was.. all time fun! had a great time with the UTPians. especially my group mates, and of course, my roomate. huhu. NANA rocks!! and the MISC clan.. we just know how to have a great time, dont we?? hahaha. ok. from this camp, i do gain a lot.. wat did i gain, i need not to mention here. but definitely not weight. i live a healthy lifestyle there. hahaha~~
owh. met ariff!!!! my goodness. that guy~~ aihh. seb bek aku pukul gne tgn je tau. kalo aku.. ish!! geram nyer~~ all this while, he had been lying to me~!! he had been msging me, ckp he's azmir and want to pass something that ariff asked him to pass to me. like shit! geram giler.. anyway, it was GREAT to meet u buddy. i seriously miss u man..
wat else in july.. owh. 17-7-07 *big smile* im taken! (do i need to elaborate more? i dun think so..)
and i went back to sibu on the same day. hurm.



MONTH OF AUGUST:
im cupid strucked. haha.
im the official couch potato. and now definitely gaining weight. aihh. i hate wat ice cream did to me.. but i love ice cream. dun care. still love ice cream more. hahaha.
and then, results came out. alhamdulillah. i did well. not excellent, but well. and got accepted in newcastle. another good news. and now.. waiting on the financial affidavit and offer letter.. for passport and visa. hurm. and one thing that i cant wait for.. SHOPPING~!! hahaha...
and today, 18-8-07.. cherie's leaving.. *down mood*

ok. so that was basically all. later, i'll update more.

p/s: i miss u cherie.. have a safe flight tonight.


:: summer_breeze :: 


19 Jun 2007

i will shine on, for everyone

hey guys..
it has been a while since i ever REALLY write anything in here.. hurm.. i was pacing up my stuff today, and suddenly, i felt so depressed.. and lonely. u know, loneliness knows me by name. it feels like the whole yr this year, i kept on feeling lonely..and been left alone.. sighh..



u see, my years in taylor's is (finally) over. i had been anticipating for this day, since.. i dunno.. since ikmal left i guess. which was a year ago. and then when ita left, i just cant wait to leave taylors.. and more specifically, ridzuan. but now, when the day comes, it feels like it is so hard to let go of my 2 yrs of memories here.. so many things i had been thru with all my frens here.. rahim, MISC boys, A907 peeps, B310 peeps.. and all the rest of ridzuanians who had been a part of my life..



sigh..
seriously u guys, i am gonna miss all of u.. especially my darlings housemate.. u guys left an impact in my life, that no words can ever dexcribe.. im goin to love all of u, and cherish all the times that we used to have together, forever and for always~



owh gosh.. tears are dropping from my eyes now.. sighh.. anyways, best of luck to everyone; staying or leaving.. or left. and i LOVE all of you and i am so sorry for anything that ive done wrong to anyone of u.. and take care..



and this song, i dedicate it to everyone..



SHINE ON (JET)

Please don't cry

You know I'm leaving here tonight

Before I go I want you to know

that there will always be a light


And if the moon had to runaway

And all the stars didn't wanna play

Don't waste the sun on a rainy day

The wind will soon blow it all away, ya


So many times I planned

To be much more than who I am

And if I let you down

I will follow you 'round until you understand


That if the moon had to runaway

And all the stars didn't wanna play

Don't waste the sun on a rainy day

The wind will soon blow it all away, ya, oh ya


When the days all feel the same

Don't feel the cold or wind or rain

Everything will be okay

We will meet again one day
And I will shine on, for everyone


So please don't cry

Although I leave you here this night

Where I go how far I don't know

But I will always be your light


That if the moon had to runaway

And all the stars didn't wanna play

Don't waste the sun on a rainy day

The wind will soon blow it all away, ya, oh ya


When the days all seem the same

Don't feel the cold or wind or rain

Everything will be okay

We will meet again one day

I will shine on, for everyone

Shine on, for everyone

When the stars all look the same

Don't feel the cold or wind or rain

Everything will be okay

We will meet again one day

I will shine on, for everyone

Shine on, for everyone


:: summer_breeze ::
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8 Jun 2007

paklah is now HAPPY. good for him.

in conjunction with pak lah's wedding with Jean Danker @ Jean Abdullah, Berita Harian had made an interview with the man himself, and here's the interview:

Wartawan: Pejabat Perdana Menteri hari ini mengeluarkan kenyataan mengenai Datuk Seri akan melangsungkan perkahwinan dengan Jeanne Abdullah, Sabtu ini. Boleh cerita lanjut mengenai berita gembira ini.

Abdullah: Alhamdulillah, saya rasa gembira, syukur kepada Allah SWT kerana orang pilihan saya itu telah mendapat restu daripada anak-anak saya dan juga adik-adik saya. Mudah-mudahan hari yang telah ditetapkan itu, akan diadakan nanti, insya-Allah, majlis akad nikah.

Wartawan: Kenapa pilih Sabtu?

Abdullah: Sabtu cuti, senanglah orang nak datang.

Wartawan: Datuk Seri, berbulan madu di mana nanti?

Abdullah: (Ketawa)... tak rancang pun lagi, belum, belum. Nak kena bincang dengan orang yang berkenaan.

Wartawan: Bila kali pertama Datuk Seri jumpa dengan bakal isteri ini?

Abdullah: (senyum)... dah lama dah sebab Jeanne adalah adik ipar Allahyarham Kak Endon.

Wartawan: Bila Datuk Seri melamar?

Abdullah: Saya ingin mengingati bila, saya cuba ingat bila.... saya pun tak ingat lagi dah

Wartawan: Apa yang membuatkan Datuk Seri tertarik kepada Jeanne?

