i wonder if he knows he's all i think about at night

Teardrops On My Guitar

(TAYLOR SWIFT)

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

What I want and I need and

Everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful

That girl he talks about

And she's got everything

That I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause its so damn funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

CHORUS

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin star

He's the song in the car I keep singing,

Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me

Can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold on tight,

And give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes

know she's lucky cause

CHORUS

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishin on a wishin' star

He's the song in the car I keep singing,

Don't know why I do

So I'll drive home alone,

As I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one that's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up

But there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me

I fake a smile so he won't see..

*to my 'drew'.. this song's for you.. sigh~*

:: summer_breeze ::

break in + suicide = trauma

HELO peeps.

this week is DEFINITELY the worse week i had ever had so far. let's see. 1stly, last saturday, someone broke into my unit and smart enuff to leave the door open to let me know he was inside the house. the real story, here goes:
as usual, i was sleeping on the couch. like any other saturday morning, we were all still sleeping at 7am. planning to wake up at 7am, but i turned off the alarm and continue my beautiful sleep. and then suddenly i woke up, and trying to reach for my ophone, which i normally put on the coffee table right next to me. my eyes are still close, so i just tried to look for it, but just cant seem to find it. i opened my eyes, and was quite surprised to seen an empty table. (p/s:i kept my laptop on the whole night, and put it on that table too) and i looked on the floor, there it is, unplugged and all, and my phone is right next to it. and i was thinking to myself "hebat gak aku tido.. sampai tersepak bende alah ni sampai terjatuh." i checked for any physical damage on my laptop, but there were none. so i was quite relief. then i ran to the balcony to check wether the bus has arrive or not, and the bus is not there. was planning to go into my room and take my bath, suddenly i saw, the door and THE GRILL is WIDE OPEN!! still not wanting to think of the worse, i thought any of my hsemate may have ran out and didnt have the time to lock it back. but none of them were awake at that time. then, i was thinking of looking outside, who knows someone is there.. that's when i saw SOMEONE was PEEPING IN from behind the wall!! i was sooo shocked and scared, i IMMEDIATELY close the door and lock it. i wake my hsemates up, called the guards, report about it and asked them to check the floor, who knows the guy's stupid enuff to stick around. got scolded by the guards for not locking the grill and the main door *blame us all there. :)* but occured to my mind was, if the guy didnt take anything, so why the hell did he broke into our hse? and this thing, still scare me, up until now. am now in trauma. keep on imagining, someone might just break in again and i'll wake up with another open front door, but with some creepy guy in the house.. waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!! im SCARED!!

and secondly: i saw someone commited suicide. "seriously?" my answer is: YES. the complete story:
i had just came back from college, and was walking in from the main gate to block A, where suddenly i saw sumthing white fell from above. and i was thinking to myself "what the hell?? people nowadays simply throw away rubbish from their balcony. gila~" and then i saw it: the GUY'S FACE. like.... sH*t! its a HUMAN!! someone just commit suicide like, right on front of my eyes! but thank god, i was around 10m away, so i didnt really have a very good look of him.. and then, some women start screaming and running.. and me *with all poyoness* start screaming, "somebody call 911!!!" ... (which i, only a while ago, realised, there's no such thing as 911 in malaysia. ahaha.. and just now, i may have sound stupid. haha.)
anyway, i was soooooooooo shocked with the stupid/scary incident. i just ran to the lobby, covering my face, coz i dont want to look/see the guy again. i went into the lift and cried. the boys was there.. and thanx to them, i felt a bit better and stabilize..

so.. if anyone told u ur week had been bad, try to top mine.

conclusion: im full with scary memories this week.. and still am traumatized..

:: summer_breeze ::

before it's too late.. what about now?

WHAT ABOUT NOW
(Daughtry)

Shadows fill an empty heart

As love is fading,

From all the things that we are

But are not saying.

Can we see beyond the scars

And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.

And open up to

The ways you made me feel alive,

The ways I loved you.

For all the things that never died,

To make it through the night,

Love will find you.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes

To start a new day.

This broken heart can still survive

With a touch of your grace.

Shadows fade into the light.

I am by your side,

Where love will find you.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love, it never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on.

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life,

I am yours.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,

Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

i LOVE THIS SONG, EXTREMELY! dedicated to you.. if you know it's you..

