it's been a while..

not onlining for two weeks.. hurm, i never thot that's possible.. to mazidah, i miss u too babe.. but anyways, the longer u dont see each pther the more u will miss them and appreciate them, dont u think?

hehe.. raya in sibu was GREAT! yesterdaym, we juz had our reunion, eventho not everyoe shows up. but the number that shows up really keep my hands and legs and MOUTH busy.. ahaha!! i miss everyone.. and thanx u guys for coming yesterday.. the pictures, i will upload it when i go back to rdzuan, i promise..

anyways, being back in sibu really is great. no other words can describe what i actually feel once im here.. everything is basically still the same, except for some like the everly hotel, the bazaar space.. no more lau king howe hospital.. and moz importantly, all my frens, hurm... talking bout GROW UP.. haha..

actually, i have so many things to tell, juz right me and along (well, that's my oldest and bestest fren ever..) are goin off somewhere else juz to hang out and catch up. too bad alia cant come and join. anyways, i'll come back to this blog again soon. catch ya layter dudes and dudettes~!!

p/s: to all that came yesterday, thank u SOO MUCH~~!!! LOVE U GUYS LOTZZ~~~

:: summer_breeze ::

just another day

let me see.. what shall i write for today.. it is 1.21 am now.. i still cant sleep. well, most probably because of the extra sleep that i have this evening. blame me for that. so now, yeah. i cant sleep.

ok.. let me recap what had been happening these few weeks. one week ago, well, more than one week ago, all the muslims had started their fasting, seeing that ramdhan is here.. it is already the 12th day today. ok. no strory to tell there..

rite now i have trouble sleeping. 1stly, because i'm not that sleepy. 2ndly, because of that hazy air.. and i'm practically saffocated! and 3rdly, because i have my tonsil now, and gosh!! my throat is totally irritating!! how i wish i could just put my hand down my throat and scratch the hell out of it~

ok... still cant find anything to tell u guys. except that i had been downloading one tree hill season 1 for like a week and a day now.. still, not yet finish. my laptop is lagging like hell.. my itunes is TOTALLY scrambled, and making things worst, my iPod is running out of battery.. so, tell me, what should i do to make me sleep? (ok.. i see that this question has nothing to do all the things that i said earlier. great.)

alryte. i'm goin to do some tickle test. hopefully, i'll get sleepy then.
goodnyte everyone~

:: summer_breeze ::

tell me YOUR SCORES!!

(Dr. Phil scored 55 ----he did this test on Oprah, she got a 38) Some folks pay a lot of money to find this stuff out. Read on, this is very interesting! Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your friends. The person who sent it placed their score in the subject box. Please do the same before forwarding to your friends. Don't peek but begin the test as you scroll down and answer. Answers are for who you are now... ... not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 simple questions, so... ... grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers. Make sure to change the subject. When you are finished, forward this to everyone you know, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. ==================================== ============ 1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon and early evening c) late at night 2. You usually walk... a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly 3. When talking to people you... a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair 4. When relaxing, you sit with... a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c) your legs stretched out or straight d) one leg curled under you 5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) big appreciated laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile 6. When you go to a party or social gathering you... a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed 7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted... ... a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes 8. Which of the following colors do you like most? a) red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark blue or purple f) white g) brown or gray 9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep... . a) stretched out on your back b) stretched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d) with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers 10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreamless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasant ==================================== ============ POINTS FOR EACH ANSWER: 1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6 2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1 3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6 4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1 5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2 6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2 7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4 8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1 9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1 10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1 Now add up the total number of points. DON'T LOOK BEYOND THIS UNTIL YOUR HAVE COMPLETED AND SCORED YOURSELF. ==================================== ============ OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you. 51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate. 41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out. 31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it, if that trust is ever broken. 21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, slow and steady. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature. UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions; who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

always love, coz hate will get you anytime..

hey you guys..
here i am again. bored, as ever. wanna study, but um.. i can write thousands of reason that leads to my action of NOT studyin AGAIN tonight, but the truth is -- I'M LAZY! haha.. well, it feels good to actually admit my own weakness. and i have to say, LAZINESS had always been my problem since.. urm, let me see - EVER! sigh~ cant say much about it. as what people say, you wont change no matter what other people say, unless YOU yourself have the willng to change..

well, right now, i'm listening to NADA SURF's latest album - well, thanx to 'peyton sawyer' to promote this album. well, u see i dont actually listen to indie songs, until i listen to death cab for cutie. so, now i'm giving nada surf a try. and i have to say, their songs are good! i really like ALWAYS LOVE and COMES A TIME. despite their nice melodies, their lyrics also mean something. it tells you about life and teach you bout life. well, we take always love. in their lyrics they said " always love, hate will get you anytime". when i think back, most people nowadays - well, i'm not saying anyone in particular - they prefer to hate when something dont actually go their way, and always try to sabotage the friendship or whatever type of relationship they have. why dont you just LOVE them and take them as what they are. i mean, so what if they dont turn out to be the way you wanted to? no need for hatred and everything. no need to have the HATRED towards anyone else.