Abdullah: (senyum) Oh yang tu ke... sebab ada hatikan. Saya ingat dia boleh jaga sayalah, boleh jadi teman sayalah.

Wartawan: Kenapa ambil masa yang lama untuk mengumumkannya kerana sebelum ini Datuk Seri kata ia hanya khabar angin?

Abdullah: Yalah... itu khabar angin. Bagaimanapun, perkara ini mengambil masa. Saya terpaksa berunding dengan anak-anak, adik-adik tanya. Lepas itu nak cari masa pula, saya terlalu sibuk sana sini. Itulah sebabnya.

Wartawan: Datuk Seri nanti akan bersanding?

Abdullah: Tak ada, orang tua kahwin.. (gelak)

Wartawan: Ada majlis resepsi untuk orang ramai?

Abdullah: Itu belum lagi, nantilah. Banyak kawan-kawan nak jumpa.

Wartawan: Boleh Datuk Seri cerita sedikit mengenai karekter Jeanne, kerana kami tidak tahu. Lagi pun beliau bakal menjadi ‘first lady’?

Abdullah: Pertamanya, dia adalah orang yang cukup sederhana dan peramah juga kalau orang nak bercakap dengan dia. Dari segi... kalau nak ambil kira hubungan dia dengan orang yang datang ke rumah saya, dulu masa Kak Endon ada, dialah yang sentiasa menyambut kawan-kawan dan tetamu yang datang kerana ada mesyuarat dengan saya atau ada juga kadang-kadang pelawat dari luar negara, kawan dari luar negara, pegawai kerajaan. Jadi apabila semua orang ini datang, yang menjemput mereka di mana nak duduk, tanya apa nak minum, itulah peranan dilakukannya... macam Kak Endon juga. Rumah itu besar dan orang datang pun ramai. Di samping itu juga, ada masa perlu diadakan jamuan sama ada kecil atau besar, itu pun dia juga yang menguruskannya seperti mencari katerer, menentukan menu dan akan susun meja, kerusi semua. Jadi saya tengok dia dapat membawa diri dengan baik dan elok. Tidak ada apa-apa yang berlaku (menyebabkan) saya rasa nak marah ke apa. Jadi, sifat begitu pada saya adalah baik.

Wartawan: Berapa tahun dah kenal dengan Jeanne?

Abdullah: Kenal dah lama dah. Boleh jadi 20 tahun.

Wartawan: Merisik pula bila?

Abdullah: (gelak)... baru-barulah

Wartawan: Sudah setahun?

Abdullah: (senyum)... kurang sikit

Wartawan: Hantaran pula Datuk Seri, berapa banyak?

Abdullah: Tak ada, tak ada.... simple saja. Ini bukan nak kahwin kali pertama. Tak payah hantaran banyak-banyak.

Wartawan: Bagaimana penerimaan anak-anak Datuk Seri terutama Nori, apabila mengetahui mengenai perkara ini?

Abdullah: Terima dah, kalau tak terima hari ini tak jadilah.

Wartawan: Tetapi keluarga Datuk Seri pun kenal sangat dengan Jeanne?

Abdullah: Memang pun... dia sebenarnya keluarga sebab seperti yang saya katakan tadi, dia adik ipar Kak Endon, kahwin dengan adik lelaki Kak Endon, tetapi dah pun berpisah, dah lebih 15 tahun lamanya, bukan baru.

Wartawan: Allahyarham Datin Seri Endon dulu amat sayang dengan Jeanne?

Abdullah: Memang pun, kalau tidak Kak Endon tak suruh datang ke rumah untuk bekerja dengan dia dan diberi beberapa tanggungjawab dan dia perlulah laksanakan di rumah itu.

Wartawan: Ada yang kata, ini (berkahwin dengan Jeanne) wasiat daripada Allahyarham Kak Endon, betul ke?

Abdullah: Kak Endon tak adalah kata wasiat.

Wartawan: Pesanan atau cadangan Kak Endon, mungkin?

Abdullah: (Gelak)... Itu pun dia tak kata.

Wartawan: Jadi perkahwinan ini diadakan dengan cara sederhana saja?

Abdullah: Ya, lebih sederhana. Yang pertama (perkahwinan) tu, besarlah. Lepas itu kali kedua, kecil.... kali ketiga lain sikit, empat lain sikit (gelak).... ketiga, keempat tak ada dah. Kita henti setakat dua (gelak).

Wartawan: Ada rancangan nak bercuti selepas kahwin?

Abdullah: Belum ada rancangan cuti sebab lepas itu ada kerja. Saya nak pergi lawatan rasmi ke luar negara.

Wartawan: Jeanne bawa sekali?

Abdullah: Bawa sekalilah... dah ada teman (gelak).... ehh itu pun nak tanya (gelak lagi).

Wartawan: Bagaimana hubungan bakal isteri Datuk Seri dengan Nori?

Abdullah: Baik, baik, baik. Tak ada masalah.

Wartawan: Apa pesanan Datuk Seri kepada rakyat?

Abdullah: Selepas ini seperti biasa, saya akan pergi membuat lawatan, pergi ke merata tempat seluruh Semenanjung, Sabah dan juga Sarawak. Ada program yang saya pergi kerana dijemput untuk rasmi itu dan rasmi ini. Jadi masa pergi itu, bolehlah bawa (Jeanne). Bukanlah saya suruh mereka buat kenduri besar, nak terimalah... saya tak ada macam itu. Bila pergi boleh jumpa dan memang pun lawatan saya ke merata tempat ini memang kerap dan di mana sesuai, bolehlah bawa dia.

Wartawan: Datuk Seri dah tempah cincin?

Abdullah: Dah tempah, takkan tak tempah lagi, dah lewat.

