ever since highschool, i have been holding on to this. but nowadays, the thought of going back to the simpler days, has constantly occupying my mind. not saying im having a horrible life. im actually living the dream. working at a huge company. doing things ive ALWAYS wanted to do, even though just on a training-employee basis. but awesome work none-the-less. im surrounded with good friends. they actually do exist. i have a family that loves me, and very proud of me. i have people i can turn to when heart's in chaos, mind in turmoil.
but.. a simpler life. that is always a better option, right? your worry is less. your problems are just petty problems. future is not that much of a concern. and huge matter, it is not. i want to go back to the days, where i am still staying with mama papa in that house of ours. listening to them jabber and nag on the way sending me to school, and on the way return.. during lunch and dinner together. or mama sometimes came into the room, and talk about stuff. i want the days, when i was rebellious.. and actually mad at mama for not letting me watch TV. those days, i was taken care of. not a single moment my heart was in chaos. and mind in turmoil -- except for exams.
exams. that was the easier obstacle, came to think of it. now, there are bosses to be pleased. colleagues to be entertained. a name to uphold. a salary to maintain. a roof on the head to be kept. another heart to be treasured as your own....
sigh. i guess this is a sign i am getting older. and hopefully more matured. although, despite all.. i am grateful for what is given, laid out or thrown to my face -- that what made me who i am today.
ni mmg homesick betul ni. meh dtg jepun babe! :)
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