there's a malay saying goes: Buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali. well, come to think about it, dont you think that the more you hate others, the more miserable your life is? it's like you have this black dot in your heart. and eerytime you start to hate that person even more, the black dot will eventually grow bigger and bigger till one point, that it's going to cover up your whole heart with BLACKNESS.. darkness.. emptiness.. so, ask yourself, do u want that? if you dont, then stop hating others and start loving them.

ok.. i'm talking rubbish.. juz wanna ask u guys to giv nada surf a try, like i did. ahaha..

okiess.. take care you guys..

p/s: cant wait to listen to evanescence new album! still downloading. if it's done, i will tell u guys how's it ok!

juz another day..

hey guys..
i cant sleep tonight. i twisted, i turned, but my eyes are stil so wide and im still so energetic.. i wanna read a book to put myself to sleep, but heck, i don even have a book to read.. a story book i mean. so, i chose to write what ever it is that come cross my mind right now in this deary blog.
well, let see.. what do i want to talk about first? hurm.. owkay. my holidays.. all i can say bout my holiday is i spent the whole 2 weeks at home. hey, im not covering or summarising.. i mean, seriously, i've stayed at home, INSIDE THE HOUSE, the entire 2 weeks.. hah! how 'cool' is that? if you're trying to brag 'bout how boring ur holiday had been, try to top mine! haha..
so, u guys must be wondering what did i DO during the whole two-boring-weeks.. well, i have to say, the 2 weeks was not entirely a torture. i spent the 2 weeks having the ONE TREE HILL season 3 and THE OC season 1 marathon with my dear cuzen, mina.. ahah.. juz imagine i watched one tree hill TWICE throughout the whole 2 weeks.. i dont mean one or 2 episodes.. i mean THE WHOLE SEASON. haha.. well, that's crazy huh? and now.. i'm TOTALLY addicted to one tree hill, and ADORE PEYTON SAWYER.. and of course, nathan and haley...

well, u see, when i got addicted to something, i practically have to know EVERYTHING bout that thing. for example, ONE TREE HILL. i'm ADDICTED to it. so, i HAVE to have all the soundtracks (well, most of it tho~) and if u watch it, u will know that peyton did this podcast thing. and crazy me, i go download all the podcast that she did. till now, there are juz 14 episodes. and i bet, there'd be more to come. since one tree hill had finished their 3rd season, so i guess, they're taking a break before season 4 is realeased. really wanna know what wil happen to BROOKE and PEYTON next.. haha..

anyways, listening to peyton's podcast actually made me think. especially for podcast episode 4, where she talked about how some people fight OVER something and some actually fight FOR something. u know, if we see around us, especially us teenagers, most our friends, including ourselves actually fight OVER something.. ok, i feel as if i'm not making any sense here. let me take a step back and try to differentiate these 2. fighting FOR something is when.. urm, for example, the Somalians are fighting FOR foods, water etc, so that they wont starve or they wont die of thirst. however, fighting over something is where, like what peyton said, example, girls fighting OVER boys.. ok. so now tell me. wic one do u always see happening around you? now, get me? good..

well, i wanna talk bout this cause it's kinda disturbing you know, how some old, and beautiful friendship can be CRUSHED just like that over some stupid things.. such as BOYS or MONEY or clothes etc, etc. i mean, so what? it's not like it's going to be the end of the world or something if you dont get it, right? so, why want to fight OVER it?? see, ok.. so she's with that guy that you like.. so.. what?

ok.. i see that this is going no where. but, the major problem is, i still cant sleep.. so, what shall i do next? i kinda ran out of idea of what to write now.. so, i think i better sign off. nyte guys~

:: summer_breeze ::

p/s: i just cant get these songs of my head :
HALO - HALEY JAMES SCOTT (super COOL!!)
HERE COMES A REGULAR - THE REPLACEMENT
WHEN THE STARS GO BLUE - TYLER HILTON AND BETHANY JOY

49th Merdeka Celebration

i just came back from sunway lagoon for my first ultimate outdoor merdeka day celebration.. ya..ya..i know, how lame am i not to have celebrated my merdeka day outdoor.. well, im a family person, so, basically every year i celebrated with my family, indoor.. ahah!