Wartawan: Tetapi hubungan dan cinta Datuk Seri dengan Allahyarham Kak Endon begitu kuat, macam mana Datuk Seri boleh jatuh cinta dengan wanita lain?

Abdullah: Secara jujur saya katakan, sayang saya terhadap Endon tetap kuat. Tetapi saya percaya Tuhan mencipta banyak ruang dalam sanubari kita bagi berlainan orang untuk disayangi. Kita boleh sayangi ibu, anak, isteri, cucu, adik tetapi kita tidak dapat bandingkan kasih kita kepada ibu dengan kasih kepada isteri. Jeanne adalah satu daripadanya... itu adalah kelebihan Allah. Dia mencipta keupayaan untuk kita menyayangi dan menjalin hubungan. Jadi biarlah di rumah tu, gambar-gambar Endon yang ada itu terus berada di situ, saya tak akan ubah sebab itu adalah ingatan memori yang abadi... nak tambah satu lagi (gambar), tak apa tambahlah (senyum).

Wartawan: Bakal isteri Datuk Seri ini, orang mana?

Abdullah: Orang Kuala Lumpur. Nama dia, kalau dieja j e a n n e, orang panggil ‘jean’. Ia adalah perkataan Perancis yang disebut sebagai ‘yeang’.

Wartawan: Dia ada anak?

Abdullah: Ya, ada dua anak perempuan, usia lewat 20an dah.

Wartawan: Datuk Seri panggil Jeanne dengan panggilan apa, sayang atau ‘darling’?

Abdullah: (Gelak).... nanti anda dengar i sebut macam mana. Tadi dalam mesyuarat Kabinet, macam-macam (tanya). Saya dah maklumkan kepada Seri Paduka Baginda Yang di-Pertuan Agong hari ini dan lepas itu, dah maklumkan kepada Jemaah Menteri. Eloklah mereka tahu, lepas itulah kenyataan (mengenai perkahwinan) itu dikeluarkan, biarlah rakyat tahu, tiada apa nak sembunyikan, apa nak sorok-sorok.

Wartawan: Kepada rakyat, apa Datuk Seri harapkan?

Abdullah: Insya-Allah, mudah-mudahan mereka doakan kesejahteraan kami berdua. The Happy Prime Minister can do a lot of good work (Perdana Menteri yang gembira boleh melakukan banyak kerja yang baik). Yalah.... gembira dah ada teman.

Wartawan: Bagaimana majlis acara akad nikah Sabtu ini, apakah terbuka?

Abdullah: Ini terhad kepada keluarga yang terdekat, anak-anak saya, adik-adik saya dan suami isteri mereka. Lepas itu, sebelah Kak Endon, orang dia ramai... ada 11 orang semuanya tetapi kembar yang lain dah meninggal, Kak Endon dan kembarnya, ada sembilan lagi untuk bersama balu atau isteri, sebelah ibu mertua saya, besan saya dan anak-anaknya. Jadi itulah... cukuplah untuk menyaksikan apa yang berlaku dalam keluarga.

Wartawan: Selama ini Datuk Seri memang minat dengan madu lebah, apakah Datuk Seri masih mengambil madu lebah?

Abdullah: (Gelak)... Itu daripada dulu, sejak sekolah lagi saya makan sampai sekarang.


p/s: good for paklah. he seems happy. lets all pray for his happiness, and happiness to our country~ cheers to paklah~ many, many happy returns.


:: summer_breeze ::

3 Jun 2007

never again. seriously.

this one goes out to u.. yea, you. u know who u r.



KELLY CLARKSON - NEVER AGAIN



I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green



I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me



I would never wish bad things, but i don't wish you well



Could you tell, by the flames that burned away



I never read your letter



'Cos i knew what you'd say



Give me that sunday school answer



Try and make it all ok



[Chorus]



Does it hurt to know I'll never be there for you



Bet it sucks, seeing my face everywhere



It was you, who just ended like you did



I was the last to know you knew



Exactly what you would do



It don't say, you simply lost your way



She may believe you but i never will



Never again



If she really knows the truth, she deserves you



A trophy wife, oh how cute



Ignorance is bliss



When your day comes and he'll be through with you



And he'll be through with you



You'll die together but alone



You wrote me in a letter



You couldn't say it right to my face



Give me that sunday school answer



Repent yourself away



[Chorus]



Does it hurt to know



I'll never be there for you



Bet it sucks, seeing my face everywhere



It was you, who just ended like you did



I was the last to know you knew



Exactly what you would do



It don't say, you simply lost your way



They may believe you but i never will



Never again



[Bridge]



Never again will i hear you



Never again will i miss you



Never again will i fall to you



Never



Never again will i kiss you



Never again will i want to



Never again will i love you



Never



[Chorus]



Does it hurt to know I'll never be there for you



Bet it sucks, seeing my face everywhere



It was you, who just ended like you did



I was the last to know you knew



Exactly what you would do



It don't say, you simply lost your way



They may believe you but i never will



I never will



I never will



Never again





I HATE U NOW. HAPPY?





::summer_breeze::


14 Apr 2007

life is like an hour glass glued to the table

here's a song by ANNA NALICK - BREATHE. the lyrics are just.. soo meaningful.. it teaches me about life, more than what i thot i had ever learned before. even the melody are good. so, enjoy it guys.



ANNA NALICK - BREATHE



2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason



'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe



May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.



Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe



There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.



2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to



But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.


:: summer_breeze ::



7 Apr 2007

100 things you'd like to know bout me..

ok.. here goes:



1. Real name: Syaiffira Nadya bt Mohd Syaiffuddin Suyong



2.Nickname:
Nadya, Nadya Summer, Summer_Breeze (whoever says that's lame, check out ur own nickname beforehand. thank you.)