:: summer_breeze ::

SHIT HAPPENS

hey guys..

it has been a while since the last time i wrote sumthing in here. right now, my mind is a little bit disturbed.. mainly becoz of MINORITY REPORT, which is airing now.. though, it's ending. ok. now, it ends.

anyway, as i was saying, my mind is a little bit disturbed now. there's my A2, which is MESSING with my head BIG TIME, and i am not even prepared for it yet. then, my bestfriend had just left, and im almost alone here. i know i still have super, awesome great friend around me (THANX A LOT u guys for being as great as always. love u all), but, u know how it feels like when u lost 'YOUR PERSON' -- u know, that someone who u always go to when u have problems, the person who u will call when u just found out bout the lamest joke ever.. the person who u will share ur secrets, ur big moments in life -- be it ur happy moments, or sad moments.. u know.. so, when u dont have 'YOUR PERSON' around u and reachable, then, u will feel EXACTLY how i feel right now..

and then, there's this feeling/emotional conflict that i had been having for quite a while now.. the confusion, the frustration, the waiting, the mountain-high hopes, the endless/bottomless pit.. owkay, to make it simple, let me illustrate it to u how this feeling/emotional conflict that im having now : it's like, when u are enjoying the scenery of a forest in autumn, with all the leaves had fallen to the ground.. and the grasses are green, the wind are blowing gently through your hair.. and suddenly, u fall into this pit but at the same time u still can enjoy the view, but the problem is u keep on falling and falling and falling.. and it seems like there are no end to this pit. it's bottomless.. and  along the way u keep on trying to grab on something, so that at least u can stop falling, and climb back up, but everytime u tried to reach that something, it keeps on breaking and letting u fall... and fall.. and fall.. and frankly speaking, i am still falling.. i still cant find that solid 'something' for me to hold on to from the pit's wall.. and i am still falling.. i hate it. i hate it so much that my heart is aching. this is too painful to bear, ok. i just hope.. agh! i just hope everything will be over soon. and this pit. stop being a pit. just let the wall falls of, and return me back on solid ground. im too tired of falling now.. i dont care if i still can enjoy the view..just let me be elsewhere.. i hate the pit now. i hate it. agh! if only anyone even understand what im talking bout here..

u know how i keep telling myself and everyone around me: LIFE IS HOW YOU MAKE IT. and some other inspiring quotes about life. but what surprise me is that, i cant seem to make the quotes inspire MY life. how suck is tat?

gosh.. i hate myself for thinking TOO MUCH on unnecessary things like this. i just hope i can just focus on my A2 now.. and let watever happens, happens. (i hope.. sigh~)

am too depressed to write anything now. and to raiz and yasz, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. (that is, if by any chance u guys are reading this)

alryte all.. till the next time, u will be hearing from me again.. thanx for reading. bye.

:: summer_breeze ::

i love papa n mama

i am here again..
i just want to say that i really miss my mama n papa rite now.. i always thot that i never appreciate them enuff for everything they had done for me.. ever since i was a lil child, up until now, they had always been there, guding me, teaching me.. and most importantly, loving me.. they had ALWAYS been there.. but i never REALLY, REALLY appreciate them. i always complain. they dont do this, they're not cool enuff, they're not sporting enuff, they're too strict.. they can be a pain.. i complained too much.. but at the end of the day, they are the one who can accept me, for who i really am..

i had just watched the 13th episode of grey's anatomy season 3 (for those who hasn't watch it, GO WATCH!). in this episode, O'Malley's father died, becoz of cancer. this had made me realised, that u will never know what will happen next. im not saying that i want sumthing bad to happen, in fact I DONT WANT THAT.. all i wanted to say is that, i should and still can make full use of the time i have with them and appreciate them and LOVE them with my undying love.. coz no matter who i fall in love or care or what ever, they are the one who will forever own my love and my heart.

for mama and papa:
NADYA REALLY, REALLY LOVES BOTH OF YOU.
I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU GUYS HAD DONE FOR ME..
IF BY ANY CHANCE I HAD MADE U ANGRY OR SAD OR WORRIED.. I KNOW I HAVE.. AND I AM REALLY, REALLY, REALLY SORRY..
I JUST WANT TO MAKE BOTH OF YOU PROUD OF ME, THAT IS ALL..
THANK YOU FOR THE TRUST YOU HAD GIVEN ME
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LESSONS THAT U GUYS HAD GIVEN ME THROUGHOUT MY LIFE.. I WONT BE THE PERSON I AM TODAY IF ITS NOT BECAUSE OF BOTH OF YOU..
I LOVE YOU BOTH: PAPA N MAMA,
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING..

-nadya-
xoxoxo

p/s: i am missing mama n papa like mad now.. :'(

:: summer_breeze ::