anyways, the celebration was HOT!! it was held on the surf beach, and there were quite cool performers, CIARA and FERHAD.. well, not the HOT ciara, but CIARA from the 1st Blast Off from hitz.tv . ok, they're quite cool! they were singing accapella songs and RnB.. very amazing, their voices..even the guys are cute.. ~ahax~

the whole thing was a blast! everyone was having fun, and shouted on top of their lungs.. me, especially.. ahaha.. well, mama called when i was there, and i regretted i didnt tell her that im going to this thing in the beginning.. so, i'm expecting a LOOOOOOONNNNGGGG lecture tomorrow.. sigh~ and lots of 'ungkitan' when im going back home this weekend.. ~sigh~

after the countdown and patriotic songs singing session, we witnessed the fireworks.. and omygawd! it was sooo beautiful.. sigh~ anyways, after all that, we had a chance to take photo with ZAIN and SHAH from CIARA and FERHAD!! ehehe..ok, that's like totally no big deal.. saje je.. ahaahha..

ok, ryte after all those happening things, it's time for us to go home.. and omygawd! when we stepped outside SUNWAY PYRAMID, there we saw HUMANS acting like wild boars who had just been released from their respective cage! seriously, everyone was running here and there spraying the foam spray to EVERYONE, including me and hani!! and then sumthing occur to me, is this what those who had fought for our freedom wants their future generation and leaders do in order to remember and appreciate the independence day of malaysia?? the barbaric behaviors and uncivilised mind.. ya laa.. sampah buang merate, kerete lek lok parking kat tepi, tetibe kene spray ngn foam spray tu.. dh le kete yg bkn kete murah! cam haram.. lagi kesian, ade pakcik yg bg flyers pasal rakyat malaysia yg murtad waktu nak naik the jejantas.. then, boleh ade org gi buang je the fliers without even think that the thing is actually a serious matter now in our country! so, let me ask u this one question, is that what we want to achieve by celebrating the anniversary of our country's independence day??

ok.. enough complaining bout the behaviors of malaysian, and lets focus on what we can do to make things better in our country.. u know, the smallest thing and the simplest act can make HUGE difference.. so, hope u guys had started doing so TODAY! eheh..

*see that's the spirit of patriotism that we want, right?? ahaha..

ok.. im starting to talk nonsense, so i think i better stop. but before i out my hands down, i just wanna wish everyone HAPPY MERDEKA and PLEASE, LET US ALL hayati balik what's the meaning of merdeka..

ok.. gudnyte everyone!

:: summer_breeze ::

holiday . AYTR gathering . ICPU 05/06 is leaving

since yesterday, my holiday had already started.. i kicked it off by going to the AYTR reunion held at INTEKMA RESORT, SHAH ALAM. eventhough only 7 of us from PKTR  batch '04 went, (named: k-rol, pia, feysa, muss, adib and doll.. and of course me!) we find it quite interesting.. with the juniors conquering most of the seats, (well, dont really blame them, the spirit's still there.. and hcticness is not yet a problem.. ahax!) and the seniors only beberape ketul (like wat abg mael said.. ahah!) it's really a chance for us to communicate and create a link between alumnies, and most importantly strengthen the bond that we all had had! ahax!

it was quite fun and educational, because u see, aytr had been involving themselves in plenty of activities.. and the one that had left huge impacts on the members are PDDS and PKTR itself.. PDDS especially, eventhough i didnt get the chance to join last year because i was still in labuan, but hearing the stories by my frens who joined, it was quitetouching and.. out of the world. the feelings are undescribable! juz imagine, the participants for the programme are the children who are staying at  RUMAH ANAK-ANAK YATIM DAN KANAK-KANAK TERBIAR, KEPALA BATAS, PENANG who aged between 4 to 15 years-old. one time, they were going to have a sport activity. then a 10 years old girl is excluded from the activity. so, my frens are quite curious on mhy is she being excluded. there's nothing seems to be wrong with her, but why ryte? so they asked the Mother of the rumah kebajikan as to why is she excluded. so she told them, that girl is just after pantang! pantang?!?! at 10 years old?? wut thaa..? who could have thought that such an innocent girl is the victim of incest? gosh.. that was one of the million stories and experience that they get from the programme.. really wish i could join.. this is totally an eye openner for everyone who joined.. and really teach u to appreciate life and make full use of it!

meeting the AYTR has really broaden my mind.. to not only think about me, but also to think of someone else. well, that's the whole purpose of PKTR anyways.. to produce future leaders that will lead malaysia to success and multi-billion profits! ahax!! ryte..~

anyways, starting tomoro.. i'll be on my mission to send my frens off to canada.... (waaa!!! asal korunk pegi awal sangat??? ) nyways, really gonna miss u guys.. farisa, ariff, ainil, izye, wawey, budi, mu'min, baim, nanas sausuke,..... mr harun, cik fuzah, zul.... and the rest.. sorry laa tak letak name korunk skali.. really gonna miss you guys!! i'll try my best to go send all u guys off.. but, tak leyh janji laa.. i'll try my best.. (hurm.. cam penah dgr je phrase nih..??)

owkay.. serena had juz prepared our lunch.. thanx dearie!!! and owh.. photos from the gathering, i'll post them next month.. i've reached my limit already.. so, be patient k!! ahax! *muax* to all!!

:: summer_breeze ::