3. Status: single and rockin' (yaHHaaa!!)



4. Zodiac sign: capricorn



5. Male or Female: feMale



6. Elementary: SRB Agama MIS Sibu



7. Highschool: SMK Agama Sibu



8. College: was in MATRICULATION COLLEGE LABUAN, but then transfered to TAYLOR'S UNIVERSITY COLLEGE



10. Hair color: Black



11. Long or short: long, short.. who cares. hahaha.. they're just the same hair.



15. Are you health freak? not really. i eat ice cream almost everyday. coke is my passion. and chocolates .. are my addiction. and i dont really like vegetables. hahahaha..



16. Height: 156cm.. sumthing like that.



17. Do you like someone: owh yess.. i thot i dont like him anymore, but hell, am still do. sucks.



18. Do you like yourself: lovin' myself.. yahaha~



19. Piercings: none.



20. Tattoos: none. and will never have. except for some temporary tatoos. haha. they're kinda sexy. hahahaha..



21. Righty or lefty: righty



22. First surgery: not yet.



23. First piercing: ears



24. First best friend: zariha and rasyidah borhan



25. First award: murid contoh waktu tadika. haha..



26. First sport you joined: random. but i remembered i was quite good in football. but it diminishes.



27. First pet: cat. miss my 'jojo'



28. First vacation: i dont think i had had a FOR REAL vacation. they're always trips to explore places. so, i cant really name a specific place.



29. First concert : click 5. quiksilver revolution tour. huhu



30. First crush : saifullah. huhu.



CURRENTLY


49. Eating:none. nak tido dh.



50. Drinking: clear water



52. I'm about: to sleep. but heck, i miss answering surveys. haha.



55. Waiting for: tomoro to come, i guess. huhu.



58. Want kids?: yeah. hell yeah i do. i even got their name ready. hahah! but not now though. i still want to live. haha.



59. Want to get married?: everyone does. if i dont, im a wierdo! but heck, not now. and not so soon. sumtime later when im ready, and he's ready.. whoever he is.



60. Careers in mind?: N A V A L  A R C H I T E C T (no other choice.)



68. Lips or eyes: eyes. the nice ones, they will DEFINITELY make u melt! haha.



69. Hugs or kisses: hugs.



70. Shorter or taller: taller



72. Romantic or spontaneous:
both. too romantic, makes me feel.. suffocated. too spontaneous, just makes me want to hit him in the head. so alil bit mix of both.. voila! my PERFECT GUY! hahaha..



73. Nice stomach or nice arms:
ooh.. both. definitely. BEYOND DOUBTS. haha.



74. Sensitive or loud: sensitive. loud guys.. they're just annoying. let me smack them in the head. *spank* there u go. now, shoo!



75. Hook-up or relationship: relationship. i dun really get or accept this hook up thing. makes u dirty. and unpleasant. and bad. and mean. and useless. so, yeah.. relationship. definitely.



77. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker. bad boys, sometimes, they're just.. sigh~ (drool)



HAVE YOU EVER


78. Kissed a stranger: duh!! no!!



79. Drank bubbles: nope.



80. Lost glasses/contact: i lost my glasses when i was in form 1. i left it in class.. then suddenly, its gone! !@#$%^&*(  --> goes to the person who took it!



81. Ran away from home: nope. i love my family. no reason to run from them. haha.



84. Broken somone's heart: maybe. and if i did.. im really. sorry..



85. Been arrested: nope. thank GOD!



86. Turned someone down: i think i did. yikes



87. Cried when someone died: yup. and that's painful..



88. Liked a friend: yup.



DO YOU BELIEVE IN


89. Yourself: sometimes i dont. but most of the time, i do. .. wait. actly it's the other way round. haha..



90. Miracles: maybe they're true. maybe they're not. depends on how u work on it. huhu.



91. Love at first sight: i did.. and hell yeah, i still do.



92. Heaven: yup. jannatun naim.



93. Santa claus: not really. nobody can fly on a sleigh. esp a guy with such fat ass. and can he really fit in a chimney?? crap.



94. Sex on the first date : definitely a NO-NO! haram weyhhh



95. Kiss on the first date: nope. na-ah.



ANSWER TRUTHFULLY


97. Is there one person you want to be
with right now?: be with, as in a relationship with, or just be with.. as in that person is next to u or sumthing like that? if the 1st one, maybe yes. if the 2nd one, then yes-yes. i need ita. i missed her damn much.



98. Had more than one
boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?:
Nope. i despise those who do that, so why shud i do it??



99. Do you believe in God?:
definitely. 100%



100. Post as 100 Truths about me (this is not a question)



p/s: sorry for no blogging these few weeks. been busy with exam. would like to write sumthing, but have to wake up early tomoro. so.. good night guys. enjoy the survey~



:: summer_breeze ::


16 Mar 2007

i wonder if he knows he's all i think about at night


Teardrops On My Guitar


(TAYLOR SWIFT)




Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

What I want and I need and

Everything that we should be




I'll bet she's beautiful

That girl he talks about

And she's got everything

That I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause its so damn funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night




CHORUS

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin star

He's the song in the car I keep singing,

Don't know why I do




Drew walks by me

Can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold on tight,

And give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes

know she's lucky cause




CHORUS

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin' star

He's the song in the car I keep singing,

Don't know why I do




So I'll drive home alone,

As I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one that's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up

But there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into




Drew looks at me

I fake a smile so he won't see..



