29 Sep 2009
27 Sep 2009
because family will be left behind.
bahasa melayu sarawak is no longer within shouting distance.
no more telai belalai for the belalais.
no more reunion.
no more hari raya.
back to work.
back to school..
but ive got friends waiting, so thats not too bad.
people in newcastle.. im coming home~!
group photo without iylia
18 Sep 2009
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12 Sep 2009
i had ikan bulan goreng, ketam/crab, sayur midin, durian, and lush-licious ice-cream cake and not forgetting the lush-licious-finger-licking-extraordinaire cheese cake.. ooh! seriously, with all that good food, i can die now (but wait for me to taubat dulu. lol)
after 4-5 years not celebrating ANY of our birthdays together, finally we did it! and we had 2 cakes to top the night!
11 Sep 2009
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4 Sep 2009
happy 21st birthday HELMI!
I wish you all the very best in life.
sorry kitorang takde kat newcastle to celebrate with you, but nak celebrate cane pun kan.. bulan puase kot. anyways, you are an awesome friend and definitely a great shopping buddy! and dude, you're legal! happy birthday! x
expectation (ek′spek tā′s̸hən)
- a looking forward to; anticipation
- a looking for as due, proper, or necessary
- a thing looked forward to
- a reason or warrant for looking forward to something; prospect for the future, as of advancement or prosperity
- the probability of the occurrence, duration, etc. of something, esp. as indicated by statistics
- you can be overly satisfied, despite the fact that it may not yet be enough
- you'll be overly crushed, because you thought you deserve better.
Life comes with many choices.
if one said they don't have any choice, that just simply mean that the other option for them is not really doable.
then, among those choices, we have FIRST CHOICE and LAST CHOICE, but what does that really mean?
- it is THE BEST among all, and that's what you really want
- it is the first thing that came to mind because you just don't know what to pick
- it is the last thing that you think of having, and it could be the worst of the bunch
- it is the best among all. and it is the last one because you wanted to try everything else first.
2 Sep 2009
1 Sep 2009
I can't forget you when you're gone.
You're like a song
That goes around in my head.
And how I regret
It's been so long.
Oh, what went wrong?
Could it be something I said?
Time, make it go faster,
Or just rewind
To back when im wrapped in your arms
Dum da di da
Da da da dum
Da da da dum
Da da da dum da da di dum
Da di dum dum
Da da da dum
Da da da dum
Da da da dum la da da di da dum
All afternoon long
It's with me
The same song
You left a light on
I can Remember
The way that it felt
To be holding on to you
Da dum da da di dum
Ooh dum di dum
Make it go faster
Or just decide
To come back to my happy heart.
according to the malays, angau means lovesick - Languishing because of love.
according to the Welsh, angau means death.
according to the Eldar, angau means destiny, doom, fate.
but if we come back to the sense of the word in our community, it is the combination of all the words above.
angau - a feeling that arise due to our believe in our destiny or fate in another person, that turn us into behaving like lovesick puppies, which then could eventually brings death. or if i would like to sugar coat the fact -- it can turn into an eternal love, that could only be separated by death.
2 people actually flatter me with compliments, which i must admit, i rarely get and its really great.
i drove my friends from sabah (nico, michelle and 1 other guy whom im not so sure of the name till now) around sibu town, and show them whatever it is there is here in this small cowboy town that i call home, that matter. and yes, i have been driving solo the whole time, which i must add, a rarely occassion since i've gotten my license 4 years back. despite the constant swearing and an incident of car's-butt-kissing-the-wall-of-MUC's-gate, i did enjoy myself, and i really hope they did too. *yikes. but i did apologize relentlessly regarding the bad swearing and the bad driving skills* and thanks to that small accident, i actually think i drive a lot better now. how do i know this? there are less screaming and "oi-oi-oi!" from papa and mama when they are in the car. *yeay!*
anyways, yesterday too had been a good day, because i was having a good mood the whole day. nothing really pissed me off and made me want to debate everything, except for the exceptional driving skills that sibu people have (and maybe myself too at times). sigh. and there is NOTHING i, nor does anybody else, can do about it.
naina (abg lin and kak ina's daughter) was also nice and friendly to me, despite the fact that she is a bit scared of others, especially the ladies. and yes, i did say 'the ladies', because she IS afraid of the ladies, but not so much the men. speaking of gender preference, huh. lol. we even have them since we were kids! but why oh why, do we still have gays and lesbians running the streets - not that im really against them - but its obviously wrong and against the law of nature, no? though im not going to comment much on that. it may create this huge debacle, and im not really in the mood for that yet.
so yesterday was a good day, and lets just hope today is the same, or maybe even better.
have a good day everyone!
but mine, is my one and only mama, Saliah Japaruddin.
do know how awesome my mama is?
she has been raising us all 3 all on her sweat and tears, and also papa's obviously.
she has been the household manager for almost 31 years now.
she has been our infamous financial planner, and i must say, she is really good at it.
she is the most practical person i have ever met and know, and i really admire her for that.
she is very humble and down-to-earth, and very generous at the same time.
she is very talented and artistic - a talent that I have been longing to have, but never did. just look at all her handy work all these years!
she has this green hands, where everything that she planted, grows! we have this huge green garden around the house because of her.
she is my personal shrink. motivator. and guidance counselor. her in depth about life is simply amazing.
she has been the pillar for all us 3, ever since we started being independent. she may have not been holding our hands the whole time, but she was - and still is - definitely there, when we slipped, or even when we fall.
she has been a great friend, and even gossip partner, ever since i was away from home. *i couldnt say the same thing about her when i was in high school, because she has been a bit strict. maybe because of parents-children boundary issues*
and most important of all, she has been setting this life trend ever since i was a child, and i am not ashamed to say this: I WANT TO GROW UP TO BE JUST LIKE HER - OR MAYBE BETTER.
because, mama, you are this rare gemstone that has been on the surface of the earth, but nobody has really acknowledged your quality, because your spark just hasn't caught their eyes yet.
i admire your determination, your principle, your discipline, your wittiness and your courage, in order to raise us, feed us, love us, nurture us, and most importantly, help us growing up, and stand on our own feet.
thank you mama for everything that you had ever done and going to do.
and i salute you.
"Ya Allah, ampunilah dosaku, dan dosa kedua ibu bapa ku, dan sayangilah mereka sepertimana mereka menyayangiku diwaktu kecilku"
i love you mama.