*to my 'drew'.. this song's for you.. sigh~*



:: summer_breeze ::


13 Mar 2007

break in + suicide = trauma

HELO peeps.



this week is DEFINITELY the worse week i had ever had so far. let's see. 1stly, last saturday, someone broke into my unit and smart enuff to leave the door open to let me know he was inside the house. the real story, here goes:
as usual, i was sleeping on the couch. like any other saturday morning, we were all still sleeping at 7am. planning to wake up at 7am, but i turned off the alarm and continue my beautiful sleep. and then suddenly i woke up, and trying to reach for my ophone, which i normally put on the coffee table right next to me. my eyes are still close, so i just tried to look for it, but just cant seem to find it. i opened my eyes, and was quite surprised to seen an empty table. (p/s:i kept my laptop on the whole night, and put it on that table too) and i looked on the floor, there it is, unplugged and all, and my phone is right next to it. and i was thinking to myself "hebat gak aku tido.. sampai tersepak bende alah ni sampai terjatuh." i checked for any physical damage on my laptop, but there were none. so i was quite relief. then i ran to the balcony to check wether the bus has arrive or not, and the bus is not there. was planning to go into my room and take my bath, suddenly i saw, the door and THE GRILL is WIDE OPEN!! still not wanting to think of the worse, i thought any of my hsemate may have ran out and didnt have the time to lock it back. but none of them were awake at that time. then, i was thinking of looking outside, who knows someone is there.. that's when i saw SOMEONE was PEEPING IN from behind the wall!! i was sooo shocked and scared, i IMMEDIATELY close the door and lock it. i wake my hsemates up, called the guards, report about it and asked them to check the floor, who knows the guy's stupid enuff to stick around. got scolded by the guards for not locking the grill and the main door *blame us all there. :)* but occured to my mind was, if the guy didnt take anything, so why the hell did he broke into our hse? and this thing, still scare me, up until now. am now in trauma. keep on imagining, someone might just break in again and i'll wake up with another open front door, but with some creepy guy in the house.. waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! im SCARED!!



and secondly: i saw someone commited suicide. "seriously?" my answer is: YES. the complete story:
i had just came back from college, and was walking in from the main gate to block A, where suddenly i saw sumthing white fell from above. and i was thinking to myself "what the hell?? people nowadays simply throw away rubbish from their balcony. gila~" and then i saw it: the GUY'S FACE. like.... sH*t! its a HUMAN!! someone just commit suicide like, right on front of my eyes! but thank god, i was around 10m away, so i didnt really have a very good look of him.. and then, some women start screaming and running.. and me *with all poyoness* start screaming, "somebody call 911!!!" ... (which i, only a while ago, realised, there's no such thing as 911 in malaysia. ahaha.. and just now, i may have sound stupid. haha.)
anyway, i was soooooooooo shocked with the stupid/scary incident. i just ran to the lobby, covering my face, coz i dont want to look/see the guy again. i went into the lift and cried. the boys was there.. and thanx to them, i felt a bit better and stabilize..



so.. if anyone told u ur week had been bad, try to top mine.



conclusion: im full with scary memories this week.. and still am traumatized..



:: summer_breeze ::


8 Mar 2007

before it's too late.. what about now?

WHAT ABOUT NOW
(Daughtry)



Shadows fill an empty heart

As love is fading,

From all the things that we are

But are not saying.

Can we see beyond the scars

And make it to the dawn?




Change the colors of the sky.

And open up to

The ways you made me feel alive,

The ways I loved you.

For all the things that never died,

To make it through the night,

Love will find you.




What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?




The sun is breaking in your eyes

To start a new day.

This broken heart can still survive

With a touch of your grace.

Shadows fade into the light.

I am by your side,

Where love will find you.




What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love, it never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?




Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on.

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life,

I am yours.




What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?




What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


i LOVE THIS SONG, EXTREMELY! dedicated to you.. if you know it's you..



:: summer_breeze ::


2 Mar 2007

SHIT HAPPENS

hey guys..



it has been a while since the last time i wrote sumthing in here. right now, my mind is a little bit disturbed.. mainly becoz of MINORITY REPORT, which is airing now.. though, it's ending. ok. now, it ends.



anyway, as i was saying, my mind is a little bit disturbed now. there's my A2, which is MESSING with my head BIG TIME, and i am not even prepared for it yet. then, my bestfriend had just left, and im almost alone here. i know i still have super, awesome great friend around me (THANX A LOT u guys for being as great as always. love u all), but, u know how it feels like when u lost 'YOUR PERSON' -- u know, that someone who u always go to when u have problems, the person who u will call when u just found out bout the lamest joke ever.. the person who u will share ur secrets, ur big moments in life -- be it ur happy moments, or sad moments.. u know.. so, when u dont have 'YOUR PERSON' around u and reachable, then, u will feel EXACTLY how i feel right now..



and then, there's this feeling/emotional conflict that i had been having for quite a while now.. the confusion, the frustration, the waiting, the mountain-high hopes, the endless/bottomless pit.. owkay, to make it simple, let me illustrate it to u how this feeling/emotional conflict that im having now : it's like, when u are enjoying the scenery of a forest in autumn, with all the leaves had fallen to the ground.. and the grasses are green, the wind are blowing gently through your hair.. and suddenly, u fall into this pit but at the same time u still can enjoy the view, but the problem is u keep on falling and falling and falling.. and it seems like there are no end to this pit. it's bottomless.. and  along the way u keep on trying to grab on something, so that at least u can stop falling, and climb back up, but everytime u tried to reach that something, it keeps on breaking and letting u fall... and fall.. and fall.. and frankly speaking, i am still falling.. i still cant find that solid 'something' for me to hold on to from the pit's wall.. and i am still falling.. i hate it. i hate it so much that my heart is aching. this is too painful to bear, ok. i just hope.. agh! i just hope everything will be over soon. and this pit. stop being a pit. just let the wall falls of, and return me back on solid ground. im too tired of falling now.. i dont care if i still can enjoy the view..just let me be elsewhere.. i hate the pit now. i hate it. agh! if only anyone even understand what im talking bout here..



u know how i keep telling myself and everyone around me: LIFE IS HOW YOU MAKE IT. and some other inspiring quotes about life. but what surprise me is that, i cant seem to make the quotes inspire MY life. how suck is tat?



gosh.. i hate myself for thinking TOO MUCH on unnecessary things like this. i just hope i can just focus on my A2 now.. and let watever happens, happens. (i hope.. sigh~)



am too depressed to write anything now. and to raiz and yasz, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. (that is, if by any chance u guys are reading this)



alryte all.. till the next time, u will be hearing from me again.. thanx for reading. bye.



:: summer_breeze ::


i love papa n mama

i am here again..
i just want to say that i really miss my mama n papa rite now.. i always thot that i never appreciate them enuff for everything they had done for me.. ever since i was a lil child, up until now, they had always been there, guding me, teaching me.. and most importantly, loving me.. they had ALWAYS been there.. but i never REALLY, REALLY appreciate them. i always complain. they dont do this, they're not cool enuff, they're not sporting enuff, they're too strict.. they can be a pain.. i complained too much.. but at the end of the day, they are the one who can accept me, for who i really am..



i had just watched the 13th episode of grey's anatomy season 3 (for those who hasn't watch it, GO WATCH!). in this episode, O'Malley's father died, becoz of cancer. this had made me realised, that u will never know what will happen next. im not saying that i want sumthing bad to happen, in fact I DONT WANT THAT.. all i wanted to say is that, i should and still can make full use of the time i have with them and appreciate them and LOVE them with my undying love.. coz no matter who i fall in love or care or what ever, they are the one who will forever own my love and my heart.



for mama and papa:
NADYA REALLY, REALLY LOVES BOTH OF YOU.
I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU GUYS HAD DONE FOR ME..
IF BY ANY CHANCE I HAD MADE U ANGRY OR SAD OR WORRIED.. I KNOW I HAVE.. AND I AM REALLY, REALLY, REALLY SORRY..
I JUST WANT TO MAKE BOTH OF YOU PROUD OF ME, THAT IS ALL..
THANK YOU FOR THE TRUST YOU HAD GIVEN ME
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LESSONS THAT U GUYS HAD GIVEN ME THROUGHOUT MY LIFE.. I WONT BE THE PERSON I AM TODAY IF ITS NOT BECAUSE OF BOTH OF YOU..
I LOVE YOU BOTH: PAPA N MAMA,
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING..



-nadya-
xoxoxo




p/s: i am missing mama n papa like mad now.. :'(



:: summer_breeze ::


21 Feb 2007

so we KICK, we PUSH, and we COAST

Best, Worst, Last, First, Today,
Tomorrow, Favorites, Currently,
and True & False.



b e s t


1. Male friend(s): din, ariff, helmi
2. Vacation: home sweet home
3. Time of day: 9.30 to 12 pm. favourite tv shows on!
4. Day of the week: wednesday. it passed by so fast, u just cant feel it.



l a s t
1. Person(s) you saw: kaschiff
2. Talked to: mama
3. Hugged: nana-chan!
4. Texted: ban-mus
5. IM: mustakhim!



t o d a y

1. What are you doing now: du-uh. filling up this survey
2. Wearing: pyjamas



t o m o r r o w
1. Is: thursday.
2. Got any plans: study! yeay~! *fake cheer*
3. Goal: to finish all my tertunggak work and start working on my past years
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: i am still alone.



f a v o r i t e

1. Number(s): 2
2. Color: black, white and red
3. Season: i want winter. cold weather makes me feel safe and cuddly.



c u r r e n t l y

1. Missing someone: yup yup. i miss ita!
2. Mood: mood-less. haha
3. Wanting: to quickly finish this thing, silent all my messenger and study!
4. listening to: the buzzing sound of my messenger.



t r u e & f a l s e


I am a cuddler: yup.
I am a morning person: a lil bit.
I am a perfectionist: i can be.


I am an only child: FALSE
I am left handed: FALSE
I am addicted to friendster :
TRUE
I bite my nails: FALSE
I can be paranoid at times: TRUE
I enjoy country music: TRUE (well, if its musics sumthing like the wreckers or dixie chicks, then fine.)
I enjoy jazz music: TRUE
I enjoy smoothies: TRUE
I enjoy talking on the phone: sometimes
I have a hard time paying attention:
kind off. mira always complain.
I have a lot to learn: TRUE. am still stupid.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to
reveal: TRUE. who doesnt?
I have all my grandparents: FALSE. they all passed away. but i still have granduncles and grandaunties though.
I have a good sense of humor:
TRUE
I have had broken a bone: FALSE
I have told someone I loved them and
didnt mean them: TRUE
I have told some I loved them and meant
it: TRUE



that's all for today. i shud really, really start studying. later guys~



:: summer_breeze ::


19 Feb 2007

it's a perfect denial

start the day with a survey..


1. Story behind your fv song:
:wic one are we talking bout here? eheh..
1) disintegration (jimmy eat world) - about the girl leaving the guy after everyhting he had done. stupid bitch!
2) take me away (lifehouse) - a girl who had took the guy away after all the time they had spent together, and the guy really want her to be in his life.. and wanted the girl to give him the chance..
3) beautiful lie (30 seconds to mars)
- living a life in a lie and making a 'beautiful' cover/lie about ur past
(the rest, later k..)

2. What month were you born in?
: january

3. Where do you live?
: right now, bandar sunway..

D E S C R I B E Y O U R . .

4. Wallet:
: long, white

5. Dream car:
: beatle~

6. Toothbrush:
: oral B

8. Pillow Case:
: green and  lil bit blue.. with garfield playing basketball's picture on it.

9. Eyes:
: dark brown eyes.

10. House color:
: sibu - yellow (interior and exterior), ridzuan - white (interior), desa petaling - green (interior).

11. Love life:
: i do!

12. Cologne/Perfume:
: hugo boss for women special edition.

13. CD in stereo:
: 30 seconds to mars and daughtry.

14. Piercings:
: none.

W H A T  A R E  Y O U . . .

15. Wearing:
: blue baju klawar..

16.Wanting:
: to study and get over all this.

17. The last thing you ate?
: snickers.. or was it milky way? hurm..

18. Something you are afraid of?
: failing my A2 and cant proceed to UK. :-S

19. Do you like candles?
: a bit.. not so much of a candle fan..

20. Do you like the taste of blood?
: no! blekh!

21. Do you believe in love?
: i do.. but, for now, it always fails me.

22. Do you believe in soul mates?
: yup. i do.

23. Do you like seafood?
: YES YES! i miss seafood..

24. Do you remember your dreams?
: not really. i dont think i have any last night.

25. Do you consider yourself a study freak?
: right now, i WANT to be a study freak.

26. Do you like tattoos?
: nope. they're scary..

27. Do you believe in miracles?
: lets believe that its true and help me out here..

28. Do you burn easily in the sun?
: no.. ive tried and ive tried. i failed and i failed..

29. Do you speak another language other than English?
: yup.

30. What's something you wish you could understand better?
: wat is really going on in one's mind!

31. Are you shy around a crush?
: haha. i have to admit: I DO!

32. Got any plans for the weekend?
: nope. this weekend is still very far..so, i dont think so.

33. Do you miss anyone?
: i miss mama n papa..

35. Orange juice or apple?
: apple and orange.. both can do.

36. Who were the last people you went out to eat with?
: kRoL.

37. What was the last text message you sent?
: ita.. kitorang mkn kat mcD jap k.

38. Lucky number?
: 2, i guess..

39. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
: never.

40. Have you ever won a trophy?
: yup. during my high school mostly. none now. huhu.

41. Are you a good cook?
: not that good, but its edible. haha.

42. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
: yup.

43. Do the Chinese really use cats in their food?
: i dont think so. except for some exotic restaurants.

44. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
: during high school, of course.

45. What was the last movie u saw in the cinema?
: ghost rider.

46. Would you rather find true love or be a millionaire?
: can i have both?

47. Do you believe in love at first sight?
: owh yes i do.. am still am..

48. What is/are your favorite animal(s)?
: none in particular. but cats and hamsters attract my attention. huhu.

49. Who is the second last person to call you?
: kakak ita.

50.What do you like about yourself?
: i'm a guy. hahah! kidding. i dunno. i look down on myself. YOU tell me whats there suppose to like about me? haha.



:: summer_breeze ::


17 Feb 2007

why don't you like? why don't you like me??

hey guys.. ariff had just promoted me this song. catchy tunes, interesting lyrics.. so, enjoy!



MIKA - GRACE KELLY



Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess Im a little bit shy
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why dont yo like me
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

Why dont you like me
Why dont you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on the shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
Ive gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me?
Why dont you walk out the door!




:: summer_breeze ::


14 Feb 2007

knowing yourself, before somebody else..

Part 1: The Birth of You:

Were you a planned baby?



: not sure..better ask my mum.



Were you the first?



:nope. am the last



Who was present at your birth?



: papa. and other hospital staff.. esp mama midah.. sigh.. wanna meet her. she's the one responsible for me living now.. if not, i might be dead..



Were your parents married when you
were born?



:duh! wat kind of dumb question is this??



What is your birthdate?



:2nd january 1988



Part 2: The Family

How would you describe your family?:
: small and happy family. and chats a lot.



Are your parents married?



:yes



Siblings or an only child?



:siblings. one elder sister, and one elder brother.



If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?



:youngest.



What are your siblings names and ages?



: salfarina nomie - 28, mohd syaiffrie - 26



Which parent do you get along with best?



:mama. :D



What do you fight about?



: usually, its my inability to do things right, and my so-called 'attempt' to be independent. and owh, my stuborn-ness.



Do you have step parents?



: nope



Part 3: The Friends

Do you have more than one best friend?



: yup-yup.



Who are your best friends?:
: ita-san the bomb. din the best. ariff yg cool.



What do you like to do when you are together?



: discuss, gossip, jokes, shopping, studying, eating.. basically everything. except for sleeping. *this only applied to ita. thank you very much.*



Do you share the same interests?:
: yup. ita n i - basically everything. din n i - we share the same type of music and.. err.. not sure. ariff n i - we share our problems. hahaha.



Which friend can you tell anything to?



: ita.



Part 4: Your Personality

How high/low is your self esteem?:
: quite low. i look down on myself sometimes.



Are you an extrovert or an introvert?



:most of the time, im kinda an extrovert.



Are you happy?



:i am.



Do you live life to the fullest?



:im trying to.



Part 5: Appearance

Are you comforable with the way you look?



:well, kinda.



Do you have any piercings besides your ears?



: nope. i didnt even get my ears pierced. hows that? haha.



Describe your hair.



: black. and looks like hair.



What make-up do you wear?



: a little bit of everything. loreal, revlon, za, bodyshop..



How do you dress?



: usually, jeans and black long sleeves.



Part 6: The Past

Were you a strange child?



: im way strange now. haha.



What did you use to love that you no longer do?



: hurm.. westlife, pink, power rangers, lunch box.



Do you have the same friends?



: am still frens with my childhood frens, if thats what ure asking.



Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?



:a bike accident. horrifying. makes me kinda nervous to get on a bicycle again.



Part 7: The Future

What is your ambition?



: now, i wanna get my degree in 3 years time, be a naval arc and work for MISC, get good pay, pave my way all the way up to become the CEO, get married with the guy that i love, have children, live a good life, go to haji.. and die of old age, rather than of some fatal sickness.. na'uzubillahi min zalik..



Are you scared of growing old?



:for now, yes. i havent really enjoyed being young.



i'm scared of dying?



: kinda. not so prepared..



Do you want to get married?



:yes yes, i do. but not in the near future.



Part 8: The Outdoors

Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?



: indoor would be nicer.



What is your favorite season?



:never really experienced 4 season. but i would really love winter.



Do you like walking in the rain?
:yes, actly. but everytime i did, mama will yell at me.

Part 9: Food

Are you a vegentarian?
:not really. im a man-eater.. hahahha..



What is your favorite fruit?
:apple, banana and oranges. and owh, grapes.



What food makes you want to gag?
:buah nangka.



What is your favorite dessert?
ice cream.. or fruits.



What is your favorite restaurant?
:none in particular.



Are you a fussy eater?
:kinda. cannot be too spicy or too hot.just that sort of fuss.. but i can eat anywhere.

Part 10: Relationships and Love

Are you single or taken?
:ahah. single.



If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?
: am not taken. so i think everyone is lucky. hahahah..

Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?
:not sure.. is it?



Do you believe in love at first sight?
:kinda. still haunting me.. until this very day.



Part 11: Experiences

What was one of your greatest experiences?
:PKTR. dedfinitely.



What was one of your worst?
:form 2. that year sux.



Have you ever done drugs?
:never.



Have you ever thought you were going to die?
:in my dreams, yes. such scary dream.



Have you ever suffered from depression?
:once. it was quite bad.


12 Feb 2007

counting the minute and hours that passed by.. is like committing suicide.but the problem is, U CANT DIE.

im so darn bored. help me help me help me..



top 2 things found in your wallet:
1.) my bank card
2.) my ic

top 2 songs you can listen to again
and again:
1.) take me away - lifehouse
2.) you belong to me -jason wade
(can add another .. 5??? )





top 2 reasons to watch television:
1.) the best tv programme is on!
2.) the best way to spend ur time, other than sleeping.

top 2 places I'd want to visit 10 yrs from now
1.) paris
2.) melbourne

top 2 obsessions:
1.) music
2.) movies

top 2 favorite nick name:
1.) nadya summer
2.) eva_lang

top 2 favorite food:
1.) mama's cooking. especially sayur midin!!
2.) pizza with hawaiian chicken topings. *drool*

top 2 favorite snacks:
1.) banana
2.) rocky

top 2 favorite website:
1.) www.friendster.com
2.) www.ucas.com

top 2 goals you want to accomplish:
1.) pass a2 with flying colours.
2.) be successful

top 2 favorite colors:
1.) black
2.) red

top 2 favorite part of the house:
1.) the hall
2.) my room (in swak)

top 2 things i can't wait to happen
1.) finish my a2
2.) go to uk. and meet... :*)

top 2 places where I love to shop
1.) sunway
2.) pyramid
(haha..)




top 2 movies I could watch over and over
1.) freaky friday
2.) shrek





huh?? done?? why so short!! waghh~~!!! wat else shud i do to kill the time??



hurmm... let me see.. owkay. to add to the list:



songs to be played on MY wedding day:



1) more than anyone - gavin deGraw



2) we are man and wife - michelle featherstone



3) you belong to me - jason wade





3 songs i will DIE without:



1)disintegration - jimmy eat world



2)take me away - lifehouse



3) blurry - puddle of mudd





top 3 bands/singers on my playlist:



1) chris daughtry



2) dashboard confessional



3) the wreckers





must go to concert:



1) muse



2) linkin park



3) jimmy eat world





owkay. if im ever going to be stranded on a desert island,



1. 5 movies that i must have with me:



a) freaky friday



b) pursuit of happiness



c) bad boys



d) shrek



e) a walk to remember.. or pirates of the carribean.. or.. err.. err..





5 albums that i must have with me:



a) one tree hill 2: friends with benefit



b) stand still, look pretty - the wreckers



c) dusk and summer - dashboard confessional



d) stanley climbfall - lifehouse



e) absolution - muse





5 tv series that have to be aired on the island: (if its even possible)



a) ONE TREE HILL. definitely



b) THE OC (eventho its finishing)



c) prison break



d) heroes



e) american idol





hahahaha.. im damn bored. have to go though. pn ramlah's waiting.



layter guys.





:: summer_breeze ::


11 Feb 2007

IF you want to FIND someone YOU love, you gotta BE someone YOU love

alryte. im DAMN bored. i was browsing through the bulletin just now, and ive come across this INTERESTING article. well, not that im saying that its entirely true, but um, it is true in some way.. huhu..



so, how about u judge, wether it is true or not? happy reading.



JANUARY=SHYNESS (i'm shy?? is that possible?? haha)



Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days



FEBRUARY=SMARTS



Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.



MARCH=GORGEOUS   (hurm...)



Drop dead gorgeous!!!Attractive personality.Very! sexy.Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of MFE these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.



APRIL=THUG



Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong- willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.



MAY=SEXY



Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.



JUNE=Metal Head



Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Not easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.



JULY=ATTITUDE



Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.



AUGUST=FLIRT



You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with an August brithday. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.



SEPTEMBER=LOVER



Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. if you do not repost this in the next 5 mins. someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.



OCTOBER=HOTTIE



Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.



NOVEMBER=SWEETY



This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. repost this in 5 mins & you will find true love at 11:00 a.m.



DECEMBER=BEAUTY



Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Horny but does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all